Gem laughed, the sound bitter to her ears. “Yes. A really strange set of coincidences. I rode in with her from the airport.”

“I take it she didn’t mention anything about what was happening out there.”

“No, she didn’t.” Gem wanted to believe Austin wouldn’t have kept the situation quiet if there were a real threat of a major environmental disaster, but how could she know that? It all came down to her not knowing Austin at all.

“Is there something else going on?” Alex asked.

“What? No,” Gem said quickly.

“Then why do you look like you’re hurting?”

“Just worried about the sanctuary.” Gem smiled thinly and grasped Alex’s arm. “And about you, for that matter, out there in what’s coming.”

“You know we do it all the time. It’s not that, but you don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to.”

“What do you think of her…Austin?”

Alex blinked at the sudden change of subject. “I think she’s being as straightforward as she can be. She’s walking a line, you know how it is. The information she gave me was completely accurate and honest, if not totally inclusive. Within the letter of the law.”

Gem blew out a breath. “I’m not sure that’s enough.”

“Why does it matter so much what she says?”

Heat climbed into Gem’s face. She was giving away far too much. “It doesn’t, I guess. I just like to know who I’m working with.”

“Well, don’t worry about it too much. I’ll have your back.”

Impulsively, Gem hugged her. “I know. Just promise me you’ll be careful.”

“Always.”

Gem watched her sister climb into the Coast Guard SUV and pull out of the lot. She had no choice now but to meet with Austin. She couldn’t avoid her, as much as she wanted to. And as much as she wanted to avoid her, she wanted to see her again too. Torn between desire and disillusion, she strode determinedly inside.

Not quite ready to cross swords with Austin without fortification, she detoured to the canteen for coffee, silently chiding herself for delaying. Avoidance wasn’t her usual modus operandi. Everything about her relationship with Austin was unlike her. She needed to find her balance, her perspective. How she was going to do that in the midst of a crisis was anybody’s guess, but she’d have to find a way.

Emily, the only one remaining from the morning’s meeting, pulled a cup of steaming hot chocolate from the microwave and gestured to Gem. “Want one?”

“Chocolate might be just the thing. I’ve got a minute or two before I meet with Austin.” There, she’d said her name without the slightest hitch and only the faintest skip of her heart.

Emily blew on the steam coming out of her cup, sipped, and nodded. “I’ll fix one for you.”

“Thanks.” Gem dropped into one of the chairs at a table someone had pushed back to its normal spot and closed her eyes. She hadn’t slept after the calls from first her sister and then Austin. She’d spent part of the time Googling Austin, something else she didn’t ordinarily do. Somehow, the whole idea seemed like such an invasion of privacy, but after the strange call from Austin, she had to learn more about her. Unfortunately, she hadn’t learned much at all.

Austin Germaine didn’t have a Facebook page or a Twitter account or a website, and apparently hadn’t authored any articles after a dozen or so on some technical mechanics of deepwater drilling half a dozen years before. Googling Ace Grand brought up all the usual references to her graphic novel titles and awards, but no photos, only a rare interview, and no calendar of personal appearances. Austin aka Ace had managed to keep an extremely low profile on social media. Finally, she found a YouTube clip of a news video from a site in Alaska where an oil transport ship had gone aground and lost its cargo. If she hadn’t really been digging she never would have found it. She wondered if GOP had some sort of process where they scrubbed those kinds of things from the Internet. At any rate, Austin had been as well-spoken and had looked as good on camera as the reporter interviewing her. None of it told her anything about the woman behind the image.

Gem gave a little jump when Emily set a steaming cup of hot cocoa in front of her. “Thanks,” she said again.

Emily sat beside her. “When do you think the FEMA team will get here?”

“Late morning, I hope. They’re quick to mobilize, and I’m sure they want to get here before the storm hits.”

“They’ll likely set up headquarters on the mainland, don’t you think?”

“Probably. Especially if the governor calls for evacuation.”

“Just as well. Too many cooks—” Emily shook her head. “We certainly seem to have a lot of those all of a sudden.”

“I know, but it’s always this way with multijurisdictional situations. Fish and Wildlife, FEMA, the Coast Guard, and, of course, all the privates get involved.”

“I caught a newscast just now,” Emily said, gesturing to the small TV on the counter whose sound was currently muted. “Just a fifteen-second sound bite on the local news about Rig 86 and a small leak, already contained and of no major consequence.”

Gem tasted the chocolate and let the heat and sweetness soothe the rough anger in her throat. “That’s GOP’s first volley to control the situation. I’m sure we’ll hear a lot more if things escalate.”

“Hopefully they’re not going to.” Emily glanced toward the door as if making sure they were alone. “Austin sounded credible. I don’t think we’ve got a major spill yet.”

Gem heard the tentativeness in her tone. “Austin didn’t mention anything about this to me before. I don’t know whether to believe her or not.”

“What do your instincts say?” Emily asked gently.

“I’m not sure I can separate my instincts from my wishes, and I’m not sure I trust either one at this point.”

“I think your instincts are just fine,” Emily said. “I don’t see you sleeping with her if you hadn’t sensed something exceptional about her.”

Gem laughed entirely without humor. “Oh, there’s plenty exceptional about her. She’s talented and gorgeous and has a way of making a woman feel special. God, I sound ridiculous.”

“No, you don’t. Define special—besides, you know, the obvious parts where you feel like a sexual goddess.”

Gem grinned, a flicker of true humor slicing through the gloom that had descended over her. “I wouldn’t use quite that term, but she certainly woke up something in me. It wasn’t just the sex, although that was damn nice. I felt understood, as if when I told her things, I didn’t have to explain myself. As if she cared.”

“I can’t believe you would have felt that way if it wasn’t true.”

The ice settled around Gem’s heart again. “Well, there certainly were some major gaps in our connection. While I was blithely recounting God knows how many personal details, she was holding back a huge part of hers.”

“I’m not going to defend her. I don’t know her at all, and you’re one of my best friends,” Emily said staunchly, “but it’s a big tangle, and the only thing I know for sure is that you are a good judge of your own feelings. So I’d trust them.”

“I’ll try.” Gem sighed and finished the last of her chocolate. She carried the cup to the sink, carefully rinsed it, and set it upside down on the drain board. She squared her shoulders. “I guess it’s time to put that to the test.”

Chapter Twenty-one

Thirty minutes had never felt so long. Austin wanted to go after Gem to continue to plead her case, to say something, anything, that would drive the distance from Gem’s eyes and bring some warmth back into her smile. But she didn’t have enough time, and this wasn’t the time or the place. Her words weren’t welcome. She’d run out of time, as she’d known she would, and if she’d listened to the voice of caution she never would have let the situation go so far. She hadn’t been fair to Gem or herself, but she couldn’t quite bring herself to regret a single moment. She hadn’t wanted to be cautious, and she hadn’t wanted to listen to reason. She hadn’t wanted to push aside what her heart demanded yet again. She’d been ruled by the dictates and desires of others most of her life, until she convinced herself what she was doing was what she wanted. Oh, she’d charted her own course—she couldn’t blame anyone else if she wasn’t completely satisfied with her life. She’d broken away from the family tradition of risk-taking and adventure and high-profile excitement, but she’d somehow ended up on the edge of danger all the same. And blood had won out. When she’d stood on the precipice facing Gem across a chasm that logic and reason dictated she avoid, she jumped, not caring that she might fall. The risk had been worth it, and she hadn’t fallen, at least not right away.

“You need me to stay for this?” Claudia asked.

Austin jerked at the sound of Claudia’s voice. She’d actually forgotten she wasn’t alone in the room Gem used as an office. The windowless ten- by ten-foot space was sparsely furnished with a serviceable plain wooden desk, a trio of metal filing cabinets, and a round table with four chairs that appeared to serve as a work space and conference area. She and Claudia had settled there to wait for Gem, and instead of reviewing plans for the containment procedures, she’d forgotten everything except the look of hurt and disdain in Gem’s eyes.

Time to get a grip. She couldn’t afford to forget anything now. A slip of attention or lapse in concentration could mean disaster not just for her, but for those who depended on her. She shook her head. “You’re welcome to stay, but if you’re really intent on going back to the rig, you should probably grab a lift before the weather gets any worse.”

“What about you?”

“I want to stay here until I get a fix on the most-at-risk areas, and I want to be sure the ground team has everything they need.”