Before she and Carolyne and Andrew had vacated the house over a year ago, she’d managed to pack a few of her father’s hand tools for her younger brother. Right now he only used them on occasion to repair his leg braces. But someday he would appreciate having them for the heritage of skill and craftsmanship they represented.
Her parents had left such a precious legacy for their children. One she’d been reminded of yesterday. “Don’t allow the world to teach you theology, Savannah. It’ll not teach you right.” She could hear her father’s voice and see his smile even now, his large hand resting atop the family Bible. “Take it directly from the Source instead.”
“Are you certain you can manage it?”
Seeing Miss Sinclair struggle with the cumbersome gilded frame, Savannah smiled. “Yes, I’m certain.” Lugging around her heavy sewing satchel had its advantages.
Mindful of how much the portrait likely cost, Savannah made certain the wire had caught on the nail before letting go. She stood alongside Miss Sinclair and eyed it. Then smiled.
“It’s slantindicular,” she said, aware of how Miss Sinclair was looking at her.
“I beg your pardon?”
“I said it’s slantindicular.” Savannah crossed the room and nudged the portrait up a little on the right side, then walked back, thinking of her brother Jake and about how he used to make up nonsensical words and phrases. “It means it’s slanted.”
Miss Sinclair looked from the portrait to her, then back to the portrait again. “You Southerners are a strange breed, Miss Anderson.”
Savannah didn’t know whether it was the wary tone Miss Sinclair used when saying it, or if it was the woman’s proper Northern accent, but she laughed out loud.
And was still smiling when she walked home briskly that afternoon, keeping watch for a black stallion and the master of Darby Farm.
Later that night, as she helped Carolyne with her French and answered Andrew’s questions as he struggled with Macbeth, Savannah thought again of what Mr. Bedford had said about a haven. She was grateful the plot of land meant something to him and hoped he would decide as her father and her mother’s father had in regard to tilling it: that there was plenty of cultivated land on Darby Farm. Best leave that foretaste of heaven alone.
Thinking about her maternal grandfather made her think of her mother, which brought a sense of melancholy. She wished again that the two could have made peace with each other before her grandfather passed.
“Savannah?”
Seated by Carolyne on the girl’s bed, Savannah looked across the room at her brother. The careful way he’d said her name told her he desired her full attention.
“I was at the mercantile today, and Mr. Mulholland asked about you.” Brows knit together, he hesitated, then glanced at their younger sister, whose head was still buried in the textbook. “He asked if you were going to stop by the store anytime soon. He said you hadn’t been by in a while to . . . visit with everyone.”
Clearly hearing what he wasn’t saying, Savannah hated the worry edging his voice. She’d been able to hide the dire state of their finances from Carolyne, but Andrew was far too perceptive. And him working at the mercantile didn’t help. She knew Mr. Mulholland needed his money. The proprietor had been more than patient with her. But to inquire about it to Andrew? The boy already had enough burdens to deal with.
“Not to worry.” Savannah pasted on a smile. “As soon as I finish the job I’m working on now, I’ll drop by and say hello to Mr. Mulholland and his family.”
Andrew held her stare then discreetly reached down and touched the braces on his legs. “These are fine,” he said softly. “I really don’t need any new—”
Savannah silenced her younger brother with a look, her throat straining with emotion. “We’re going to be fine,” she mouthed, then swallowed hard.
As though sensing something, Carolyne peered up at her. Savannah smoothed a hand over her sister’s golden-blond hair and checked the girl’s writing on the slate. “Très bon,” Savannah whispered. “You’re almost finished. Continue, please.”
With Carolyne’s attention refocused, Savannah looked back at Andrew. “I’ll visit the mercantile again very soon. I promise. And yes”—she looked pointedly at the braces on his legs, loving her brother with a fierceness that sometimes surprised her—“you do.”
Reading uncertainty in his eyes, she smiled to let him know everything would be fine, and remembered her mother doing the very same thing with her, even when Savannah knew otherwise.
Later, once both siblings were in bed asleep, her gaze went to the drawer of the bedside table, and her heart to the letter within. She retrieved the missive, wanting to hold the stationery in her hand again and see her father’s handwriting. Her gaze moved down the page to the paragraph she’d thought of earlier in the evening.
You will remember what we spoke of when last we were together, after the children were abed. I ask you again to forgive me for keeping what I did from you. It was most lovingly done. However, I understand how hurtful a revelation it was for you. It was never my intention to add to that past wound, my dearest.
She turned the page. A heavy watermark marred the ink on the time-crinkled stationery, but the words were still legible. Besides, she knew them already.
Your father was a most persuasive man, and even now I can see the determination in his eyes. Though I know the relationship between the two of you was never the same, I do believe your father entered eternity with overwhelming love for you and with a desire that you forgive him for the decision he made all those years ago. And I hope, my love, that you will. The longer I fight this war, and the more men I see taken so swiftly from this world to the next, the more I am convinced that harboring unforgiveness is a costly debt. One that is paid over and over not so much by the one needing forgiveness as by the one withholding it.
The ink blotched the page as though her father had hesitated overlong in lifting the pen, and she wondered what her mother had felt when first reading his next words.
What your father gave me—gave you—he did in a spirit of reconciliation, and I hope that in time you will receive his gift as such. Before I left, I placed it with the rest of our valuables for safekeeping.
Andrew stirred, and she looked up to see if he’d awakened. Sometimes the pain in his legs kept sleep at a distance. But his eyes remained closed, so she continued reading.
I’ll adhere to your wishes and will wait to share the story with our entire family once the boys and I return home. But know that this was far more than a simple gesture on your father’s part. It was an olive branch intended to heal, and I pray its roots spread deep and wide through our family. I left additional monies in the box as well. Save it if you can. Spend it if necessary. Even if the house is commandeered, it will be safe.
Oh, Papa. Where did you put it? And what is in it? Money still, perhaps?
Her mother had never said anything about it and had died so quickly herself. She’d been fine one moment, then complaining of a severe headache the next. Then she’d collapsed. When she finally came to, she’d been unable to move or speak, and within hours, even to breathe.
She’d been gone by the next morning.
Her throat tightening, Savannah didn’t reread the last paragraph of the letter, her father’s parting thoughts especially painful tonight for some reason. She slipped the folded stationery back into the envelope, then reached for the Bible. She laid her hand atop the worn black leather, much as her father had done, and wished she felt as confident about God’s providence as he and her mother had.
She opened the Bible and took care turning the pages yellowed with time and dog-eared with a thirst for understanding and comfort. Contrary to the front and back of the book that contained the scribbled history of the Darby family, the pages themselves were clean and unmarked.
Every night she read to her siblings and silently to herself. But that habit had slipped in recent years as work grew busier and time shrank by half. Some days the words spoke to her more than others. Though she realized this had more to do with her heart than anything to do with the Lord.
The lamp oil burning low and the hour growing late, she returned the Bible to the drawer, then snuggled into the bed, weary from the long day. But apparently her body hadn’t informed her thoughts because they turned with startling clarity to Aidan Bedford. She could see his face. And how he’d looked at her yesterday. For a moment, her imagination almost convinced her she hadn’t been the only one doing the looking.
Then her saner side resumed function. Why would a man like him look at a woman like her? On the other hand, how could a woman like her take a second look at a man like him? From two different worlds, they were.
But she had to admit, even though the sensations she’d experienced had been one-sided, it gave her hope that maybe someday she’d find someone. A solid Southern man who would not only love her, but who would love Carolyne and Andrew too.
As she willed sleep to come, the last paragraph of her father’s letter returned, insistent. But instead of seeing the words on the page, she heard the memory of her father’s resonant voice across time.
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