'No, no more aren't we,' said the young woman loudly. 'But we shall be, a Saturday.'
Again she looked at the young man with a determined, protective look, at once overbearing and very gentle. He grinned sicklily, turning away his head. She had got his manhood, but Lord, what did he care! He had a strange furtive pride and slinking singleness.
'Good luck to you,' said Birkin.
'Same to you,' said the young woman. Then, rather tentatively: 'When's yours coming off, then?'
Birkin looked round at Ursula.
'It's for the lady to say,' he replied. 'We go to the registrar the moment she's ready.'
Ursula laughed, covered with confusion and bewilderment.
'No 'urry,' said the young man, grinning suggestive.
'Oh, don't break your neck to get there,' said the young woman. ''Slike when you're dead—you're long time married.'
The young man turned aside as if this hit him.
'The longer the better, let us hope,' said Birkin.
'That's it, guvnor,' said the young man admiringly. 'Enjoy it while it larsts—niver whip a dead donkey.'
'Only when he's shamming dead,' said the young woman, looking at her young man with caressive tenderness of authority.
'Aw, there's a difference,' he said satirically.
'What about the chair?' said Birkin.
'Yes, all right,' said the woman.
They trailed off to the dealer, the handsome but abject young fellow hanging a little aside.
'That's it,' said Birkin. 'Will you take it with you, or have the address altered.'
'Oh, Fred can carry it. Make him do what he can for the dear old 'ome.'
'Mike use of'im,' said Fred, grimly humorous, as he took the chair from the dealer. His movements were graceful, yet curiously abject, slinking.
''Ere's mother's cosy chair,' he said. 'Warnts a cushion.' And he stood it down on the market stones.
'Don't you think it's pretty?' laughed Ursula.
'Oh, I do,' said the young woman.
''Ave a sit in it, you'll wish you'd kept it,' said the young man.
Ursula promptly sat down in the middle of the market-place.
'Awfully comfortable,' she said. 'But rather hard. You try it.' She invited the young man to a seat. But he turned uncouthly, awkwardly aside, glancing up at her with quick bright eyes, oddly suggestive, like a quick, live rat.
'Don't spoil him,' said the young woman. 'He's not used to arm-chairs, 'e isn't.
The young man turned away, and said, with averted grin:
'Only warnts legs on 'is.'
The four parted. The young woman thanked them.
'Thank you for the chair—it'll last till it gives way.'
'Keep it for an ornyment,' said the young man.
'Good afternoon—Good afternoon,' said Ursula and Birkin.
'Goo'-luck to you,' said the young man, glancing and avoiding Birkin's eyes, as he turned aside his head.
The two couples went asunder, Ursula clinging to Birkin's arm. When they had gone some distance, she glanced back and saw the young man going beside the full, easy young woman. His trousers sank over his heels, he moved with a sort of slinking evasion, more crushed with odd self-consciousness now he had the slim old arm-chair to carry, his arm over the back, the four fine, square tapering legs swaying perilously near the granite setts of the pavement. And yet he was somewhere indomitable and separate, like a quick, vital rat. He had a queer, subterranean beauty, repulsive too.
'How strange they are!' said Ursula.
'Children of men,' he said. 'They remind me of Jesus: "The meek shall inherit the earth."'
'But they aren't the meek,' said Ursula.
'Yes, I don't know why, but they are,' he replied.
They waited for the tramcar. Ursula sat on top and looked out on the town. The dusk was just dimming the hollows of crowded houses.
'And are they going to inherit the earth?' she said.
'Yes—they.'
'Then what are we going to do?' she asked. 'We're not like them—are we? We're not the meek?'
'No. We've got to live in the chinks they leave us.'
'How horrible!' cried Ursula. 'I don't want to live in chinks.'
'Don't worry,' he said. 'They are the children of men, they like market-places and street-corners best. That leaves plenty of chinks.'
'All the world,' she said.
'Ah no—but some room.'
The tramcar mounted slowly up the hill, where the ugly winter-grey masses of houses looked like a vision of hell that is cold and angular. They sat and looked. Away in the distance was an angry redness of sunset. It was all cold, somehow small, crowded, and like the end of the world.
'I don't mind it even then,' said Ursula, looking at the repulsiveness of it all. 'It doesn't concern me.'
'No more it does,' he replied, holding her hand. 'One needn't see. One goes one's way. In my world it is sunny and spacious—'
'It is, my love, isn't it?' she cried, hugging near to him on the top of the tramcar, so that the other passengers stared at them.
'And we will wander about on the face of the earth,' he said, 'and we'll look at the world beyond just this bit.'
There was a long silence. Her face was radiant like gold, as she sat thinking.
'I don't want to inherit the earth,' she said. 'I don't want to inherit anything.'
He closed his hand over hers.
'Neither do I. I want to be disinherited.'
She clasped his fingers closely.
'We won't care about ANYTHING,' she said.
He sat still, and laughed.
'And we'll be married, and have done with them,' she added.
Again he laughed.
'It's one way of getting rid of everything,' she said, 'to get married.'
'And one way of accepting the whole world,' he added.
'A whole other world, yes,' she said happily.
'Perhaps there's Gerald—and Gudrun—' he said.
'If there is there is, you see,' she said. 'It's no good our worrying. We can't really alter them, can we?'
'No,' he said. 'One has no right to try—not with the best intentions in the world.'
'Do you try to force them?' she asked.
'Perhaps,' he said. 'Why should I want him to be free, if it isn't his business?'
She paused for a time.
'We can't MAKE him happy, anyhow,' she said. 'He'd have to be it of himself.'
'I know,' he said. 'But we want other people with us, don't we?'
'Why should we?' she asked.
'I don't know,' he said uneasily. 'One has a hankering after a sort of further fellowship.'
'But why?' she insisted. 'Why should you hanker after other people? Why should you need them?'
This hit him right on the quick. His brows knitted.
'Does it end with just our two selves?' he asked, tense.
'Yes—what more do you want? If anybody likes to come along, let them. But why must you run after them?'
His face was tense and unsatisfied.
'You see,' he said, 'I always imagine our being really happy with some few other people—a little freedom with people.'
She pondered for a moment.
'Yes, one does want that. But it must HAPPEN. You can't do anything for it with your will. You always seem to think you can FORCE the flowers to come out. People must love us because they love us—you can't MAKE them.'
'I know,' he said. 'But must one take no steps at all? Must one just go as if one were alone in the world—the only creature in the world?'
'You've got me,' she said. 'Why should you NEED others? Why must you force people to agree with you? Why can't you be single by yourself, as you are always saying? You try to bully Gerald—as you tried to bully Hermione. You must learn to be alone. And it's so horrid of you. You've got me. And yet you want to force other people to love you as well. You do try to bully them to love you. And even then, you don't want their love.'
His face was full of real perplexity.
'Don't I?' he said. 'It's the problem I can't solve. I KNOW I want a perfect and complete relationship with you: and we've nearly got it—we really have. But beyond that. DO I want a real, ultimate relationship with Gerald? Do I want a final, almost extra-human relationship with him—a relationship in the ultimate of me and him—or don't I?'
She looked at him for a long time, with strange bright eyes, but she did not answer.
CHAPTER XXVII.
FLITTING
That evening Ursula returned home very bright-eyed and wondrous—which irritated her people. Her father came home at suppertime, tired after the evening class, and the long journey home. Gudrun was reading, the mother sat in silence.
Suddenly Ursula said to the company at large, in a bright voice, 'Rupert and I are going to be married tomorrow.'
Her father turned round, stiffly.
'You what?' he said.
'Tomorrow!' echoed Gudrun.
'Indeed!' said the mother.
But Ursula only smiled wonderfully, and did not reply.
'Married tomorrow!' cried her father harshly. 'What are you talking about.'
'Yes,' said Ursula. 'Why not?' Those two words, from her, always drove him mad. 'Everything is all right—we shall go to the registrar's office-'
There was a second's hush in the room, after Ursula's blithe vagueness.
'REALLY, Ursula!' said Gudrun.
'Might we ask why there has been all this secrecy?' demanded the mother, rather superbly.
'But there hasn't,' said Ursula. 'You knew.'
'Who knew?' now cried the father. 'Who knew? What do you mean by your "you knew"?'
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