“He’s not here. Who is this?” She tried to push down her rising panic. Who else had access to this line and this phone?

“It’s Carl. I want my brother. They took Jackson away. I told them not to.” The male voice trembled. “I want Jackson back and they say I can’t have him.”

Maxine’s mind raced. Ryan’s brother? He hadn’t mentioned a brother. Carl sounded about twelve and on the verge of bursting into tears. “Ryan is busy. Is there someone with you I can talk to?”

“I want Jackson…” Carl whined, his volume increasing, his breathing rapid and panic filled.

“Carl, are you on Ryan’s cell phone?” Maxine tried to think of how to calm the boy and get in touch with Ryan at the same time.

“He left it here yesterday. I want Jackson…” and the sobbing began.

Max called into the phone to get his attention, but it was clear Carl was far too upset. An extended period of time passed before other voices joined in the background and a female spoke on the line.

“Hello? Is there someone there?”

Max sucked in a breath. Thank goodness. “Is Carl okay?”

“He’s pretty upset. Did he say what was wrong?”

“Something about Jackson getting taken away. With whom am I speaking?”

“Nancy. I’m one of his day nurses. Jackson had to be taken away, the bear was filthy and it’s washday. Okay, we’ll try to settle him down. Could you tell Mr. Claymore to stop by as soon as possible? Carl could use a little extra attention.”

“Wait…” Max hesitated for only for a second. Ryan was in meetings all afternoon. Only one solution sprang to mind. “Where are you? I mean, what’s the address?”

* * *

Ryan swore violently as he tried to find a parking space at the nursing home. What a fuckfest. His meeting had run late and he’d exited to find a series of panicked messages from his brother’s care center. When he attempted to call Maxine to apologize for having to cancel their plans, he had no luck getting through.

He slowed from his run as he reached the door, taking time to calm himself. Whatever was wrong with Carl, arriving angry or anxious would be inappropriate, and there was no way he wanted to upset the boy more. Once he could speak normally, he headed toward his brother’s rooms, his route leading him past the nurse’s station.

He waved a greeting. “Evening, ladies. I came as soon as I got the message. How’s Carl?”

The two nurses on duty smiled at him.

“He’s fine. We were worried for a while we’d have to sedate him, but as it turned out he settled down amazingly well.” She led the way toward one of the side halls, away from Carl’s room.

“Where are we going?” His brother did best in familiar settings. He rarely left his room for any other part of the care center, no matter how hard anyone urged otherwise.

“The library. Your fiancée started reading to him and before we knew it, Carl insisted they go to the library for the rest of the books in the series.”

Ryan stumbled. “My fiancée?”

The nurse gestured toward the door. “He’s very taken with her. Ms. Turner has been wonderful with him. Still, if you can try to get him back to his room in the next half hour, it would be best. He’s tired from his earlier tantrum, and an early night would do him good.”

His fiancée? Holy shit, holy shit, holy shit. Ryan peeked through the doorframe. Carl sat in his wheelchair, rolled as close as possible to the edge of the couch where Maxine sat, her long legs curled under her. She held the book toward him and read with exaggerated expression as Ms. Frizzle shrank the Magic School Bus and flew into the center of a flower patch. Carl stared at the book but his hand rubbed Maxine’s arm, his fingers moving in steady repetitious strokes.

Something in Ryan’s belly tightened and it was hard to breathe. He never dreamed keeping his mouth shut was going to come and bite him in the ass this hard. What the hell was he going to do?

Maxine’s reading trailed off and their eyes met. She flushed and unfolded herself, rising to greet him, her gaze darting warily at the nurse by his side. “Hi,” she said softly, then tucked herself into his arms and kissed him.

The room spun.

“I’ll leave you for a bit,” the nurse announced, smiling sweetly at them. She strode to Carl’s side. “It’s almost time for bed, Carl. Set your watch for thirty minutes, then you need to get ready.”

He nodded and fidgeted with his watch. Ryan held Maxine until the nurse left, then released her to greet his brother. “Hey, Carl. How’s everything?” He needed time and space to figure a way out of this landmine of a situation. Both things he was unlikely to get.

“Twenty-nine minutes until bedtime. Maxine knows Ms. Frizzle. They might be related. Jackson is back.” Carl held out his watch and showed it to Ryan. “Bedtime soon.”

“Right about that, buddy. You want me to take you to your room so you can get ready?”

Carl shook his head. “Maxine will take me.” He resumed stroking his hand repetitively down his own arm, and Ryan’s stomach took the final plunge. There was going to be no explaining this away.

Forty-five minutes later Ryan led Maxine out of the complex toward the parking lot. His mind continued to churn. How could he want two things at the same time? How could he want so badly for Maxine to know about his brother and still wish she were ignorant?

“Where’s your car?” he snapped. He damned himself for his reaction but…fuck.

Maxine had grown quieter and quieter over the past half hour, no doubt reacting to his increasing tension. “I took a cab. My car had a flat tire.”

He breathed out, long and slow, before escorting her to his car. Heading toward her home he kept his teeth tight together, refusing to say anything because he wasn’t sure he could speak politely. The situation wasn’t her fault, he had to keep that in mind. This mess was of his own damn making for not telling her sooner, but shit, what was he going to do now?

She didn’t speak until they’d traveled a fair distance, as if she was hesitant to brave his mood. Her fingers tangled together on her lap. “Why didn’t you tell me about your brother?” Her big green eyes bored into him.

“I can’t talk about it yet.”

Maxine turned away to stare out the window, her back twisted toward him. She sat silently, her head resting on the glass and his muscles tightened into a mass of knots.

Damn it. Hurting Max more wasn’t making this any better. He sighed and relented, speaking quietly. “He’s my half brother. I didn’t even know he existed until a couple of years ago when my father passed away and it came out in the will. This summer Carl and his mother were in a serious car crash and she died. He’s still in physical therapy, relearning to walk. There’s a list as long as my arm of his syndromes and symptoms, but the bottom line is he’s not socially capable. He’s fifteen and not much more advanced than a six-year-old. He has to live in the care facility, but I get out to see him daily.”

She nodded then returned to staring out the window. They sat in silence until he pulled into her yard, the tension between them building like a tangible wall. Maxine sniffed and he hardened his heart, fighting the need to drag her into his arms and comfort her.

She tugged him to a stop at the base of the stairs. “I’m sorry I lied and told them I was your fiancée, but they wouldn’t have let me in otherwise. Is that why you’re upset with me?”

He paced away a few steps. “You have no idea what you’ve done, do you?”

“I had to go. He was upset and crying and—”

Ryan dragged a hand through his hair, lowering his voice to keep from yelling at her. “So he was upset and crying, but he would have settled down eventually. Now he’s going to be wanting to see you all the time, and when you don’t show up, he’ll get upset and start crying and we’ll be no further ahead than we were at the start.”

She dropped a hand on his arm. “I’ll go see him. I don’t mind. He’s a lovely boy.”

“Fuck, Maxine, you still don’t get it. Carl has the mind of child, and he always will. But one thing he’s got is the ability to fixate on people. He’s never going to forget you, he’s going to ask for you daily. You should never have gone, never let him know about you.”

A flash of fire shot through her eyes. “Then if it’s such a big deal, and something you desperately wanted to avoid, you should have told me and I would have known not to go.” The hurt in her voice choked him. “You didn’t tell me about your brother and it’s obvious you don’t want me involved. So you’re saying I’m good enough to eat dinner with, and have sex with, but other than that you don’t want me in your life. Got it.”

She turned her back on him and stomped up the stairs. Ryan wanted to shake her. He followed, slamming his hand on the door to prevent it from opening. “That’s not it at all. I didn’t tell you because it’s a huge commitment and I didn’t want you feeling trapped into anything. It’s also not fair to Carl for people to wander in and out of his life. He doesn’t understand why they don’t come back and it hurts him. There was no way I was going to introduce you to him unless I knew you’d be in his life long term. With his issues he’ll be my responsibility for the rest of his life. It’s like I have a child.”

“So what? Big deal. Holy cow, you’re the one acting like a child. He’s your family. How could you put him in a little box, and me in another, and think it was going to be okay?”

“I wasn’t putting anyone in a box,” he denied. “I was trying to protect you both.”

“Bullshit. You take off for a couple hours every day and I didn’t know why. You get calls and take them in another room. I had no idea Carl existed and he’s your family.” She stood at the door, her fists resting on her hips. Her eyes were bright with tears and her anger brought bright color to her skin.