“We used to watch James Bond movies together,” Colin said, in a voice so low as to be almost inaudible. “He read everything. Follett, Fleming, le Carré, Forsyth, Deighton.” Some of the names were unfamiliar to me, but I recognized enough of them to guess that we were mostly talking spy thrillers. “It was only at the end that he told me — ”

I cocked my head, indicating interest.

Colin smiled wryly. “ — that he had been in intelligence himself, while he was in the service.”

“Service?” I asked in a very small voice.

“The army,” he translated for my American ears, specifying, “Twenty-first Lancers.” I could hear the small boy’s pride in his voice. “So there’s your spy for you. He was stationed in Germany, Hong Kong, Northern Ireland. And those are only the places he told me about.”

I didn’t know what to say. Something about his tone suggested that he wouldn’t welcome questions about his father. The entire topic was too, too fraught. I felt like I was playing “red light, green light, one, two, three,” that child’s game where you can only advance by increments when the other person’s back is turned. Revelation had to sneak up on him; I couldn’t force it. He would tell me what he wanted me to know in his own way, in his own time.

And then there was all that had been said by being unsaid. It made my heart wrench to think of what Colin must have gone through, seeing the center wrenched out of his world. His change of career seemed in part a reaction to his own mortality, in part a tribute to his father. Either way, it went far deeper than mere fiction.

“I’d love to read what you’ve written,” I said finally, for lack of anything better to say.

It seemed to be the right thing. “Thanks,” he said. The hint of a smile played around his lips. “You know, I did think of writing about the Pink Carnation initially. . . .”

“You didn’t!” I made noises of exaggerated indignation. “So that’s why you wanted to be rid of me!”

The sound of my own voice made me wince. I was too loud, too strident, hamming it up to drum away the ghosts that seemed to be walking with us through the mist-ridden grounds, like natives clanging cymbals around a campfire to scare away the spirits.

“One of the reasons. There was Serena, too,” he said, and I knew he meant Serena’s relationship with a man who had been dating her in hopes of access to their family archives. “But I did initially think of writing a sort of quasi-history, starting with the Purple Gentian and ending with Dad.”

“I’m glad you didn’t,” I said teasingly, sliding my arm through his.

“I’d hate to think of us being in competition. Not to mention that novels sell much better than histories.”

“Tell that to Joan,” he said dryly, but his arm tightened around mine.

“Why did you even bother to tell her?” I asked. Stupid of me, I know, but it bothered me that she had known before I had. She might be annoying, but she was quite attractive in her own way. And she had known Colin far longer. She had known his sister and his parents and the boy he had been before his father’s death. It all made me feel a little bit insecure.

“I had hoped she might put me in touch with her agent,” he admitted. “She wasn’t too chuffed at the notion.”

“Won’t she feel like an idiot when you’re a best seller!” I declared loyally. Too loyally. I was like a one-woman brass band.

“Eloise?” I tilted my head up to find Colin looking at me understandingly. “It’s okay.”

He didn’t have to explain what he meant. It was a little bit of everything: his father, the book, my silly assumptions, Joan. And it really was okay. We had, without my even realizing it, overleaped an indefinable hurdle and landed safely on the other side. I was still getting used to the notion of Colin as novelist, but I found that I liked it. I certainly liked it better than the notion of Colin as spy. Of course, if I were a spy, trying to hide my secret identity from my girlfriend, isn’t that just the sort of cover story I would come up with?

Oh, no. I wasn’t letting myself go down that road again. Even if it might be a rather interesting road.

“I know,” I said. And then, rather nonsensically, “I like you.”

Colin’s eyes crinkled at the corners in that way I already knew so well. Funny how you can come to know someone’s gestures, their mannerisms, so well, while knowing so little else about them at all. But I was learning.

“I like you, too,” he said. And then he grinned. “But no more Errol Flynn.”

Everyone always does tell me that relationships require compromise. And if I wanted this to be a real one . . .

“Okay,” I said. “Tonight we’ll watch Bond. Just for you. But tomorrow I get The Scarlet Pimpernel.”

“It’s a deal,” said Colin.