Instead, I scurry out of the truck to my bike. I zip up my leather jacket and push the key into the ignition.

“Mac, what the fuck?” Rex says from his open window.

I swing my gaze to him and—why does he look mad?

“What?”

“You fuckin’ kidding me?”

“Um . . . no? Er, I don’t know. What?”

He shuts off his truck, and with the absence of the growl of the engine, I hear him mumble, “She’s not fucking kidding.”

He hops out of the truck, opens the back door on his side, and pulls something out. Rounding the bed of the truck, he prowls toward me, and I’m instantly aware of his problem.

“Oh.”

He shoves a black helmet toward me. “Put it on.”

“Rex, it’s not that far.”

Without a word, he glares at me, the glacial ice of his stare burning me from brain to boots.

“I like the wind in my hair,” I say in an embarrassed whisper.

“Wind? What the . . .?” He blinks and shakes his head. “First, it’s illegal. Second, your hair will look like shit when it’s splattered with your skull and brains all over the damn blacktop.”

I cringe and take the helmet. “Good point.”

“You do this often? Ride without a helmet?”

I shake my head no before sliding it over my head. Truth is I do sometimes. Tight spaces freak me out, and anything over my face feels suffocating, but the clean, spicy smell of Rex’s helmet makes it tolerable.

“Right.” He fastens the strap beneath my chin, making sure to tighten it before flipping up the face guard. “I’ll follow you.”

I nod and make a mental note to never ride without a helmet when Rex is around. Or maybe just ever.

Revving the engine, I kick back the stand and take off down the driveway. He cares about my safety. A warm feeling settles in my chest, and I smile behind the massive bulk of Rex’s helmet.

We race back to my house, and I’m actually looking forward to the lecture I’m sure I’ll get about speed limits and lane-sharing precautions. It’s possible I rode on the wrong side of safety just so I could get a lecture.

Yeah, I’m seriously digging Rex’s protective side.

I round the corner to my street and want to scream and stomp my feet like a pissed off toddler. Fuckin’ shit. Hatch’s motherfucking bike is parked in the driveway.

With a deep sign and herculean effort to hold my shit together, I park my bike. Rex pulls up behind me, his neck cranked in the direction of the Harley. I throw my leg off the bike and pull off his helmet. He gets out of his truck and meets me in the street.

“I didn’t think he’d be here,” I say, trying to keep the disappointment and pissedoffedness out of my voice.

He glares at the Harley and then turns back to me. There’s something working behind his eyes, indecision maybe? I hope he’s not thinking about going in there.

“Look, we can go grab some food, or I don’t know, um . . .” Gosh, think of something, Gia. Anything.

“Whatever we do we better get gone before Tubby issues another girl-beating smackdown.” His words are growled, and his lips curl back from his teeth in a snarl.

“Yes, yeah, let’s do that. Um, where should we go?” I slide on the helmet, showing him I’m ready to take off at his word of where we’re headed.

His expression pinches for a moment before he wipes it to indifferent. “My place.”

Say what?

“Your place?”

He doesn’t answer, but turns to head back to his truck. “Let’s go. Leave your bike.”

I pull the helmet off and practically skip to the passenger side of the truck. Inside Rex’s place, surrounded by his personal things, I’ll learn so much about him. I wonder if he’s having the same concern that I had about dirty clothes? Probably not. Guys are notorious slobs and never seem apologetic about it.

My stomach flips, and the buzz of excitement torpedoes through me. This is twice he’s let me in today. My tumbling belly lands hard with understanding.

If only I could find the strength to do the same.

~*~

Rex

I’m capable of a lot more than I think.

Darren’s encouragement is playing on repeat in my head. I want to try to get better, and I’d planned on taking his advice and asking her over. I just didn’t think it’d be so soon.

I’m strong under pressure, and walking up the path to my condo with Mac trailing behind me is straight up compacting. I focus on my breathing and remind myself that exposure therapy has an eighty percent success rate. That’s close to 100 percent. Almost perfect. Fuck, not close enough.

My hand shakes when I slide my key into the door. I pull it away to avoid it rattling the keys and turn to Mac. “Hey, um . . . this may sound stupid, but”—I run my hand through my hair and drop my chin—“would you mind taking your shoes off?” I risk a glance and hope she’s not horrified by my question.

She tilts her head and smiles, as if she’s waiting for me to tell the punch line.

“I’m kinda germaphobic and uh . . .” Fuck, just tell her the truth. It can’t be worse than making her think you’re some kind of pansy-ass dude who’s afraid of a microbial. I sigh in defeat and tug at my lip ring.

“Rex?”

“Look, Mac, the thing is I—dammit.” I’m capable of more than I think. “I don’t have people over.”

Her eyes widen, and her lips part slightly before she slams them closed.

“That’s why I took you to Emma’s the other night, but she’s home now so . . . I wanted to invite you over to see how it feels to have someone in my place. I figured with tonight’s situation . . . seemed like the perfect opportunity.”

She’s still staring at me with what looks like even bigger eyes, if that’s possible.

“My life is chaotic, and having my place all to myself makes me feel grounded. It’s not healthy, and I’m working on that, but until—”

“No problem.” She reaches down and removes one boot before moving to the other. Holding her boots in one hand, she shifts her chin up and gives me a soft smile. “Anything else?”

That’s it? No problem? She doesn’t seem fazed by my confession, outside of her initial shock.

“No.” I lick my lips to avoid the grin that’s pushing its way to the surface. “That’s it.”

I turn back to open the door and slide my shoes off before stepping inside. I feel the heat of her body at my back, and it sets off my internal alarm. I’m not alone in my house. I breathe past the panic and move to the light switch. With a click, the entire living space lights up.

My head jerks toward the sound of Mac’s gasp. She’s standing inside the doorway, her head swiveling from one side of the room to the other, mouth agape, eyes wide.

So much for her not seeming fazed.

~*~

Mac

No walls. The interior of Rex’s condo is completely open. From his kitchen to his bedroom, all of it exposed. Nothing like his neighbor’s tiny place filled with personal items and photos, this feels more like a museum without the artifacts.

“Just drop your shoes at the door and come in.” His voice sounds strangled, as if he had to force out each word against his will.

My heart cramps violently at what he must be feeling. Those who don’t know his history might think he’s simply a germaphobe with impeccable cleaning skills, but not me. No, I know this is part of him. I’m standing at the threshold of a bi-product of his abuse.

I set my boots down neatly next to his black Chucks and step further into the room. My peripheral vision clocks him standing off to the side, watching me, so I force myself to smile past the wave of unease that comes with knowing why he never allows anyone in this space. He’s protecting himself.

“Rex, this is amazing.” I allow my eyes to settle on his for a split second, non-threatening and brief, and catch the glint of relief. I go back to studying the room and can’t help but feel something familiar in it.

What is it? The furniture is sleek and modern, streamlined leather couches and tables without anything on them. Not a knickknack or personal touch in the entire place.

To the right is a modern kitchen, all stainless steel from the appliances to the countertops. Even his bedroom is nothing more than a low bed and two end tables with nothing but a single and very simple lamp.

It’s industrial. All the walls are painted in the same pale shade of gray, and the treated concrete floor is also gray but a shade darker. My eyes are drawn to the one bold splash of color in the whole room.

Hanging above the block fireplace is a painting. It’s big, over two feet wide, probably four feet tall, and like everything else it’s simple. Orange, like the color of the fire that would burn in the space beneath it. The broad strokes cover the canvas in a diagonal pattern, not so much like the sharp flickers of a flame, but more like the soothing flow of waves. The color pops against the steely expanse of the room. I step closer, feeling drawn to its familiarity.

“I love this painting.”

He clears his throat. “Thanks, I did that when I first moved in.” His voice is still distant, detached, but not as nervous as it was before.

He did it?

My head whips in his direction. “You did it?”

He shrugs and a slight pink colors his cheeks. “Yeah. Thought the place needed a little something.”

A slow smile pulls at my lips at the thought of him painting. It makes sense. A guy who writes music would be creative in other areas. How did I not know this about him? “Do you have others?”

He takes a few steps toward me, looking up at his work. “Nah. Just the one.”