By the time they stopped—to camp, not in a town where she might enjoy the luxury of a hot bath—

Satira thought it might be a blessing if she died on the spot. Almost better than facing the humiliation of trying to dismount and ending up in the dirt.

“Having trouble?” Wilder slid from his horse with enviable ease.

“No.” Liar. She stroked her horse’s neck and gathered every bit of stubborn will she possessed, everything that held her together.

Then she swung her leg over the horse’s back and almost cried.

He caught her before her feet hit the ground. “You don’t know when to admit you’ve had enough, do you, little one?”

If she’d thought she could stand on her own, she would have driven her heel into his balls. “Don’t call me that. I’m not a child.”

The sound that passed his lips was half laugh, half groan. “I know. You’re rubbing your ass up against me.”

Her aching thighs had provided suitable distraction from their relative positions until he called attention to it—and the sheer power that resided in him. Strong hands spanned her rib cage, holding her effortlessly. She wiggled one foot, trying to reach the ground, and let out a frustrated noise when he held her there, snuggled back sweet as can be.

He was warm. And hard. Hard all over and getting harder by the second where his hips bumped against her ass. “It appears you like our respective positions just fine.”

“I’m breathing, aren’t I?”

“So far.” The threat lacked heat—she didn’t want him to put her down.

Wilder laughed and eased her down until a little of her weight rested on her feet. “Take it easy. You’ll need to.”

“I know.” A better woman might have pulled away and kept a shred of dignity, but her body wasn’t interested in the state of her pride. Few decent men were willing to be caught dallying with the daughter of a notorious whore, and few indecent men had been eager to brave Levi’s wrath, not when they could pay a few coins for an uncomplicated fuck from a far more experienced woman.

No, her bed had been cold for a good, long while. Her life had been cold since the last time a hound had come to town and bedded her with the enthusiasm of any untamed creature. Perhaps she’d developed a taste then for wild, inappropriate men. It would explain her current madness.

“Ready?”

If she said no, he might keep holding her. If she said no, she’d look like a fool. “Yes.” Wilder released her, though his hands lingered, sliding from her rib cage down to the flare of her hips.

“Got your footing?” he asked, his voice a low rasp.

Enough was enough. “Hard to get my footing with you gripping my hips like you’re ready to take me for a different sort of ride.”

“My apologies.” He sounded anything but sorry as he pulled his hands away.

The loss of his touch hurt more than her aching body, and it was only then she realized that sex wasn’t driving her. It would be a welcome distraction, to be sure, but the hot press of his body had been something else entirely: proof she wasn’t alone.

Her fingers tightened around the saddle, and she swallowed hard. “I should see to my horse.” He caught her arm. “Are you all right, Satira?”

Weakness was unacceptable. How many times had Levi pushed her to the edge of tears and sighed his disappointment? Bloodhounds were strong. Unwavering. To earn Wilder’s respect, she had to convince him she was both. “I’m simply tired. It has been a difficult day, and I worry for Nathaniel.” His expression was impossible to read in the waning light. “You didn’t answer the question, just listed off a bunch of reasons why you wouldn’t be all right.”

“I suppose I did.” She tugged away, trying to free herself from his grip before she collapsed and clung to him like a desperate fool. “I’d be grateful if you could help me with my bag. I can admit that I may not be up to managing it just yet.”

Wilder let go of her with a short nod. “I’ll handle everything.” Of course he would. Bloodhounds always did.


She tried to help him, but even staying busy couldn’t disguise her misery. Finally, after watching her struggle for far too long, Wilder sat her down on a fallen log by the fire he’d built. “Wait here. I’ve got something for you.”

Her brash façade faltered under a wince as she drew up her knees. “I’ll be stronger tomorrow.”

“Hush.” A quick dig through one of his packs yielded the paper-wrapped bundle he sought. “I’ll get some water in the kettle and make you some of this tea. It’ll help.”

“Thank you.” She rested her chin on her arms and watched him, that wild curiosity filling her eyes again. “You’re not much like Levi at all.”

And she hadn’t expected that. Wilder held his tongue as he set up the spider and filled the kettle with water from his pack. “You mean because I’m not a hundred years old and mean as a rattlesnake?” The corner of her mouth kicked up. “He’d call what you’re doing right now babying me. Wouldn’t think much of it, either.”

“There’s a difference between babying someone and having a little compassion,” he argued. “Besides, if you get stove up, we won’t be able to ride on tomorrow morning.”

“You could send me back home. That’s what Levi would do.”

“Thought we’d established I’m not Levi.”

She tilted her head, sending loose strands of blonde hair tumbling over her sunburned cheek. “Why did you let me come with you?”

She was still looking at him like she half-expected him to abandon her on the trail. “Because Nate’s a hell of a lot more important to you than he is to me,” he answered honestly. “If I ever turn up missing, that’s who I want looking for me. Someone who gives a damn.”

“I see. And I do. Give a damn, I mean.” Her eyes drifted shut. “I don’t have many people left, just Nathaniel and Ophelia. Now that Levi is gone, the house and all of his things will belong to whichever hound replaces him. It might not be one who wants his weapons tended by a girl.” He couldn’t argue with that, though he wanted to. “Where will you go?” She didn’t answer. Not directly. “I’m bringing Nathaniel home. Wherever he goes, he’ll take me with him.”

If Nathaniel came home. “Fair enough.”

Silence lasted all of twenty seconds before she came up with a new question. “I assumed, but I didn’t ask. Are we going to the Deadlands? I have no idea how far it is on horseback. Nathaniel always took the train as far as he could, even though it took us out of the way.”

“We’ll be there by tomorrow afternoon.”

“You have contacts there?”

Every good hound did. “I know people.”

She nodded to her bags. “I brought a few trinkets for trade. I knew I’d have to buy information somehow.”

Trinkets wouldn’t buy much of anything in the Deadlands. “You would have ended up having to offer your neck to a vampire. You’re damn lucky I came along.”

“Maybe.” Her green eyes turned hard. Old. “I’d have done it, if I had to. I still will. I don’t have much to lose.”

It chilled him. “Well, curb your reckless fucking behavior, because I like life and I want to keep living it.”

She held his gaze for one second before dropping hers to the ground. “I wasn’t being reckless because I wanted to, or because I didn’t know any better. I’m not a foolish girl. I’m a desperate one. Levi died from some horrible full-moon complication that no one will explain to me, and Nathaniel could be suffering or dying, and if it were me, he’d know how to save me. He’d find a way.” So no one had yet told her the truth. “You want to know what happened to Levi?” Her head snapped up. “Of course I do.”

Wilder poured hot water from the kettle into a tin cup and dropped in the tea. “When did your mother die?”

“A little over four years ago.” She hesitated. “Levi was…kinder before that. Or at least more patient with me. I think it hurt him to look at me.”

“Maybe.” He handed her the cup. “It’s important you understand something. If your mother died four years ago, so did Levi, after a fashion.”

She curled her fingers around the battered tin and took one careful sip. Her nose wrinkled at the taste, but she closed her eyes tight and drank again. “Levi was fond of her,” she said after a moment. “It was never more. Losing her hurt him, but it couldn’t have killed him.”

“She was his mate, Satira, and he didn’t let her go, even when she died. That’s what killed him.” Confusion furrowed her brow and brought her eyebrows together. “I don’t understand. My mother came to the house as his housekeeper because it was against the rules…for…” Comprehension. “Oh. That’s why it’s against the rules?” A tentative question, hesitant and uncertain.

She was so brazen in some ways, and so innocent in others. “Most hounds won’t walk away, even after a mate dies. The loss can kill them quick or drive them crazy, but it gets the job done. They join their woman soon enough.”

“I see. But how does—” Her cheeks were pink from the sun’s glare, but her sudden blush lit up her whole face. “These are personal questions. I shouldn’t be asking them.”

“Suit yourself. I’d tell you whatever you wanted to know, though.” Better for her eyes to be uncomfortably open.

Her lips pursed as she tilted her head. “It’s not just sex.” She sounded confident about that. “But saying it’s about love seems rather…well, far-fetched, to be honest. Sex, at least, might have a biological explanation.”

“It’s about…” Wilder searched for the right word. “Need, I think.” She worried her lower lip and stared down into her mug. “I see. Thank you for explaining.” Her expression was one of loss—and loneliness. “Nate never told you?”