Or he could do what he’d sworn never to do-beg.


HE’D SEARCHED the entire world for her. At least it felt that way. With humbling defeat, Joe tossed his keys aside, plopped down in his chair and set his head on the desk.

It was late afternoon, and he had to face the devastating facts.

Caitlin had disappeared.

“Still no luck, Joe?” Andy asked from the doorway.

Joe didn’t lift his head, but knew Tim would be hovering there, as well, waiting for news. “Nope.”

“You looked in her condo?”

Only six times. “Yep.”

“And you checked your place again, right?” This from Tim, sounding worried.

Worried was a good thing, Joe decided, because if either Andy or Tim was hiding her, he would have to kill them. “Yes, I checked my place again.” He’d left it unlocked, actually, hoping against hope. But she hadn’t shown.

“Did her father have a place?”

“It’s been sold, but yes, I checked there, too. And the hotels and motels in the area.” And the hospitals, the police station, and out of sheer desperation, three of the closest shopping malls. He’d even driven to Amy’s apartment, after he’d begged the landlord for her address. No one had answered.

Caitlin had vanished, and he’d never in his life been so sick or guilt-ridden.

“So you screwed up already, huh?”

Vince. He’d been suspiciously absent earlier this morning. Joe surged to his feet, rage ready. “Tell me where she is.”

Vince shot him a half smile. “Flattering that you think she’d come to me.” His smile faded to disgust. “All you had to do was love her, Joe. She’s like the most perfect woman ever made. What was so hard about giving her your all?”

“Tell me, damn you.”

Both Tim and Andy wisely slunk back, out of sight.

Vince just shrugged. “I don’t know any more than you do where she is, but I’ll tell you this. If I find her first, you won’t stand a chance in hell.”

Joe searched his face for any sign of deception and found none. He sank back to his chair in defeat. “You really don’t know where she is, do you?”

Stuffing his hands into his trouser pockets, Vince leaned back against the wall and shook his head. “Do you think she’s all right?”

Joe’s anger abruptly drained. “God, I hope so.” Shoving his fingers through his hair, he leaped up again, unable to sit still. He started pacing. “I’m the biggest idiot on earth.”

“Nah.” Vince managed a grin. “Well, maybe. But at least you’re the richest one. I can’t believe how much they’re going to pay for that system, Joe. Not to mention the royalties. I just can’t believe it.”

“All we have is a very small, preliminary commitment from one phone call. They still have to test it, prove to themselves it does what I say it does,” Joe warned soberly. “I hope you’re not disappointed I decided to sell it rather than market it ourselves.”

“Are you kidding? If it works out, you just set me and the twins up for life.” Vince’s joy faded. “But how about you? Are you set up for life, as well?”

Joe looked out the window. Below, the city was flowing smoothly into evening traffic. The streets were crawling with commuters, seething with activity. He sighed. “Not until I find Caitlin.”


TWO DAYS LATER, Joe was out of his mind with torment. How could Caitlin have just disappeared into thin air?

It amazed him, the turn everything had taken. In just two short days, he’d gotten a request for a complete new system, one that would keep him busy for a long time to come. This, on top of a bid for the system he’d just completed. They’d offered about five times what he’d expected, which should have been the thrill of a lifetime. If Edmund were alive, he’d be cackling over the fact that suddenly Joe had more money than he.

But Edmund wasn’t alive, Caitlin was gone and the victory meant nothing.

His phone rang and he leaped at it, heart pounding. “Yes?” he barked, hope cruelly flaring.

“Joe, could you come up here?”

Darla. Hope deflated, leaving despair. “I’m busy.”

“You always say that.”

“I can’t face the tax stuff right now, Darla,” he said quietly. Outside his window, two flights down, a young woman walked, holding a toddler’s hand. The little girl, awed by the size of the buildings around her, craned her head upward and seemed to stare right into Joseph’s eyes.

God, I want one of those, he thought as his heart constricted. I want a family, and I want it with Caitlin.

“Please come, Joe,” Darla said into his ear, her voice no longer friendly, but urgent. “You won’t be sorry.”

He stared at the receiver after she hung up. Darla never asked him for anything unless it was absolutely necessary. So it was with a sigh that he left his office and headed toward the elevator.

When he entered Darla’s suite minutes later, she rushed out of one of her offices and yanked him into another before he could draw a breath.

“What the-”

“Shush.” Darla locked the door and shoved him into a chair.

“Darla,” he said slowly, carefully, straightening. “This is flattering, but-”

“Shut up, Brownley.” Darla slapped her hands on her slim hips and glared at him. “I can’t believe how slow you are.” She paced the room. “I promised not to get involved and normally I’m pretty good at promises, but I’m reneging on this one. It’s going to cause problems, but I think maybe it’s worth it.”

He was getting dizzy watching her pace. “What the hell are you talking about?”

“I haven’t got the details figured out yet. She’s much, much smarter than I gave her credit for, but I think if you-”

Joe went still. “Darla.”

“It should work. I think if you really play it up right, she’ll feel so sorry for you, she’ll have to give in. For some reason, she’s a sucker for you, which does work in your favor.”

It was difficult, very difficult, to remain calm with his heart blocking his windpipe. “You know where Caitlin is.”

Darla stopped pacing and looked at him as if he were an idiot. “Of course I do.”

Slowly, in order to not kill her before she gave him the information he needed, he advanced on her. “Tell me where she is. Afterward, you can tell me why you kept it from me for nearly three days when you knew how much this meant to me.”

Darla’s eyes went soft with regret, but she kept the presence of mind to back up. “I’m sorry, Joe. But she was so hurt, and you really messed things up. She begged me to keep quiet, but now, after watching her work while trying not to mourn over you, I think I did the wrong thing by promising not to tell you. I think she really loves you. And I know you love her too, way deep down in that black heart of yours.”

He came closer, and her words came faster. “So could you do me a favor, a really big one?” She rushed her words. “Could you go out there and make my new full-charge bookkeeper-in-training smile? Could you turn her grief into joy so that I can get some real work done?”

That stopped him short. “You hired Caitlin?”

“Well, you’ve seen what she can do with numbers. Besides, I like her.” Her face softened. “A lot.”

“But-”

“You should see the mind that lurks behind that ridiculous come-hither haircut…my God, Joe. She loves numbers almost as much as I do. She can’t answer the phones too well, and she tends to distract my male clients all to hell, but you should see her reconcile a checkbook. A girl after my own heart.”

He was jerking the door open, nerves and hope singing through his veins. “You can’t keep her-she’s mine.”

“Wanna make a bet?”

When he growled, she laughed. “Let the best boss win,” she said diplomatically.

She smiled when he slammed out. “I’m such a hopeless romantic,” she whispered, and sank into her chair to get some work done.


IT WAS LATE AFTERNOON by the time Caitlin finished sorting out the bank account of one of Darla’s clients. It had been a mess of mismatched checks, wrong deposits and untotaled columns. At first, she’d panicked, but after looking closer, she’d gotten excited.

It was a mess, but it was just a matter of shopping around for the right numbers-and no one understood shopping better than Caitlin Taylor. Besides, somehow, the mess appealed. Maybe because she so understood the misguided logic that had created the disaster in the first place. Maybe because she loved to sort and add and organize. Maybe just because she felt thrilled about feeling so useful. So purposeful.

It should have made her very happy. It shouldn’t have had her gaze covered in a sheen of unshed tears.

“No,” she muttered, blinking them ruthlessly back as she stuck her pencil into the electric sharpener. “I won’t cry another tear for him. Not one.”

“I don’t blame you.”

She nearly started right out of her chair at the sound of that familiar, unbearably sexy voice behind her.

“Hi,” he said softly when she looked up at him. Slowly, he shut her office door. He walked over to her desk while her heart raced. He looked the same. Stone-washed faded jeans fitted to that long, lean, mouth-watering body. Simple white T-shirt stretched across his chest. Brown wavy hair falling over his forehead, as wayward as the owner. But it was his eyes, those light blue, all-seeing eyes, that stopped her heart.

They held her, caressed her, refused to let her go.

“Are you going to sharpen that pencil until it’s gone?”

With a soft oath, she jerked it out of the sharpener. “What are you doing here?”

He smiled at her, then took a little bow. “Your new secretary at your service, ma’am.”

14

CAITLIN COULD ONLY STARE at him. “I’m sorry. I don’t understand.”

Joe leaned a hip against her desk, propping his weight against it. “It’s simple. You’re so busy working the accounts, Darla hired me to…answer phones for you. And…” His gaze searched the room, and she wasn’t so far gone in her own misery that she missed the nerves and tension in his eyes.