Laughing, he shoved me hard against the wall. The impact of my back against the bricks sent a sharp stab of pain shooting through me, and tears pricked my eyes. Frozen in fear, I watched Conor saunter away.

Several long minutes passed before my fear began to fade away and I felt certain he wasn’t coming back. Finally, with shaky fingers, I reached down and picked up the discarded phone and pressed it to my ear.

“Stelle! Stelle! What the hell is going on?” Vincent’s voice was urgent on the other end of the line, the indifference gone from his tone. Now he sounded genuinely scared. “Shit, Stelle! Say something! Is he gone?”

“Yes,” I managed to say.

My brain felt fuzzy, and the skin around my neck was where the knife had sliced into was sore. There wasn’t any blood, but the skin still seared when I touched it. An itch was starting up on my left arm, exactly where my scar was, and I subconsciously starting rubbing it against the side of my leg.

“Listen to me carefully. I want you to go next door to the auto shop. Three should still be there. Stay with him until I get there, okay?”

“My sister’s coming to get me,” I choked out. If I wasn’t here when Savannah came to pick me up, she’d get worried.

“Tell her to meet you at the auto shop. I’ll be there soon, Stelle. Just go wait for me there. Please.” There was an edge of desperation in his voice, and I found myself nodding.

“Okay.”

When Vincent hung up, I typed out a quick text message to Savannah telling her where I’d be. Once I hit ‘send’, I urged my feet to hurry next door to the auto shop. As I rounded the corner, I slammed into someone and let out a scream, afraid that Conor had doubled back somehow.

“Shit, Estella!” The voice was familiar, and blinking away the blur in my eyes, I saw that Three was reaching out to steady me. “It’s okay, it’s just me. Vincent told me what happened. C’mon, let me take you inside.”

Three’s firm hand was on my back, guiding me around the corner and towards the auto shop. My mind was racing, and I barely managed to keep my shaky legs from stumbling over the sidewalk. Relief washed over me when the light from the auto shop greeted me. Three took me inside and sat me down in a chair.

“Shit, you’re shaking real bad.” Three’s voice sounded far away, like it was coming from another room. “Did he hurt you?”

Somehow, I managed to shake my head. My head was all fuzzy and my thoughts were scattered. Snippets of my confrontation with Conor were drifting in and out of my head. I wanted to get his face out of my mind. I wanted to forget the cold gleam in his eyes as he held the knife to my throat. I’d been able to show some bravado—which made me proud of myself—but inside I was crumbling away. The strings that held me together were slowly coming undone.

Then all of a sudden someone was shaking me and his voice brought me back to life. “Stelle! Look at me!”

My eyes snapped open and all I could see was Vincent’s face in my vision. There was a crease in his brow that gave away how worried he was for me. For a second I just let myself drown in the depths of his dark eyes. That darkness was reassuring; it made me feel safe. It was familiar. It was something that the broken part of me desperately held onto.

Then all of a sudden, two hands grabbed the sides of my face and I resurfaced.

“Stelle, are you okay?” Vincent’s voice was urgent, his eyes probing as they searched my face for any signs of harm.

I nodded. “Yes, I’m fine. He held a knife to my throat.”

The hands dropped from my face and Vincent placed his fingers on my chin and gently raised my head. I could sense his eyes on the small cut that I knew was on my neck. I could still feel it stinging.

“Does it hurt?” His voice was sounded tense. “Did he cut you anywhere else?”

“No, that’s the only place,” I said, chewing my lip as Conor’s words came back to me. “He said something about a fight. You heard him, didn’t you? What was he talking about? What fight? Why is the Allbrook gang losing money?”

Vincent didn’t answer me straight away. Instead he moved over to where Three was standing at a distance. “Go outside and wait for her sister.”

Three nodded and left us alone. Vincent stood still for such a long time that I finally rose to my feet. He seemed startled and hurried to me, grasping my arms as though I was an invalid who couldn’t walk.

Despite the events of the night, it annoyed me that all of a sudden he was so concerned about me when he’d told me only last week that I meant nothing to him. I couldn’t stand the games he played with me. I didn’t need this uncertainty in my life.

“Let go of me!” I snapped, my fear and frustration channeling into anger directed at Vincent.

It was because of him that a member of the Allbrook gang had held a knife to my throat. It was because of him that my heart didn’t know what to feel. It was because of him that I’d been miserable this past week.

Vincent’s eyes widened and his arms went slack as they released me. “Stelle, I want to tell you what’s going on. I want to keep you safe.”

“No!” My voice shook as I jabbed him hard in the chest. “I am not listening to you anymore! You can’t just play with my emotions all the time. I’ve been nothing but polite to you since I started tutoring Dylan, but you can’t even show me a little respect and be civil towards me. You have no right to keep me safe. I mean nothing to you.”

The cold mask that Vincent had always worn around me completely shattered. His brow was pinched together like I’d said something to seriously hurt him. It was then that I realized that Vincent’s mask had been made from fragile glass. Now it was broken.

“I shouldn’t have said that,” he said, his voice low. “I was pissed off when I said that, but I still shouldn’t have said it. I should’ve called you to explain.”

My chest was heaving from my outburst, but the anger was fading away now. My emotions were a complete train wreck; I was a complete train wreck. I felt completely depleted. There was no fight left in me anymore.

“Then explain,” I said, my voice heavy with defeat.

The sooner I knew what was going on, the better. I couldn’t say that the sooner I knew what was going on, the sooner I could return to my life because my life was a lot worse. Being swept up in Vincent’s world made me forget about my own problems. And my world didn’t have Dylan in it. Or Vincent.

Relief flitted across his face and his shoulders relaxed. Those dark eyes of his focused on me, pinning me to one place. “We participate in amateur fights. It started as a thing between us and the Allbrooks, but it’s turned into a huge deal now. There’s a lot of money involved in the fights and everyone likes to play dirty.”

I slowly nodded, realizing that that’s what Conor had been talking about. He had said something about Vincent losing them money. “I don’t understand why he would come after me. I have nothing to do with this.”

Vincent’s jaw tensed. “I heard what he said. He saw us together and he thinks that you’re my girlfriend, that you mean something to me. He tried to use you to get to me.”

“But I don’t mean anything to you,” I choked out. “He’s got the wrong person.”

Vincent turned away from me, once again completely blocking me out. He had this way of showing his vulnerable side, but then just as quickly he would put his shield back up again.

Just then, Three ran back in, locking eyes with me. “Your sister’s here, but she refuses to come inside with me. She almost ran me over!”

Darting a glance at Vincent’s back, I slowly approached Three. “Sorry about that. She can get a little sassy.”

“I think she thought I was going to steal her car,” Three said as he began to follow me outside into the cold air. I immediately wished I was back inside the warmth of the auto shop and close to Vincent.

“I thought something similar when I first saw you.” My tone was light, but inside I felt heavy, like a weight was crushing my organs.

Savannah was parked on the side of the road several feet away. She was peering at us suspiciously over the steering wheel as though she couldn’t quite believe what she was seeing.

When I turned to look behind me, Vincent wasn’t there.

I tried not to let it get to me that he hadn’t bothered to come out and see me. It just proved my assumption was correct; I meant nothing to Vincent.

Giving Three a small smile, I ducked into the car, trying to ignore the gnawing in my chest.

Chapter Twenty

Vincent

Last night I’d let Estella walk away from me without telling her how I really felt. Again.

I really needed to stop acting like such an asshole to her all the time.

The feeling had never hit me at such full force until the moment I’d heard Conor threaten her. And then my entire world had spun out of control and fear had gripped me by the throat and squeezed and squeezed until I thought I was never going to recover ever again.

If Estella wasn’t in my life, I knew I would never recover. It had just taken me a while to realize what she meant to me.

At first there’d been resistance on my part. I hadn’t wanted to let a woman into my life because women were manipulative and they screwed everything up. But Estella wasn’t like that. She was something entirely different. She was made up of something that I’d never had in my life before. And now it was impossible for me to let go of her.

She’d imprinted herself into my life; she was a constant and I needed her.

I needed her more than she could ever understand and I should’ve fucking told her that.