He appreciated that she didn’t try to smother him. It would have been easy to do, since she was a nurse, but she kept it in check, asked necessary questions, and otherwise assumed he’d let her know if he had a problem.

“I cut store hours from November first to April thirtieth, opening at eight A.M. and closing at five. I also close up on Sundays,” she explained, then stopped and had to put some muscle into dragging down a heavy box. “During the summer, I have part-time help, and believe me, I need it.”

She didn’t hear him come up behind her and jumped when he reached above and around her to help.

“Thanks,” she said with a surprised smile.

“Where do you want this?”

“Over there on the table with the rest of them.”

Again, he appreciated that she didn’t make a big deal out of the fact that he actually did something other than take up space.

“This time of year, though,” she continued, smiling at him, “running the store is a one-woman show.”

The fact was, she often spent the better part of the day upstairs in the apartment and only headed down when the bell above the door alerted her that she had a customer.

“Go ahead,” she said, when she caught him eyeing the boxes. “Open them up. I’ve kept everything over the years. There are some decorations in there you made when you were in Boy Scouts.” She laughed. “I’m sure you’ll figure out which ones they are.”

Because he was up and because she seemed to want him to, he opened the first box. Garland, lights, glittering glass balls… and at the bottom of the box, another smaller box. Inside were three old pine cones sparkling with glitter; old-fashioned gold curling ribbon had been glued onto the stems, then looped so they could be hung on a tree. A picture of a boy who looked to be about eight years old had been taped to the middle of a bell that had been sloppily cut out of red construction paper. Another length of gold curling ribbon had been threaded through a hole made by a paper punch, then tied, making a loop to fit over a tree branch.

She walked up beside him, smelling clean and healthy and like a little bit of the maple syrup she’d served with his pancakes this morning.

“Guess I found my decorations.”

She smiled. “I always loved that picture of you.”

He studied the boy in the photo, wishing he could conjure up some connection. “He looks like an ornery little twerp.”

She laughed this time. “You were hell on wheels. You had this old bike you used to ride on the roads all around the lake. Cars would come up behind you, and you wouldn’t get out of their way—just to tick them off.”

“Sounds like I was a candidate for juvie hall.”

“Nah. You were never mean-spirited. Besides, Brad never let you get too far out of line.”

“What happened to my mother?” he asked abruptly.

She looked at him sharply. “You… you remember about your mother?”

He lifted a shoulder, then pulled a kitchen chair out and sat down. “I know she wasn’t around. That’s the one thing that came to me over there. That I hadn’t had a mother.”

She touched a hand to his shoulder, and for once, he didn’t feel like shrugging it off.

“She left. I won’t defend her, but your father was an alcoholic. I guess she couldn’t take it. Why she left you boys with him, I’ll never know.”

“How old was I?”

“When she left? You were five, I think. Brad was ten. Your dad tucked into the bottle even deeper then. You were fifteen when he wrapped his truck around a tree one night.”

“So Brad…” He let the thought trail off.

“Pretty much raised you.”

They talked then for the better part of an hour about his high school days, sports, and dating, and for once, he asked the questions instead of relying on her to offer information.

“What are you going to do with all this stuff?” he asked when he’d absorbed as much as he could about the boy who had become the man he didn’t remember.

“Hang it on the tree… as soon as I get one.”

He glanced out a window. The sky was brilliant blue, but the indoor/outdoor thermometer by the sink said it was twenty-eight degrees Fahrenheit outside.

“Do you want to go with me?” she asked, with a hesitance he completely understood. He’d been back three weeks, and he hadn’t once left the apartment. “There’s a tree farm between here and the Falls. I usually go cut my own.”

She’d been trying so hard. His brother had been trying so hard. Maybe it was time he tried. “Maybe we should call Brad,” he said. “See if he wants to go with us.”

Her smile was too happy, too bright, for such a small concession on his part. “Great idea. We’ll go as soon as I close the store at five.”

“I DON’T HAVE a wife.”

A fist hit him in the gut, doubling him over. Another slammed into his kidney. His knees buckled, and he fell on the dirt floor, covered in mud from the water they threw on him to revive him. Mud mixed with his blood.

Every day for longer than he could remember, they had dragged him in here, threatened him, and beat him, and when they were through with him, they dumped him back into the box. Four feet by four feet by six feet. Too many marks on the earth walls.

“Tell us her name. Tell us her name so we can find her and tell her what a hero you are.”

“I don’t have a wife.” Through the pain, he felt himself being hoisted by pulleys attached to the ropes that were tied around his bleeding wrists.

“Tell us what Americans were doing in Pakistan.”

“We got lost.”

Pain exploded through his jaw, and his knees buckled again. Only the ropes held him upright. He couldn’t see out of his right eye. Blood burned his pupil and dripped onto the dirt.

“Tell us about the Americans’ latest weapons system.”

“Rock… slingshot.”

Another blow to his head.

Another round of questions.

Over and over and over.

“What is your wife’s name? Tell us, and we will stop. We will feed you. You don’t have to hurt anymore.”

“I don’t have a wife. I don’t have a wife!”…

“I don’t have a wife!”

“J.R. Wake up. You’re having a nightmare.”

“I don’t have a wife!” he yelled again, as hands held him down.

He reared up swinging… connected with flesh… heard a cry.

Not his.

A woman’s.

“Rabia? Oh, God, Rabia.”

He frantically looked around. He wasn’t in an interrogation shed. He wasn’t in a box.

He wasn’t on a roof under an Afghan moon.

Rabia.

He was in a room. With soft light. A soft bed.

A dog whined and scratched at the door from the other side.

Another muffled cry.

Not a dream.

Jess.

“Oh, God. Jess.”

“I’m OK,” she whispered from the far side of the bed.

“Did I hit you?”

“It’s OK. I’m OK. I’ll… I’ll be right back.”

The door opened, and she hurried out.

And all he could do was sit there in the bed, his hands braced behind him, his heart pounding wildly… and relive the nightmare that had been his life in captivity.

JESS RUSHED INTO the bathroom, flipped on the light switch, and walked directly to the vanity. One look at her mouth, and she turned on the cold-water faucet. Blood pooled between her teeth and her split lower lip and trickled down her chin.

She groped for a washcloth with a shaking hand, wet it under the stream of water, then winced when she pressed it to her swollen lip.

Oh, God. She breathed deep to steady herself.

“Jess.”

Her head snapped up. She met J.R.’s eyes in the mirror.

He stood in the doorway behind her, his eyes filled with anguish.

“It’s OK,” she reassured him.

“It’s not OK. You’re bleeding.”

“It looks worse than it is.”

“I hit you. I hurt you.” If pain was a sound, it came out in his voice.

She shook her head. “I shouldn’t have woken you like that. But you were having a nightmare. I… I don’t know. I wanted to wake you. To get you away from wherever you were.”

It all crashed down on her then. From hearing the news that he was alive. To telling Ty good-bye. To seeing J.R. in the hospital, broken and defeated. To bringing him home and trying so hard to give him his space and hoping so, so hard that he would remember…