“It made sense. He doesn’t want anything in trade, except me.”

He squeezed her hand. “Admit it. You want him too.”

Her gaze had been fixed on his mouth, watching him form words like they were sex-sounds. Her thighs tingled as she made the mental leap from his mouth forming words to moving on her clit.

“If you keep looking at me like that, I might take it the wrong way,” he murmured huskily. “Especially now that you’re impaired.”

“I’m not impaired. I’m sensitized. I think all the same things I did before without being able to shut them off during working hours.”

He took a long breath. “I dunno, Pharr. I don’t remember you ever looking at me like I was dessert before. Even off the clock.”

Dessert? Yes, she could easily lick every part of him and sip from those lips until each aching neuron in her body was satisfied.

He pulled his hand away. “Yeah, and that look certainly never happened. If you hadn’t been shot up with anti-inhibitor we’d be talking about solar flares right now, or disarming techniques.”

“That doesn’t mean I wouldn’t be thinking about other things later.”

Tarrel lifted an eyebrow and grinned. “Really? You have those thoughts about me?”

Was it hot in there? She could swear her skin was flushing. “Don’t pretend you haven’t had your own thoughts. I may normally maintain my distinction, but I’m not unaware of your interest.”

“You’re a beautiful woman, Neela. I’d be an idiot not to notice.”

Admissions seemed to come more easily too. She’d be kicking herself for the frankness of their discussion later. For now, it felt perfectly natural for her to tell him exactly what kind of thoughts she’d been having, because she was pretty sure they’d be reciprocated.

She’d spent a number of nights looking out her apartment windows and imagining what Tarrel was doing. He was free with himself. If he wanted a woman, he took her. She’d seen it countless times on the Elaran base cantina. He’d smile and some human would wander over. Before long, they’d leave together, and Neela would think about all the ways he’d make his woman cry out.

Moisture seeped between her pussy lips. It seemed every thought generated not only feelings, but urges too. If this was humanity, it was a wonder the human ever learned space flight between sexual encounters. Her libido swelled the longer she sat with him, dredging up all the thoughts she’d kept to herself.

Just once, she wanted to be his woman. She wanted to know.

Neela licked her lips nervously. “Fuck me.”

He blinked. “Excuse me?”

“I’m going to go insane with the things this body wants. Please, fuck me.”

“Not that I haven’t always wanted to hear you say those words, but considering this is nothing like you, I’m-can’t believe I’m gonna say this-going to have to pass on that. You’d kill me later for taking advantage.”

“No, I want this.” She got up and straddled his lap. Dragging her nails down his uniformed chest, she looked up at him under her lashes. “I’d never be so forthright, but it’s what I want. And judging from the bulge in your pants, you want it too.”

“He wants a lot of things he’s not supposed to have.” He squirmed back in his chair, but there wasn’t much room for him to go. “What about the king? You’re supposed to spread those legs for him in a few days. Don’t you think he’d care that I’d been there first?”

“I’m not a virgin,” she scoffed.

He caught her wrists. “Neela. You’re giving your body to him, for however he wants to use you. That kind of matters to me.”

“He can have me without having me.” She hoped. Neela felt comfortable with the mechanics of sex. She worked at being good at it, like it was another mastery to learn. This time though, she couldn’t stay detached. Her heart raced, and her hands shook. The real fear of rejection, something she’d never worried about before, crawled icy fingers up her spine. “Are you saying no?”

“Ask me again when we’re back home and you’re you.” He sounded confident, but his gaze raked the exposed skin at her neck.

Neela twisted her wrists to free herself, then released the hidden eyehooks down her side. She pulled open her uniform top and shrugged it from her shoulders. For a man who wasn’t convinced they should engage in sex, he had no qualms admiring her barely concealed breasts. The filmy white garment cupped the underside of each, lifting her berry-colored nipples high enough to peek over the edge of the demi-bra.

“Sure, I’ll ask when we get back,” she offered agreeably. She wished she didn’t sound so breathless, so out of control. Was it needy? Desperate? Would he laugh at her? She didn’t remember ever having these concerns before.

“Damn it, Pharr. There’s only so much a guy can take.” His hands slid up her sides.

“I recommend you take all of it. I’m not ashamed of sex. Not as I am now, nor as I usually carry myself. I want you. Either you take what I’m offering, or you watch me while I think of you. What’ll it be, Lieutenant?”

“When you put it that way,” he breathed.


One of the reasons Neela appealed to Tarrel so much was her mystique. Her race had clear lines between appropriate behavior on and off the job. They were passionate people who tempered themselves with iron control. Today her control was failing. Today was a dream come true.

Neela Pharr had been a scuff-kneed, cockeyed ponytail-wearing brat when he’d first moved to Elara colony twenty years ago. The only part of that kid remaining was the long inky hair and fearlessness.

High emotion brought a rise of color along her spine. He’d seen it only once when Neela had been playing with a neighborhood boy, and she’d gotten angry. Tarrel never forgot the burnt orange arrows of her inverted chevron spinal column, running from skull base to the waistband of her swimming gear.

What color was her spine in the heat of passion?

He needed to focus. This was Neela Pharr. She could easily kick his butt in a fight. Beyond that, she was a trusted friend and fellow ranking military presence. Fucking this up would be bad.

“You only want me because of the anti-inhibitor and years of history together. Think about this for a second. If we have sex and you wind up regretting it, we won’t be the same.”

She took his hands and pressed them to the underside of her breasts. “I never regret sex.”

“You aren’t used to combining sex and emotion, are you?”

Neela huffed. “I’m hardly a cold fish in the sack, Tarrel. But you wouldn’t know that because we’ve never gone there before.”

“Sex is about feeling,” he said, trying again. His cock complained with a thick throb. Damn if he didn’t already feel the sting of blue-balls.

“It’s about getting off,” she deadpanned. “It’s about genitalia and rushing blood vessels and pleasure centers in the brain.” She stood up and backed away with a sexy saunter. “But if you won’t participate, I’ll go it alone.”

“If that’s all you think it is, then you need some education. Human style.” He levered himself out of the chair.

“Is that a yes?” she asked, a sly smile curling her full lips.

“We’re on auto-pilot and we have a couple of days. If you think this won’t make things weird between us, then yeah, I’m in.” He grinned in afterthought. “And out. And in again as many times as it takes. I won’t quit until you have the full human experience.”

“Dedicated,” she mused.

“Yeah, I’m a tireless giver.”

Neela continued to back away. She reached behind herself and loosened the fastenings on her bra, letting the gauzy material slide off her arms to the floor. Tarrel’s stomach felt like it had made an atmospheric plunge.

“You just get right to it, don’t you?” he asked.

“Why wait?”

Tarrel unhooked his uniform flight top and unzipped the semi-attached pants portion. He pushed the clothes off his body as he hobbled out of his issue boots. He’d have been more respectful, but with Neela slithering sensuously out of her body suit, he couldn’t bring himself to look away.

Long hours of training had toned her core, but she still had a softness to her that he liked in a woman. He wasn’t fooled into thinking there wasn’t hard muscle under there. He’d seen her in combat with her lance. He knew the dedication it took to master her talents, but she was blessed with full hips and round thighs and the sweetest thatch of trim, short curls between her legs. It was like a runway to heaven that he couldn’t wait to land on.

Moisture glistened at the seam. He hadn’t even touched her yet. Neela hadn’t been kidding when she said she was ready.

She took another step back. Tarrel finally freed his legs in a stumbling trip forward. Barely catching himself on the bulkhead just inside the sleeping quarters, he laughed at his awkwardness.

“I feel like a kid who’s never gotten laid.”

“Did you pass your physical?” she asked, sitting on the very edge of the one-man wall cot.

“The doc cleared me and I stepped through the viral containment unit like I do before every work day,” he told her.

“As did I.” Neela leaned back and parted her thighs.

“I boosted my contraception dose last week,” he added for her peace of mind.

She shrugged a shoulder. “I’m not due for mine for another three months. I don’t depend on other people to protect my body.” But she did seem to relax a fraction.

“Then why are we still talking?” he asked.

“Because I’m waiting to see what I have to work with.” She looked pointedly at his tented briefs.

Tarrel tucked his thumbs in the waistband, running them back and forth teasingly before dragging the undergarment downward and off.

“Nice,” she murmured. She hooked her foot behind his thigh and pulled him closer. When he got close enough, she grabbed his arm and pulled him to the bed, neatly straddling him in one quick move.