Not that she really believed he’d take advantage of her without her permission.

Or that she’d wake up pretending to have had a nightmare so she could have the excuse of running into his room, where she’d cuddle next to him under the bedclothes and they’d resume kissing so her pretend nightmare—about a ghost? or a monster? she couldn’t decide which—would be irrevocably banished.

Although the nightmare idea was tempting. Very tempting.

She blew out her candle, crawled under the covers, and tried to sleep.

But she couldn’t. She had the noble thought that she must do better in the morning—first, by trying to win over the other mistresses, and then by somehow charming the men, even the vile Sir Richard, if she could do so without getting too close to him.

But she also couldn’t sleep because the bureau in front of the dressing room door reminded her that Harry was just on the other side. And thinking of Harry reminded her of how much she enjoyed his mouth, his hair, his whole body, pressed against hers.

It made no sense. This was Harry she was feeling all these feelings about!

She was desperate, she decided, blinking into the darkness. That was all. She was almost a spinster, and no man had ever brought her flowers. She was to be excused for feeling all mushy inside when she thought of Harry kissing her.

But she couldn’t let those mushy feelings continue. She must cease them immediately. So she thought about the time a much younger Harry had planted all her dolls head-first in a little vegetable garden she’d cultivated long ago.

That got her blood up.

She heard a noise and sat up, her heart pounding. “Harry?”

Someone was scratching at her door, from the hallway. But Harry was in bed. And he would have knocked on the door connecting their rooms, if he’d needed to knock at all.

Molly crept to the door and made sure the key was in the lock. “Who’s there?” she whispered.

“Sir Richard,” the voice whispered back. “I just wanted to say good night. Will you open the door?”

“No!” she hissed. “Go away!”

He laughed. “Something’s different about you. And I intend to find out what it is.”

She heard his footsteps move down the corridor.

Thank God.

Returning to her bed, she drew the sheets up to her chin and stared at a beam of moonlight illuminating a corner of her room. If Sir Richard found out she was no mistress, he might find out her real name, and he’d tell everyone, and then she’d be properly ruined. Not even a bounder like Cedric would want to marry her. She’d be stuck with Cousin Augusta forever, and everyone would whisper about her behind her back.

Except for Harry’s family, of course. They were perfectly proper, but they were also fun, sometimes entertaining on a lavish scale and, other times, inviting just a few neighbors over for an afternoon picnic or an evening of music. It wouldn’t do for the duke and duchess to think badly of her. They were Penelope’s family now.

A tiny tear escaped Molly’s eye.

Penelope!

It was at times like this that Molly missed her sister. And her mother. Because there was no one she could turn to in this house for comfort. No one at all.

Especially not Harry.

Chapter 12

Despite a restless night’s sleep, the next morning Molly was ready to face another day as a contestant in the Most Delectable Companion contest. This time, she told herself, she would do well. She dressed in her least revealing gown, which was still outside the boundaries of good taste as it was a shocking shade of spring green. And she read the note Harry had slipped under her door: Have a good morning. Yours, Harry.

Yours? She blushed, remembering their kissing session last night. She supposed he was hers. At least for this week.

You should let him be yours even more, a tiny voice in her head urged her.

Molly cleared her throat and tried to ignore that wicked voice as she walked downstairs to the breakfast room. Once there she saw only one footman, the same one who’d helped her the day before when she’d first come to the house. Again, he looked right through her, as was appropriate, but she wondered if he were having any illicit thoughts about her or perhaps the other mistresses.

Because they were mistresses. Even if she was simply pretending.

She filled her plate and sat at the table, all alone.

Thankfully, Joan came in a few minutes later.

“Good morning.” Molly smiled and took a sip from her tea.

“I abhor country hours,” Joan muttered, and brushed by Molly rudely on her way to the sideboard.

“The men are already out and about, exploring the countryside on horseback,” Molly said when Joan returned to the table.

But Joan merely gave her a flat stare and stirred sugar into her tea.

The other mistresses trailed in one by one over the next half hour, and none of them ate terribly much. Molly, meanwhile, enjoyed eggs and a rasher of bacon, toast and marmalade.

Athena eyed her plate. “You do eat like a horse, don’t you?”

“Yes,” she said with a smile. “I have a good appetite.”

Joan snickered and stretched her arms above her head. “I have a good appetite, too.” She winked at Athena again. “But not for breakfast. At least that’s what Lumley tells me.”

Everyone else laughed, especially Hildur, who laughed heartily at everything, probably because she didn’t understand much of what was being said and wanted to fit in.

Molly herself wasn’t quite sure what was funny, so she kept quiet. She remembered her kiss with Harry in the carriage, and that gave her an idea. She had developed an appetite for kissing after that episode and so had given in easily to Harry last night.

Perhaps Joan had meant the same kind of appetite as that!

So she eventually did laugh, but she was a trifle late.

Everyone stared at her.

“For someone vying for the title of Most Delectable Companion, you’re a featherbrain,” said Joan to her. “At least Hildur has an excuse. She can’t understand the language.”

Molly couldn’t think of anything clever to say back. So she said what she was thinking. “You remind me of some teachers I used to know. I never once saw them laugh. Some students said it was because they were naturally hateful. But I think it was because our headmistress was difficult and wouldn’t let them write their families, as penance for their supposed failings. Miss Dunlap thought we were all wicked.”

Joan simply blinked.

There was an awkward silence, which Bunny was good enough to break. “What an interesting story, Delilah,” she murmured, and patted Molly’s hand.

No one else said another word, until Athena suggested they adjourn to the drawing room.

All the women, except Molly, carried bags of some sort. Hildur sat on a sofa and pulled out some knitting. Athena opened a sketchpad and looked out the window. Joan sat at the pianoforte and began a charming prelude.

Molly sat next to Bunny on another sofa and opened a book on ancient Rome which she found on the tabletop. Bunny nudged her. “Don’t you have anything to work on?” She pulled out a lovely piece of needlepoint.

“No,” said Molly. “For five years I went to a very strict school where my chore every day was to peel potatoes for each meal. I never developed any feminine skills. But my father loves a good tart, and Cook never made one to his satisfaction. So I stepped in and learned three years ago.”

“You live at home?” Bunny looked vaguely shocked. “And make tarts for your father?”

Molly felt her heart quicken. “Oh, no,” she said breezily. “I meant in the old days. Before I—before I—” She didn’t know quite how to say it.

“Before you became Lord Harry’s mistress?” Bunny whispered.

“Yes,” she said.

“Do you make him tarts?” Bunny asked her, all the while pushing her needle through her canvas.

“Yes, every Tuesday and Friday.” She hoped she wouldn’t go to hell for all the lies she was telling this week.

“That’s wonderful,” said Bunny, sounding wistful.

“Do you do anything…special for Sir Richard?” Molly set aside her book.

Bunny’s eyes darkened. “What he thinks of as special and what I think of as special are two very different things.” She shuddered and closed her eyes.

Molly couldn’t even imagine to what Bunny was referring. “What do you mean?”

Bunny opened her eyes. “You don’t want to know.”

Molly felt her skin prickle. “I hope he doesn’t do anything to make you feel uncomfortable. Or sad. Or frightened.”

The way he does me, she wanted to say.

Bunny half smiled. “Nothing you should worry about,” she murmured. “It’s all right.”

But Molly could tell it wasn’t all right. It wasn’t all right at all.

Bunny cleared her throat. “Let’s talk again about cozy things, shall we? Things that a loving wife would do for her husband, like that baking of yours. Do you also mend Lord Harry’s stockings?”

“No. I’m no good at mending. Just potato peeling. And tart baking.”

Bunny giggled. “I design my own gowns. “

“Really? How fascinating.”

Bunny giggled. “You’re the first person to find me at all fascinating, Delilah.” She paused, took out some thread and a needle from her basket. “Here, I’ll teach you to sew.”

And Bunny proceeded to do just that. She found an old piece of cloth, which she folded in two, and made tiny stitches in it. “See?”

Molly peered at it.