‘I’m a bit of a failure, I’m afraid,’ he said quite soon after his arrival. He was sitting on the edge of the kitchen table, his hair flopping in his eyes, pushing runner beans through a slicer, as instructed by Belle.
‘Oh no,’ Belle said at once, and warmly, ‘I’m sure you aren’t. I’m sure you’re just not very good at self-promotion.’
Edward stopped slicing to extract a large, mottled pink bean that had jammed the blades. He said, slightly challengingly, ‘Well, I was thrown out of Eton.’
‘Were you?’ they all said.
Margaret took one earphone out. She said, with real interest, ‘What did you do?’
‘I was lookout for some up-to-no-good people.’
‘What people? Real bad guys?’
‘Other boys.’
Margaret leaned closer. She said, conspiratorially, ‘Druggies?’
Edward grinned at his beans. ‘Sort of.’
‘Did you take any?’
‘Shut up, Mags,’ Elinor said from the far side of the room.
Edward looked up at her for a moment, with a look she would have interpreted as pure gratitude if she thought she’d done anything to be thanked for, and then he said, ‘No, Mags. I didn’t even have the guts to join in. I was lookout for the others, and I messed up that, too, big time, and we were all expelled. Mum has never forgiven me. Not to this day.’
Belle patted his hand. ‘I’m sure she has.’
Edward said, ‘You don’t know my mother.’
‘I think’, said Marianne from the window seat where she was curled up, reading, ‘that it’s brilliant to be expelled. Especially from anywhere as utterly conventional as Eton.’
‘But maybe,’ Elinor said quietly, ‘it isn’t very convenient.’
Edward looked at her intently again. He said, ‘I was sent to a crammer instead. In disgrace. In Plymouth.’
‘My goodness,’ Belle said, ‘that was drastic. Plymouth!’
Margaret put her earphone back in. The conversation had gone back to boring.
Elinor said encouragingly, ‘So you got all your A levels and things?’
‘Sort of,’ Edward said. ‘Not very well. I did a lot of – messing around. I wish I hadn’t. I wish I’d paid more attention. I’d really apply myself to it now, but it’s too late.’
‘It’s never too late!’ Belle declared.
Edward put the bean slicer down. He said, again to Elinor, as if she would understand him better than anyone, ‘Mum wants me to go and work for an MP.’
‘Does she?’
‘Or do a law degree and read for the Bar. She wants me to do something – something …’
‘Showy,’ Elinor said.
He smiled at her again. ‘Exactly.’
‘When what you want to do,’ Belle said, picking up the slicer again and putting it back gently into his hand, ‘is really …?’
Edward selected another bean. ‘I want to do community work of some kind. I know it sounds a bit wet, but I don’t want houses and cars and money and all the stuff my family seems so keen on. My brother Robert seems to be able to get away with anything just because he isn’t the eldest. My mother – well, it’s weird. Robert’s a kind of upmarket party planner, huge rich parties in London, the sort of thing I hate, and my mother turns a completely blind eye to that hardly being a career of distinction. But when it comes to me, she goes on and on about visibility and money and power. She doesn’t even seem to look at the kind of person I am. I just want to do something quiet and sort of – sort of …’
‘Helpful?’ Elinor said.
Edward got off the table and turned so that he could look at her with pure undiluted appreciation. ‘Yes,’ he said with emphasis.
Later that night, jostling in front of the bathroom mirror with their toothbrushes and dental floss, Marianne said to Elinor, ‘He likes you.’
Elinor spat a mouthful of toothpaste foam into the basin. ‘No, he doesn’t. He just likes being around us all, because Ma’s cosy with him and we don’t pick on him and tell him to smarten up and sharpen up all the time, like Fanny does.’
Marianne took a length of floss out of her mouth. ‘Ellie, he likes us all. But he likes you in particular.’
Elinor didn’t reply. She began to brush her hair vigorously, upside down, to forestall further conversation.
Marianne reangled the floss across her lower jaw. Round it she said indistinctly, ‘D’you like him?’
‘Can’t hear you.’
‘Yes, you can. Do you, Elinor Dashwood, picky spinster of this parish for whom no man so far seems to be remotely good enough, fancy this very appealing basket case called Edward Ferrars?’
Elinor stood upright and pushed the hair off her face. ‘No.’
‘Liar.’
There was a pause.
‘Well, a bit,’ Elinor said.
Marianne leaned forward and peered into the mirror. ‘He’s perfect for you, Ellie. You’re such a missionary, you’d have to have someone to rescue. Ed is ripe for rescue. And he’s the sweetest guy.’
‘I’m not interested. The last thing I want right now is anyone else who needs sorting.’
‘Bollocks,’ Marianne said.
‘It’s not—’
‘He couldn’t take his eyes off you tonight. You only had to say the dullest thing and he was all over you, like a Labrador puppy.’
‘Stop it.’
‘But it’s lovely, Ellie! It’s lovely, in the midst of everything that’s so awful, to have Edward thinking you’re wonderful.’
Elinor began to smooth her hair back into a ponytail, severely. ‘It’s all wrong, M. It’s all wrong at the moment with all this uncertainty and worrying about money, and where we’ll go and everything. It’s all wrong to be thinking about whether I like Edward.’
Marianne turned to her sister, suddenly grinning. ‘Tell you what …’
‘What?’
‘Wouldn’t it just completely piss off Fanny if you and Ed got together?’
The next day, Edward borrowed Fanny’s car and asked Elinor to go to Brighton with him.
‘Does she know?’ Elinor said.
He smiled at her. He had beautiful teeth, she noticed, even if nobody could exactly call him handsome. ‘Does who know what?’
‘Does – does Fanny know you are going to Brighton?’
‘Oh yes,’ Edward said easily, ‘I’ve got a huge list of things to pick up for her: bath taps and theatre tickets and wallpaper samples from—’
‘I didn’t mean that,’ Elinor said. ‘I meant, does Fanny know you were going to ask me to go with you?’
‘No,’ Edward said. ‘And she needn’t. I have her great bus for the day, I have her shopping list, and nothing else is any of her business.’
Elinor looked doubtful.
‘He’s absolutely right,’ Belle said. ‘She’ll never know and it won’t affect her, knowing or not knowing.’
‘But—’
‘Get in, darling.’
‘Yes, get in.’
‘Come on,’ Edward said, opening the passenger door and smiling again. ‘Come on. Please. Please. We’ll have fish and chips on the beach. Don’t make me go alone.’
‘I should be working …’ Elinor said faintly.
She glanced at Edward. He bent slightly and, with the hand not holding the door, gave her a small, decisive shove into the passenger seat. Then he closed the door firmly behind her. He was beaming broadly, and went back round to the driver’s side at a run.
‘Look at that,’ Marianne said approvingly. ‘Who’s the dog with two tails?’
‘Both wagging.’
The car lurched off at speed, in a spray of gravel.
‘He’s a dear,’ Belle said.
‘You’d like anyone who liked Ellie.’
‘I would. Of course I would. But he’s a dear in his own right.’
‘And rich. The Ferrarses are stinking—’
‘I don’t’, Belle said, putting her arm round Marianne, ‘give a stuff about that. Any more than you do. If he’s a dear boy and he likes Ellie and she likes him, that is more than good enough for me. And for you too, I bet.’
Marianne said seriously, watching the car speeding down the faraway sweep of the drive, ‘He wouldn’t be good enough for me.’
‘Darling!’
Marianne leaned into her mother’s embrace.
‘Ma, you know he wouldn’t do for me. I’m not looking for a nice guy; I’m looking for the guy. I don’t want someone who thinks I’m clever to play the guitar like I do, I want someone who knows why I play so well, who understands what I’m playing, like I do, who understands me for what I am and values that. Values me.’ She paused and straightened a little. Then she said, ‘Ma, I’d rather have nothing ever than just anything. Much rather.’
Belle was laughing. ‘Darling, don’t despair. You only left school a year ago, you’re hardly—’
Marianne stepped sideways so that Belle’s arm slipped from her waist. ‘I mean it,’ she said fiercely. ‘I mean it. I don’t want just a man, Ma. I want a soulmate. And if I can’t have one, I’d rather have nobody. See?’
Belle was silent. She was looking into the middle distance now, plainly not really seeing anything.
‘Ma?’ Marianne said.
Belle shook her head very slightly. Marianne moved closer again.
‘Ma, are you thinking about Daddy?’
Belle gave a small sigh.
‘If you are – and you are, aren’t you? – then you’ll know what I’m talking about,’ Marianne said. ‘If I didn’t get this belief in having, one day, a love of my life from you, who did I get it from?’
Belle turned very slightly and gave Marianne a misty smile. ‘Touché, darling,’ she said.
From her bedroom windows – three bays looking south and two facing west – Fanny could see across the immense lawn to the walled vegetable garden, whose glasshouses were so badly in need of repair, never mind the state of the beds themselves, or the unpruned fruit trees and general neglect visible everywhere. And there, in the decayed soft-fruit cage, with its sagging wire and crooked posts, she could see Belle, in one of her arty smock things and jeans, picking raspberries.
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