She furrowed her brow. “How is helping people a business? If we take tea at the same table and they happen to tell me their troubles… You can’t expect them to pay a total stranger for her opinions on the matter.”

“A stranger over tea, no,” he agreed. “But if you had an office like a secretary or a barrister, and you were renowned as an expert in providing unbiased perspective and common-sense steps to take action on domestic matters, I am convinced you could be a rich woman.”

She tilted her head in interest. This was a good sign. Perhaps he would finally accept her help. “I thought you didn’t want my money.”

“I don’t.” He leaned back in his chair. “That doesn’t mean you should ignore your abilities. You are incredible. And you should be rewarded for it.”

She scoffed. “Who would pay for common sense?”

He lifted an eyebrow. “This is apparently going to come as quite a shock to you, my dear, but…not everyone possesses common sense. In fact, the more fashionable the lady, the less becoming it is to have anything at all between her ears.” His tone was light, but his eyes were surprisingly serious. “I am fortunate indeed to have found a woman with both beauty and brains.”

As warm as his faith in her made her feel inside, she couldn’t imagine Society taking a lady barrister seriously, much less a woman like her, who was dispensing nothing more than common sense.

“We need a plan,” she said instead. “A real one. If I had two thousand pounds, I would force you to take it. We only have a week and a half.”

“I have a plan. I told you this morning.” His eyes looked tired. “I’m going to be an apprentice.”

Frustration gnawed at her. “An apprentice egg-gatherer? An apprentice dairymaid?”

“Not here, of course. London.” He ran a hand through his hair. “My friends and family are there, as are a lot of well-connected people. Most of le bon ton, in fact. High society is our only hope.”

A chill shivered down her spine. She could never return to London. Not only was it her personal hell, but she had no wish for Anthony to witness what the real world truly thought about her.

Besides, she didn’t see how a ten-day apprenticeship would solve anything. Or how his acquaintances would help him procure one. The more well-connected his friends, the less likely they were to dirty their gloves.

She shook her head. “It won’t work. Society doesn’t dabble in trade.”

“Not directly,” he agreed. “But who designs our clothing? Who distributes the coal? Who builds the looms?”

No respectable gentleman, that was certain. And not Anthony. Not before time ran out. “You want to be…a modiste? A factory worker? A miner?”

He sighed. “Perhaps none of those avenues is the perfect choice.”

“Thank heavens,” she muttered. The farther they were from the city, the better. He would have ruined his standing and still not earned enough money. There had to be a better way.

“The point is,” he continued, “well-connected people tend to know other well-connected people. Dukes and marquesses may not seek a trade themselves, but they do invest their money in projects they deem lucrative. One of those is liable to have an opening of some sort. An apprenticeship, a secretary. I would earn more in a day than I could here all year. Apart from the gaming tables, it’s our best chance at real money. We should leave at first light.”

Panic gripped her. No. Not London. Anywhere but London! She had no wish to return to the snubs and degradation. She could not bear to have Anthony look at her with the same disgust. There had to be another way.

“My father is here,” she said, her heart beating frantically. This trip was not only her one chance of finding respectability—her father should be wealthy enough to save them both. “I came this far. I don’t want to leave before finding him.”

He frowned in visible irritation. “You do not approve of going to London, yet you will not let me assist you. What am I supposed to do, Charlotte?”

“You go to London,” she blurted. “I’ll find him on my own, and then find you.”

“I’m not abandoning my wife alone in a foreign country.”

“It’s…Scotland,” she reminded him. And the only place she felt safe. Or anonymous.

“Scotland is no safer than England. You’d still be a woman alone, and I’d still be responsible for your safety.” He leaned forward, brow furrowed. “Why won’t you let me help you find your father?”

She gazed back at him for a long moment. At his kindness, his eagerness to help, the much deserved pride he took in surviving another long day of menial labor. Perhaps he was right. She could use some assistance. After all, the longer they stayed in Scotland, the less she had to worry about going back to London. Anthony might be a huge help. He knew so many people.

At first, she hadn’t wanted her father to meet him, for fear her new husband wouldn’t live up to her father’s standards. But whose standards truly mattered? If she could tell a governess to never mind her sister’s life and concern herself with living her own, then surely Charlotte could take a spoonful of her own medicine.

Perhaps this was the way out. Her father was wealthy enough to give expensive jewels to a prostitute without a second thought. What might he do for his own flesh and blood? Hope blossomed within her. She reached for her husband’s hand. An inheritance could save Anthony’s life—and their marriage.

They might not have chosen each other, but as each hour in his company passed, she dreaded the moment ever more when his creditors might take him from her.

Besides, if she were honest, her true concern wasn’t about her father rejecting Anthony. It was whether her father would accept her.

She’d spent her entire life fantasizing about his eventual return. She’d followed the Society girls about to see how they walked, how they talked. She’d studied fashion plates until her eyes ached from squinting in dim candlelight. She’d practiced curtseys, memorized a melody on the pianoforte, learned a bit of French from a modiste. All in the hopes her father wouldn’t reject her.

However, by avoiding confrontation, she realized with a frown, she wasn’t protecting herself or Anthony. She was procrastinating because, somewhere inside, she was still the same scared little girl she’d always been. Afraid of being laughed at. Of being turned away. Afraid of never being good enough to overcome her past. Afraid her father wouldn’t love her either.

But the laird was just as responsible for her regrettable status as her mother, was he not? He could scarcely blame a child for an act he chose to perform two-and-twenty years ago. She was a woman now. An adult. And she hadn’t come this far just to cower in the corner. Too much depended on her courage.

“All right.” She gave him a shaky smile. “You can help me. I would appreciate your assistance. Thank you for asking.”

He leaned forward and kissed the top of her head. “What are indulgent husbands for?”

“Herding sheep?” she guessed.

“Only in the mornings.” He squeezed her hand. “Please. I want to help you find your father. At least tell me his name.”

Her pulse steadied. Yes. This was good news. If anyone could help her, it was Anthony.

She took a deep breath, then nodded sharply. “Dìonadair.”

Anthony blinked in confusion. “He’s a protector?”

She sighed in exasperation. “No, he’s a laird. My father has noble blood. He…”

He’s a protector? Her explanation vanished as a deep sense of foreboding sank into her stomach. Her husband was not the first to use a word generally reserved for men who paid courtesans for sensual favors. Yet she had never once mentioned her past to Anthony. How could he know about her mother’s history? How long had he known who she really was?

“Why?” she demanded. “Why would you say that?”

“I…” He blinked at her. “Well, you said dìonadair. I don’t claim to be an expert in Gaelic, but I always thought that word meant ‘protector.’ Or perhaps ‘defender.’ Why, is it relevant? Is dìonadair a clue?”

Her blood ran cold. Dìonadair meant protector?

It wasn’t a clue, Charlotte realized with sinking dread. It was a lie. A bald, calculated lie told to a frightened little girl who wanted desperately not to believe she was worthless. A lie to hide her father’s identity. The man was no more than one of her mother’s many paying clients.

She had no one. She was nothing.

“Dìonadair was supposed to be his name,” she said brokenly, as she realized her dreams were as unsubstantial as smoke…dissipating quickly, leaving only a stench behind. “My noble father, the laird. But my hero never existed.”

“I could be wrong,” Anthony said hastily. “Perhaps—perhaps Dìonadair is the second most common surname in Scotland. I wouldn’t know. I’m not a Scot. We could ask—”

She shook her head. It was so painfully obvious, now that she viewed the facts with the eyes of an adult rather than the eyes of a child. There were no facts. She was exactly what people had been telling her all along: nothing.

I see you found your dìonadair, lassie.

That’s what the drunkard had said when he’d caught them in the corridor. The drunkard who had undoubtedly overheard her in the common area earlier, saying she was looking for an older gentleman, a dìonadair.

Laird, preferably.

She clapped a hand over her mouth to stifle a horrified, choking laugh. In her quest to save her reputation, she’d only managed to make it even worse. And for what? Approbation she should have known she could never have?

Anthony reached for her shoulder. “Charlotte…”

She jerked away. She couldn’t stand his touch right now. Couldn’t stand her own skin. Her willful naivety. Her determination to believe in a fantasy. What did she know about her alleged father other than he was supposed to be a laird called Dìonadair, and from Scotland? Wouldn’t there have been more information other than his legendary angelic goodness, if any of it had been real?