However, it wasn’t the performance but the judge, the man who holds your mother’s life in his hands, that I was watching. A beam of light from a dusty window fell right onto his table, and at times, I could see his parchment-thin, yellowing hand reach out to grasp his cup of tea. I desperately tried to get at least a glimpse of him, but every time he turned my way, his face was screened by a paper fan.

I’m going to try to approach him tomorrow. To say that I’m afraid would be a huge understatement. If I was faced with the prospect of a fight, I’d be inspired with rage or at least assessing my opponent’s strengths and weaknesses, but I feel as if I’m about to jump into a well.

I don’t know why I’m writing all this. You’re only three years old, and when you grow up, you won’t remember me. The idea that I might disappear from your life without a trace pains me intensely, but I have no other choice. I just want you to know what has happened to me.

Well, good-bye for now. It’s time to go sleep or rather to toss and turn in my bed and pray for help from a God whom I find it increasingly hard to believe in.

Love you. Dad 2

Levkin would regularly bring Nina new notes from her husband—words of encouragement and short silly poems that Klim had composed to keep her spirits up.

He never wrote about his feelings for her or made any mention of making up, and Nina still had no clue what his intentions were. Was Klim being so diffident because he didn’t want Levkin to learn about his feelings? Or was Klim just supporting his wife out of compassion? He had, nevertheless, given up his beloved radio station for her sake, so surely that suggested that he was seeking a reconciliation.

If I’m released, what is going to happen next? Nina asked herself. She knew that once this major threat was over, Klim would always be prone to suspicion, and the round of jealousy and rejection would start all over again.

They seemed to find it much easier to love each other in times of trouble when they weren’t faced with the small humdrum problems of everyday life. But Nina now realized that true happiness rested on the precious everyday trinkets that adorn our lives. Of course, a person could live without them, in much the same way as people could survive without books or music, but an existence without such things soon becomes a pale imitation of what life really should be.

Soon Levkin brought her another thing to ponder.

“Your Shanghai friend says hi to you,” he whispered into Nina’s ear during his next visit. “The one who helped you with the antiques. I saw him yesterday, and he asked me to convey his best wishes to you.”

Nina gasped. “Does Klim know that this man is here in Peking?” she asked.

Levkin nodded. “Yes, they came to our embassy together. I think they are good friends.”

Nina had no idea what it all meant.

3

Finally, the trial began. The recently renovated courtroom was empty except for the participants in the proceedings, the clerks, and the guards. As Levkin had predicted, it was essentially a closed hearing.

Before the session started, he gave the accused his instructions: “Please be sure to control your feelings—that’s the most important thing. And we,” he exchanged glances with his Chinese colleagues, “will see to everything else.”

“All rise!” the interpreter intoned coldly.

To Nina, the old judge with his embroidered coat, silk hat, and ethereal sallow complexion looked more like a dark spirit floating over the surface of the floor than a normal human being. His face was as blank and inscrutable as a death mask.

He interrogated the accused one by one.

“Declare your name and how long you’ve been living in China,” he said. However, it was unclear whether he was listening to the Russian “white ghosts” or their lawyers at all.

Nina stared intently at his waxen face, with its barely visible apertures for eyes. For an instant she imagined that the judge didn’t have any eyes at all and that she was staring straight into a black void. The man is completely hollow inside, nothing more than an empty wrinkled husk, she thought.

The hearing dragged on forever, like a school lesson taught by an uninspiring teacher.

Huo Cong told Fanya that her husband was an evil man. “From the documents seized in your embassy, it has come to light that Mikhail Borodin called Dr. Sun Yat-sen ‘a simpleton who thinks too much of himself.’ Here in China, we believe that only the greatest scoundrel would possibly condemn his master behind his back.”

Fanya fidgeted on her bench, and Nina thought she was going to blurt out something terrible. But, thank God, Fanya managed to control herself and merely repeated what Levkin had told her to say: “I’m just a woman, and I don’t interfere in my husband’s business.”

Nina was questioned about the airplane, where had it come from and who was the person she was going to sell it to.

“I was slandered!” she said passionately. “Ask the people who signed the search protocol. Let them prove that it was my airplane.”

The judge mumbled something, and the interpreter shook his head. “These people are not here,” he said. “The matter could take several more weeks if they are summoned. So it’s not in your best interests.”

Nina looked helplessly at her lawyers. What did the judge have in mind? Was he just hoping to close the case as soon as possible? Or was he really trying to help her?

The lawyers talked interminably in their incomprehensible Mandarin dialect.

If Huo Cong were to sentence me to death, what would happen to me? Nina thought. She had often had nightmares of being dragged to a place of execution through an angry, jeering crowd. She would try and fail to find Klim among the sea of hostile faces. She would scream his name, but he would never respond.

The judge finally announced that there would be an adjournment. Everyone stood up while he went out, and the guards escorted the exhausted prisoners out of the courtroom.

“It seems that Huo Cong might be willing to listen to Ma Dazhang,” one of the diplomatic messengers whispered to Nina.

She nodded blankly. She still couldn’t remember which of her lawyers was Ma and which was Guo.

4

On the night before sentence was to be pronounced, Nina couldn’t sleep a wink. I want to fall asleep and never wake up again, she thought with a macabre shiver. Although that might be exactly what happens to me once Huo Cong pronounces his verdict.

Nina passed her hand over the back of her neck and caressed the dimple that Klim so loved to kiss. This was the spot that the curved blade of the Chinese executioner’s sword would hit, and in a split second, everything that had once been Nina—everything that had been so warm, precious, and full of life—would be nothing more than a bloody mess.

How will Klim and Kitty cope with my death? she thought, trying to suppress the convulsive sobs that wracked her body. Will they feel sorrow at my passing? Will they remember me at all?

Never before, even during the war, had Nina experienced such a desperate fear of death.

She remembered herself as a child watching a baby deer with broken hind legs. Hunters had found it in the woods and taken it to the city to show to the children. It had been looking at little Nina, shaking with pain and terror, its face covered with dirt and snot smeared all over its matted fur.

Then the baby deer had been taken away, and later one of the hunters had brought Nina’s mother a chunk of meat, still warm and bloody, with a clump of red fur hanging off it. “Here,” he said, “feed your children.”

Nina now felt as helpless as that little animal.

5

Nina found herself back in the courtroom again, intersected with dusty rays of sunshine and stuffy with the smell of fresh paint. Huo Cong began to read the introductory part of the sentence, and the interpreter translated, barely able to suppress his yawns.

Nina kept her eyes peeled on the judge, a single thought pulsating through her head: This man is about to pronounce my death sentence.

Huo Cong applied his seal to a piece of paper and said something quietly and impassively. Here it comes, thought Nina.

The interpreter scratched his cheek.

“On behalf of the Republic of China,” he declared, “Judge Huo Cong declares you—not guilty.”

Fanya and Nina burst into tears, and the diplomatic messengers hugged each other and shouted in relief.

Someone grabbed Nina by the shoulder. She turned and was surprised to see Levkin’s tense and deadly pale face.

“Let’s get out of here!” he hissed to her. “Hurry up if you want to live.”

6

Huo Cong had decided that the two hundred thousand dollars that the Soviets had offered him would be sufficient to support him for the rest of his life. He and Klim had agreed that he would get half the money before the sentence, and the other half after the prisoners’ release.

Klim was now waiting for him in a gas lamp repair shop used by Bolsheviks as a safe house. It was a stone’s throw away from the courthouse, and it had been arranged that Huo Cong would come there immediately after pronouncing sentence to receive his second payment.

Klim stalked between the drawers and boxes, constantly glancing at his watch, anxious with anticipation. If all was going to plan, he would see Nina in less than an hour. According to the agreement, the judge would release her from the courtroom, and Levkin would immediately take her and the other prisoners to the Soviet Embassy.