“Oh just fuck off, will you.” How dare he throw that at me? And anyway, he didn’t screw around. I mean, I don’t think he did, did he? Yes, he borrowed money and stuff, but if I want to lend people money, well, that’s up to me, isn’t it? I feel my eyes well up with tears and blink them back furiously. I don’t want to cry. I want to be strong and in control.

“If that’s what you want.” David’s eyes are thunderous. He turns and walks out of the room.

It’s not what I want at all. But somehow as I watch him pick up his things and leave, I find myself unable to call after him. Not when he’s being so horrible. I can’t believe I was all set to cancel my trip to Rome, too. Well, I will go, and it’ll just serve David right.

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DAVID BRADLEY

STRENGTHS: cooks, kind, generous, good-looking, likes TV, nice car WEAKNESSES: jealous, bossy, accountant, hasn’t asked me to marry him OPPORTUNITIES: could do something incredibly romantic, like take me away somewhere and propose; but very unlikely—especially after last night.

THREATS: Mike

MIKE MARSHALL

STRENGTHS: absolutely gorgeous, successful business, cool, sexy, is taking me to Rome WEAKNESSES : doesn’t keep promises; bad with money—at least he used to be; dumped me by leaving a note; flirts with other girls—although he hasn’t done that recently either; could be changed character; calls me at inopportune moments

OPPORTUNITIES: well, Rome has to be a pretty big one. I mean, I suppose we’re going to be sharing a room . . .

THREATS : David

I didn’t know that so many people get to work a whole hour before they have to. What is that all about? I have an excuse: I haven’t been able to sleep, and when you’re up at sixA.M ., and there’s nothing good on the telly, you may as well get some brownie points and come into work early, right? But all these other people—I’d say half the people who work on my floor at Leary are already at their desks, and it’s only 8:15A.M .

I place my freshly made cappuccino down on my desk and sit down. My weekend has been a complete disaster. All I’ve been thinking about is the argument with David and going to Rome with Mike. I want to go so much, but every time I shut my eyes I see David’s face looking all cross and upset.

Nigel is looking at me suspiciously.

“Decided to make up for all the late mornings, have you?”

I can’t even be bothered to answer, so I grunt and sit down.

“Well, it’s a good thing you’re in on time, because we’ve got a departmental meeting at nine-thirty sharp,” Nigel continues. “Guy wants to talk to us about a new project.”

“Can’t wait,” I mutter and swallow two white pills with my coffee. Coffee and painkillers. What a great start to the week.

At nine-thirty, we all troop dutifully into the third-floor meeting room. I thought it was going to be just our team, but there are about thirty of us, including Gary, the head of IT, who I snogged in my first month here. It was more than five years ago now, but I still feel mildly uncomfortable every time I see him. It was my first proper “drinks after work on payday,” and I was so excited to have some money to spend that I went a bit over the top. I remember going back into the building with Gary quite late in the evening because I’d left my keys on my desk, and the next thing I knew, we were being woken up by a rather bemused cleaner. We were kind of tangled up under my desk. At least I had all my clothes on. From that day on, I have never called the IT help desk for anything, just in case.

Gary is grinning at me, and I manage a smile. He’s married with two kids now. We are both mature, responsible adults, I tell myself, and take out my notepad. I start doodling. Georgie Marshall. Georgie Marshall. It has a nice ring to it. Georgie Bradley. Hmmm, that’s not bad either.

Guy clears his throat.

“Ladies and gentlemen,” he starts in faux-formal tones and then grins. “Guys and gals.” Okay, now too jovial. Can’t he just get on with it?

“Globalization has made the world a smaller place. As more and more process-driven functions are outsourced and taken over by enhanced technology, firms around the world are refocusing and joining forces to produce a real value add proposition for their customers. The business-to-business sector is no different, and so I am very excited to tell you today about a proposed partnership with a great business-to-business publisher in the States, Horowitz and Gold. HG are based in New York, and they are pioneers in the enhanced client interface and Web-based profiling, and through our partnership we will be able to strengthen and develop our portfolio of products, ensuring that we are at the forefront of business information in this new millennium.”

In other words, “blah blah blah blah blah blah blah.”

I start writing a list of things to take to Rome on one side of my notepad. On the other, I’m writing a list of things I’ll need to buy.

Guy has started showing us a whole bunch of slides with charts and diagrams. I approach this sort of thing on a need-to-know basis. If I need to know any of it, I reason, Nigel will tell me. So, black trousers because they go with everything, black polo neck, obviously; orange halter neck top in case I manage to get a tan . . .

“And this paradigm shift in cultural and emotional intelligence can only improve the working of our great team,” Guy is saying. “I hope I can bank on your support. It’s going to be hard work over the next few months, but I think we can all be sure it will be worth it.”

He stops talking and I look up with what I hope is an attentive look on my face. There is a deathly silence in the room.

“Are there going to be any redundancies?” asks a man I haven’t seen before. I think he might be in marketing.

“There may be some reshuffling of the pack, some essential maneuvering of personnel to ensure peak performance and integration throughout all our business units, yes,” says Guy.

I’m getting the feeling I may have missed something big. Redundancies? What has Guy been talking about? He is always talking about strategic business propositions and win-win partnerships—he and Nigel use that language when they are discussing what they ate for dinner last night, for heaven’s sake. So why is everyone looking so shell-shocked?

We all troop back and I immediately corner Nigel.

“Nigel, what was he talking about in there?”

Nigel looks at me mournfully. “Well, under the merger with Horowitz Gold there’s going to be some inevitable structural realignment,” he says.

“Structural what? And what merger? Nigel, tell me what’s happening in proper English. Why were they talking about redundancies?”

“Weren’t you listening?” Nigel looks as if he’s about to give me a lecture and then a sort of “oh, what’s the use” look appears on his face. “We need to be able to compete on a global scale, but we haven’t got the capital or resources to enter the U.S. market, so we’re merging with HG, a U.S.-based company. We do broadly similar things.”

I still don’t really get it. “But why redundancies?”

“Look, Georgie,” Nigel says slowly. “You’ve got two companies, and they merge. In each company you’ve got marketing people, IT people, research people, salespeople, and you’ve got products. Now, what you want to do is combine the two companies’ strengths and sell more products to all the customers, but without spending so much. Which means that you won’t need as many salespeople or IT people or marketing and research people.”

Shit. This sounds quite serious. What if they have really good research people in the States who know what they’re talking about and don’t spend their time surfing around on the Internet?

“And when will we find out? If we’ve still got a job, I mean.”

“Not till the merger’s gone through,” says Nigel. “If it does.”

“So it isn’t certain then?”

“Nothing’s certain till signatures are on a legal document. But it’s unlikely they’ll call it off.”

I long to call David and ask his opinion—he knows all about this sort of stuff and will be able to tell me first who HG are, and second what I should do about it. But we’re still not talking after Saturday night’s argument—at least he hasn’t called to apologize and there’s no way I’m going to be the first to call him. So instead I do a search on the Internet for Horowitz and Gold. There’s a lot of stuff.

“They’re huge!” I exclaim. “They’ve got offices all over the world! I thought Guy said they were based in New York?”

“That’s where their head offices are.”

“So will we get to go over there? For research purposes, I mean?”

For a moment, the whole merger thing starts sounding a bit more interesting. Monthly meetings in Manhattan, that sort of thing. I visualize myself stepping off a plane, being met by a group of serious-looking people in suits. Going to HG’s amazingly cool offices and giving major presentations on the latest research techniques and developments. I wonder if I’ll get any time to go sightseeing—I’ve never been to New York and I’ve always wanted to go up the Empire State Building.

“Georgie, by the time the merger has all gone through, we’ll be lucky if there’s still a research department in the U.K.”

“You don’t mean that. Tell me you didn’t mean that.”

“Sorry,” Nigel says. “I didn’t really mean that, you’re right. I’m sure we’ll be fine.”

No one does any work for the rest of the day. We’ve all been sworn to secrecy, but word spreads pretty quickly. Denise spends the afternoon applying for jobs, and everyone else seems to spend their time lurking in corridors having hushed conversations. All anyone wants to talk about is: did anyone know about this; what is the management team planning to do; and who’s in the firing line. Most people seem to think IT will be the first to go, but I think that’s because IT