“She is.” A woman elbows her way around him. “Stella, what does Kim Archer’s baby mean for your relationship with Tyler Walsh?” She shoves a compact recorder beneath my chin and I take a step back.

I need Tyler here, right now. I need to lean on him the way I did at the premiere, but a camera is clicking fast in my face and my tears from the tattoo parlor probably left ugly streaks down my cheeks that are easily misinterpreted.

“Excuse me.” I push past the woman, digging in my purse for keys with my unbandaged hand.

The flock of reporters closes around me as I approach the warehouse door. “Do you live here, Stella? Are you Tyler’s girlfriend?”

I punch keys into the door locks frantically, trying to throw each bolt to escape this assault.

“Are you pregnant too? Did Tyler pressure you to have sex?”

I drop my keys and bite back a curse, snatching them from the ground before someone grabs them.

“Why is your wrist bandaged? Did Tyler hurt you? Did you hurt yourself?”

The questions grow louder and uglier but I hide my face, trying desperately to come up with something to make them go away.

Feeling the last lock click open, I turn and smile sweetly, summoning a lie with all the composure I can muster. “Tyler’s practicing with his band in Brooklyn today. Their new album is going to be amazing.”

I crack open the door and edge through it as cameras follow my movements and try to capture a look inside. I nearly crush some guy’s hand wrapped around his camera as I yank the door closed and throw the locks back into place.

My heart and head are pounding and I collapse in a puddle on the bottom step. This is too much. My gut seethes with hatred for the woman who exposed Tyler to the tabloids.

Being chased, harassed, and taunted with questions. Is this the way Tyler will have to live his life? And for how long?

TWENTY-EIGHT

The loft smells musty when I get inside and it’s quiet. I pour a glass of water in the kitchen and lean against the counter while I drink it down. Other than some dirty dishes in the sink and a pile of newspapers and magazines near the couches, I don’t see signs of life.

I check my phone. No texts. No voicemail. My e-mail shows nothing from so-called friends from work, and I’m not yet ready to post anything on Facebook. I need time to lick my wounds in peace.

Yoga. That’s what I should do to quell the angry buzz in my chest that can’t let go of the sting from today. You’re fired. As I change into a yoga outfit in my makeshift bedroom I hear something clatter above me.

“Tyler?” I take the stairs to Tyler’s bed loft two at a time and he’s sprawled on the bed in his boxers.

“Heh—hey,” Tyler says, “whatchu doin’ home?”

Home. There’s that word again. It speaks of promise and permanence and it makes me ache with want.

Tyler’s grin is watered down, his arms are floppy and his speech is slurred. Great. He’s drunk. I imagine his day has been far worse than mine, and after this morning, I can’t judge.

“There are a bunch of reporters downstairs. And fucking Kim Archer is everywhere, all over the news.”

“Fuckin’ Kim Arsha,” Tyler repeats, slurring her name. “Everywhere.”

“Did you—is that baby is really yours, Tyler? I mean, if it is, if she is, why don’t you take responsibility for her?”

“I gave her ten thousan’ dollas,” he says, his eyes rolling up to the ceiling. “I jus’ wan’ her to have a good life.”

The admission punches me in the gut. Ten thousand dollars. More money than any normal person has lying around, and he gives it to a woman who dragged his name through the mud and made his life hell in the last twenty-four hours. Shit.

“Why are you hiding from this, then? If the baby is yours, why don’t you just say so and let the media have its day? They’ll move on to another story if you just tell them the truth.” Tears sting my eyes, angry that Tyler hid the truth from me.

He didn’t trust me enough to tell me. That hurts. Ire stirs in my gut and I clench my teeth against words I’ll regret.

“I can’t tell ’em the truth. I don’ even know what it is.” Tyler looks like he might cry, but his body is leaden and he makes no move to reach for me.

And that’s what I want so desperately right now, someone to hold and comfort me after my hellacious day. I’m so distraught I can hardly look at him.

“Fine. Then just hide up here and pretend it’s not happening.”

“It’s not …” he trails off.

“It is, Tyler. That woman made you look like you abandoned your child and you just gave her thousands of dollars? You didn’t trust me enough to tell me about it, but when it’s all over Twitter, you expect me to step up and defend you. Like you said, Tyler, you’re either all in or you’re not. Because you can’t have it both ways!”

I pound down the stairs and the tabloids on the coffee table scream at me. It’s worse than I thought—Kim Archer is everywhere, her fluffy blonde hair shining around her face as she cradles her toothless baby girl.

Tyler’s baby.

Bold quotes blare from the edges of the story, accusations that Tyler is shirking his responsibilities, that he’s a deadbeat dad.

But these barbs don’t mesh with the Tyler I know, the sweet, kind man who would do anything for his friends. Hell, he’d do anything for me: open his home, pluck gravel from my knees, hang curtains—orange, because it’s my favorite color—and even rescue me from some stupid Lothario in a bar.

He’d do anything but tell me the truth.

And that’s when I realize this sweet little charade of playing house is over. It has to be. If I’m going to rescue any shred of my dignity, I’ve got to get on with my life. I can’t keep freeloading, letting him rescue me, settling for the scraps Tyler’s willing to share.

I have to fly with my own wings.

I pack my clothes in a rush, desperate to leave this place before weakness and want overtake me. Dixon’s texts from last night haunt me—Tyler’s willing to drag me through hell to protect himself.

The evidence is there at the door to his warehouse, a media feeding frenzy that paints me as the other woman and already cost me my job. When this story is over, what will Tyler do?

I can guess. It’s the same thing he did to Kim Archer—walk away.

I call a cab and huddle with my suitcase in the stairwell, unwilling to face the swarm of reporters lurking on the other side until the cab arrives. Where can I go? Not to Beryl at Gavin’s apartment. And not to Violet and Neil’s—I’m sure I’ve already worn out my welcome.

If that settlement money is real, it could be a fresh start for me—goodbye student loans, hello huge deposit on a small apartment, and for the first time I’d have a cushion in the bank to give me breathing room to find a new job. Beryl says her uncle is hiring more property managers.

I feel like a coward. I couldn’t even bring myself to say goodbye to Tyler. I slump as images from the last time I tried to walk away from him rush back to me.

Jet Black hovering as I leaned against the wall in the Bowery Hotel’s bar, drunk and willing to let him take me.

Tyler’s disappointed eyes watching as I hurled every last drink into the toilet. He told me, “I fought for you, Stella, and I want you to fight for me … fight to stay.”

But now Tyler’s not fighting for me at all. He’s drunk, withdrawn …

Drunk?

No.

Not Tyler. Not Mr. Light Beer. Jayce’s warnings rush into my brain.

“When something’s bugging him, he lets his blood sugar get all wacky…”

“If he gets too low it’ll look like he’s stoned or really out of it. You’ll see it before he does.”

I race back to Tyler’s loft, my heart pounding a staccato beat in my head. I throw open his door and hear a choking gurgle.

A cough, a splutter, and another gurgle.

The otherworldly noise sends a chill of dread up my spine.

I force myself upstairs toward the noise. Tyler’s eyes are wide but unseeing, his back arched, blood dripping from the corners of his mouth. He coughs and chokes again, spraying a mist of blood across his naked chest and the bed.

I run to his side, awash in fear. I shove my hands under his shoulder, pushing him to his side, and he coughs and sputters again. Terror shoots through me, a million questions that scream, What do I do? What’s happening to him? Help! Help! Help!

I look around frantically for a phone. Tyler doesn’t have a landline and I have no idea where his cell is. I yank a pillow from the bed and shove it under his shoulder to keep his body rolled to the side. He’s coughing and choking, his chest expanding as he draws a gurgling breath.

I race back down the stairs, grab my purse and dump it on my bed, searching through the junk to find my phone.

Almost dead, but not quite. I punch in 911 and squelch a wave of nausea as I hear the phone ring twice. I hear more coughing and race back upstairs, where Tyler has rolled almost all the way on his back. There’s blood all around him, smeared across the sheets, his face and chest. So much blood.

“911, what is your emergency?” The too-calm voice cuts into my thoughts as I hold the phone to my ear with one hand and shove hard on Tyler’s shoulder to push him back on his side.

“He’s choking. Tyler. He’s choking on his own blood. Send an ambulance! Help me!”

I’m panicked but force my thoughts to slow to a pace at which I can answer the operator’s questions. I bang my hand on Tyler’s back when he chokes and his short, labored breaths suck in blood and send him into another coughing fit. More blood spills from his mouth.