“I just wanted to tell you something. About the other night…”
“Can you forget what you saw? It was all a big mistake.”
He looks confused and then nods. “The Tyrone thing. Right.”
It’s my turn not to understand. Wasn’t that what he was talking about?
“I meant you and me.”
Great. So this is why he stopped me — to embarrass me on every level possible.
“I told you before. It. Doesn’t. Matter.” I start to open the door, but he holds it shut against me. I don’t like him doing that, but the action puzzles me. It doesn’t seem very Aaron-Tyler-teacher’s-son-ish.
“Listen to me, please,” he says, in a very serious voice. It’s not threatening or anything… but it makes you listen.
I cross my arms and wait.
“I wanted to explain something.” He sighs, sort of to himself. “Look, it’s not that I wouldn’t… you’re really pretty…”
I snort.
“Less so when you do that.”
I’m so surprised that I almost snort again. Almost. I stop myself because even though I’m pregnant, and even though I know he’s not interested, I still care what he thinks.
“I really like you. Not a jump-your-bones variety of liking. I just think you’re interesting.”
Huh?
“I mean… wow, I’m not doing this very well, am I?”
“No.” I am officially lost.
“I’m not up for anything romantic right now — with girls, or boys, either, for the record.”
“Glad we got that cleared up,” I say. Gideon will be disappointed — he’s convinced Aaron’s a closet. He hasn’t shut up about him since Rex’s party. In French he declared that shagging me was all part of being in denial. I didn’t correct him on the facts.
“But I do want to know you better, Hannah. You seem…” He’s lost for a moment, then finds what he’s looking for.
On cue my mum runs out of patience and beeps the horn.
Mum is full of questions on the drive home. All of them are about “that good-looking boy” she saw me talking to.
“If I’d realized you were talking to him, I wouldn’t have sounded the horn. I thought you were gossiping with one of the nurses.”
“He’s just a boy from school, Mum,” I say, bored of this conversation.
“He’s cute,” she says.
“You think?”
“You’re telling me that you don’t?” She obviously doesn’t believe a word I’m saying so I stay silent. Instead I think about what he said as he opened the door for me, the cold wind ruffling his hair as he looked at me.
You seem worth knowing.
If he’d said that to me at school, or in the park I’d have come out with something sarky in response. But standing at the entrance to Cedarfields, I hadn’t felt like being that person.
I wonder if the person Aaron saw just now is the person he sees at school.
FRIDAY 13TH NOVEMBER
AARON
Neville is unhappy with the state of play because, for the first time in two months, it looks like I might actually win.
“We’ll have to learn another game,” he grunts as he sweeps the cards off the table and starts shuffling them. His knuckles might be the size of golf balls and his skin mottled and knotted with veins, but the cards dance in his fingers like a black and red lightshow. “Here,” he hands me the pack, “you shuffle.”
I stack it so badly that half the cards splash to the floor. Once I’ve collected them I sit up to see Neville failing to hide a satisfied smile. He holds out his hand and waggles his fingers, taking the deck back and showing me how to shuffle them properly.
It’s long after dinner, but we’re sitting in the dining-room with the lights off, apart from the lamp by our table, and we’re all alone. The door’s open and I can hear the television in the opposite room, can see the echo of coloured light on the doorframe.
I look up as someone walks past. It’s Hannah.
She usually visits on Sundays. After Bonfire night I got a call from Neville — the first ever — asking me to come visit him on Sunday. He didn’t say why and when I got there, I got the usual underwhelming welcome and all we did was play cards next to this window and argue about stuff on the news. No different to usual. Hannah and her gran were walking in the grounds and Neville pointed her out to me, asking me if I liked the look of her. I told him we went to the same school and he told me that her gran was one of the better ones. Praise indeed.
I watch Neville’s hands as he cuts the pack.
I’m the only person who visits him. Even so, when I started popping in on my round of tea-time chats, he didn’t seem to want me around. He still doesn’t. But after a grunted “You again?” we hang out. We talk. Not about much in particular, but he starts to relax and tells me things, teaches me.
“You paying attention?” he says, snapping me back out of it.
“No,” I confess.
“Too busy thinking about your girlfriend?” He looks at me beneath bushy white brows. There’s nothing wrong with his eyesight, particularly where girls are concerned, so I’m not surprised he noticed Hannah walk past.
“I’ve told you before, she’s not my girlfriend.”
“You’re an idiot not to try. She’s got that look to her.” I don’t say anything because I don’t want to encourage him but he carries on anyway. “You can tell she knows what she’s doing.”
“You know she’s only fifteen?” I say. Hannah’s one of the youngest in our year.
“So? I lost my virginity when I was thirteen.”
“Thanks for that,” I say and concentrate on trying to thumb the cards together.
“Sandy Dixon — two years older than me. I thought I’d hit the jackpot, I’ll tell you. She were a corker, had a tiny waist but hips you could hang a coat off.” He’s gazing off into the middle distance, remembering. “Fantastic arse.”
I smile. Swapping sex stories is definitely not why Mum got me this placement.
“Mine was a girl I met on holiday this summer,” I say.
“A girl?”
“Yes, Neville, a girl.”
“Short hair, tiny tits and a moustache?”
“No. Long hair. Medium breasts. No moustache that I could see.” I look at him levelly and he grins.
“Does she have a name?”
“Kerry,” I say, remembering sneaking away to the beach and finding a discarded sun lounger, hands getting into places easily because she was only wearing a sundress and a bikini and I wasn’t wearing anything under my shorts. We were both utterly rubbish, but it hadn’t been unpleasant. The next night had been better.
“Did you see her again?”
I shake my head. I left her behind in Australia along with the pain I’d taken with me.
I watch as Neville lifts up the corners of the cards I’ve dealt. It feels good to share my history with someone. I can’t do this at school — there’d be too many questions. The past isn’t something to be cut and pasted into the present; I’d have to unfold the whole thing like a newspaper, showing every column just to point to one caption. I don’t want anyone to see the headlines in my past. All Neville and I know about each other are our names. No context, no politics, no preconceptions. Knowing absolutely nothing about each other makes it easier to share the most private of memories.
Neville might not be the type of friend my dad had in mind, but he’s good enough for me.
HANNAH
I’m knackered. Bone-tired. I think it’s to do with the pregnancy. And I’ve been drinking loads of water, so I need the loo every five seconds. I squeeze in another pee before I leave and it’s when I come out that I see Aaron leave the dining room with Neville. At least, I assume that’s him.
When the old coot sees me he winks at me.
Must be Neville. Gran told me that the guy Aaron comes to visit is a perv. Well, she used better language than that, but that’s what she meant. Apparently the nurses call him Randy Robson — which I guess is his surname. Grandad on Aaron’s mum’s side? Although I find it hard to believe he’d be related to anyone so dodgy.
Aaron sees me and waves.
“Aren’t you going to introduce me?” the old man says.
“Hadn’t planned on it,” Aaron says, but he’s grinning. He’s got a good smile, that boy. Not that you see it enough. “Hannah, this is Neville. Neville — Hannah.”
“Charmed,” Neville says, taking my hand and kissing it with dry lips.
“The pleasure’s all mine,” I say and wink at him the way he did just now.
Neville just looks at me and nods, then looks at Aaron. “Told you,” he says. “I’ll leave you babies to see yerselves out.”
Neville shuffles off down the hall.
“He told you what?” I ask, but Aaron just shakes his head.
“How come you’re here tonight?” he asks, as we walk to the glass doors.
“Jay’s visiting this weekend,” I say. “I don’t want to miss Sunday dinner if he’s going to stick around for it.”
“Jay?”
“Stepbrother. He’s doing Psychology at Warwick uni.” Even I can hear the slight swell of pride in my voice. I sound like Robert.
“His dad your little sister’s dad?”
I nod.
“She looking forward to seeing him?”
“Yup. He’s stronger than me so he can chuck her about a bit more, which she loves. Until she bumps something and then she cries and comes running to me for a cuddle. Lola’s not quite as tough as she thinks she is.”
He’s holding the door for me and when I glance up I see him looking at me closely.
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