Helena began, “We can come with—”
“No!” Venetia winced at the harshness of her refusal. She took a deep breath. “I’d like to go by myself.”
“Are you sure about this?” Millie asked hesitantly.
“Quite. And don’t look so downcast—it will only be two days before you see me again.”
But they did look downcast, dismayed, and anxious. They wanted to keep her near and protect her. Some hurts, however, were beyond the protection of sisterly love and some wounds better licked in dark, lonely caves.
“I’d better hurry,” she said. “Or I’ll miss my train.”
Venetia had once thought she’d made peace with Tony’s memories. She’d lied to herself. There had never been peace, only a tenuous truce with him forever silent and her studiously avoiding the subject.
And now even that truce had been undone. As her train sped south, she stared at the still-frozen landscape rushing by, while a bewildered, plaintive voice in her head kept repeating the same question. Why had you said such things to Lexington, Tony, why?
It’s simple enough, you idiot. He wanted someone to believe you were responsible for his death.
Why this should come as such a bitter surprise, she didn’t know. Perhaps with the passage of time, she’d allowed herself to romanticize the past, to believe that her marriage hadn’t been so suffocating after all, that she’d been no more unhappy than anyone else, and that Tony hadn’t really proved himself anywhere near as mean-spirited a man.
This, then, was his way to remind her, from beyond the grave, of her misery, heartbreak, and shame.
Of the truth.
Venetia’s head pounded as she detrained at Grand Central Station. She almost walked past the sign held by her friend Lady Tremaine’s driver. Lady Tremaine, her husband, and their two young daughters had already departed for England, but they’d put their automobile at Venetia’s disposal.
The manservant, who told her his name was Barnes, guided Venetia outside, to where he’d parked the vehicle. Except for the lack of harnessed horses, the automobile exactly resembled a victoria—the open body, the raised driver’s seat in the front, even the calash hood at the back.
“Driving hats for you, Mrs. Easterbrook, from Lady Tremaine.” Barnes motioned toward the stack of hatboxes on the seat.
“Very considerate of her,” Venetia murmured.
Most veiled hats employed ornamental lattices of fabric meant not to conceal, but to draw more attention to the face. The driving hats from Lady Tremaine, however, were not the least bit frivolous. Not that they were ugly, but their veils were proper veils, consisting of two layers of fine netting that wound all around the brim of the hat.
“We won’t go very fast in the city,” said Barnes, adjusting his driving goggles, “but you might find a hat useful driving out in the country, ma’am.”
Venetia unpinned her own hat and set the driving hat on her head. The effect was that of being plunked down inside a fog—not a London pea souper, but the kind of fog she encountered on early morning walks in the country, like smoke flowing on the ground.
The bustle outside Grand Central Station receded. Barnes cranked the engine, climbed onto his seat, and released the brake. The now dreamlike streets of Manhattan glided by outside Venetia’s translucent cocoon, the colors muted, the buildings smudged at the edges, the passersby blurred in ways that might intrigue modern artists.
Would that she traveled through her entire life at such a remove, protected from its pitfalls and upheavals.
They drove for a mile or so before the automobile came to a stop. “Here’s your hotel, Mrs. Easterbrook. All seventeen stories of it,” said Barnes proudly. “Ain’t it grand? All electric, too—and a telephone in each room.”
The hotel was indeed very tall, dwarfing its neighbors.
“Very impr—”
Venetia froze. Striding down the street toward her, tall, haughty, and impeccably turned out, was none other than the Duke of Lexington. He cast a cursory glance at the automobile and headed inside the hotel.
Her hotel. What was he doing here?
Her first instinct was to run. She would lodge elsewhere—she didn’t need seventeen stories or a telephone receiver in her room. She had not escaped to New York to be under the same roof as her nemesis.
But a perverse pride refused to let her make the request to Barnes. She squared her shoulders. “Very impressive. I’m sure I will enjoy my stay.”
If anyone ought to run in the opposite direction, it was he, not she. She had not slandered anyone. She had not spread malicious rumors. She had not spoken without regard to consequences.
A doorman materialized to help her down. The hotel’s porters came to receive her luggage. She declined Barnes’s offer to speak for a room for her, tipped him, and bid him good day.
Not until she was crossing the onyx-and-marble rotunda of the hotel did she realize she was still fully veiled. The dim interior made it more difficult to see, but she was far from blind. She arrived at the hotel clerk’s station without mishap.
The hotel clerk blinked once at her appearance. “Good afternoon, ma’am. May I help you?”
Before she could reply, another clerk several feet down the counter offered a greeting of his own. “Good afternoon, Your Grace.”
She froze again.
“Any news on my passage?” came Lexington’s cool voice.
“Indeed, sir. We have secured you a Victoria suite on the Rhodesia. There are only two such suites on the liner, and you will be assured of the greatest comfort, privacy, and luxury for your crossing.”
“Departure time?”
“Tomorrow morning at ten, sir.”
“Very good,” said Lexington.
“Ma’am, may I help you?” Venetia’s clerk asked again.
Unless she abruptly abandoned the counter, she must speak and, at some point, give her name. She cleared her throat—and out came a string of German. “Ich hätte gerne Ihre besten Zimmer.”
She was running away after all. She balled her fingers, the chaos inside her igniting into anger.
“Beg your pardon, ma’am?”
Through gritted teeth, she repeated herself.
The clerk looked flustered. Without turning, without ever having appeared to pay attention, Lexington said, “The lady would like your best rooms.”
“Ah yes, of course. Your name, please, ma’am.”
She swallowed and reached randomly. “Baronesse von Seidlitz-Hardenberg.”
“And how many nights will you be staying with us, ma’am?”
She held out two fingers. The clerk wrote something in his ledger. Venetia signed the register with her new alias.
“Here is your key, baroness. And a walking map of Central Park, which you will find just outside our doors. We hope you enjoy your stay.”
A hotel attendant ushered her toward the lift, which came promptly, the metallic cage shunting into place with a soft ding. An accordion door folded into the wall; the inner door slid open.
“Good afternoon, ma’am,” said the lift attendant. “Good afternoon, Your Grace.”
Him again. She turned her head a few surreptitious degrees. Lexington stood to the side, slightly behind her, waiting for her to enter the lift. Move, she ordered herself. Move.
Somehow her feet carried her forward. Lexington followed her inside. He glanced her way, but did not acknowledge her. Instead, he turned his attention to the gilded panels that adorned the elevator’s interior.
“Which floor, ma’am?” asked the lift attendant.
“Fünfzehnter Stock,” she said.
“Pardon, ma’am?”
“The lady wishes to go to the fifteenth floor,” said the duke.
“Ah, thank you, sir.”
The lift was leisurely, almost sluggish, in its ascent. She began to suffocate under her veil. Yet she dared not breathe with any vigor, for fear she’d betray her agitation. The duke, on the other hand, was at his ease. His jaw carried no tension. His posture was straight but not rigid. His hands, folded over the top of his walking stick, were perfectly relaxed.
Her anger blazed to a firestorm. It roared in her ears. Her fingertips were hot with a desire for violence.
How dare he? How dare he use her to illustrate his stupid, misogynistic points? How dare he destroy her hard-won peace of mind? And how dare he ooze such cool smugness, such insufferable satisfaction with his own life?
When the lift dinged into place on the fifteenth floor, she charged out.
“Gnädige Frau.”
It took her a moment to recognize his voice, speaking in German.
She walked faster. She did not want to hear his voice. She did not want to further perceive his presence. She wanted only that he should fall into a pit of vipers on his next expedition and suffer the painful effects of their venom for the remainder of his life.
“Your map, madam,” he said, still in German. “You left it in the lift.”
“I don’t need it anymore,” she answered curtly in the same language, without turning around. “Keep it.”
Christian tossed the baroness’s map on the console table just inside his suite. He pulled off his coat, dropped it on the back of a chair, and deposited himself in the chair opposite.
Ten days after the fact, he remained astonished by his own conduct. What had possessed him? As a man plagued by a chronic condition, he’d learned to live with it. He carried on. He kept busy. And he never spoke of it.
Until he did, luridly, at length, in a theater full of strangers.
He wanted to never think of this gross misstep again, but he kept revisiting his confession—the defiant pleasures of at last acknowledging, however obliquely, his fixation upon Mrs. Easterbrook, the bottomless mortification once he realized what he’d done.
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