‘It’s not difficult. A pretty girl who prefers the garden on her own to a crowded house. Odds on she’ll like the sea.’

‘I have been to the sea.’

‘Not one like ours, I bet. Different every day. We have waves as tall as your oak trees.’

‘You’re such a liar.’

‘Twice as tall sometimes. They break ships the size of your house to matchwood against the rocks. More than a hundred soldiers and seamen drowned off Sibrille after the Napoleonic wars. There’s a tablet to them. Yet for all that, we still call the sea a woman.’

‘No one owns the sea,’ I said.

‘Why do you say that?’

‘Here everything is about what you own. Which means land, I suppose. There are more problems owning than not owning, I think. You said as much yourself. You said you sleep soundly.’

‘Did I?’

‘“We live our lives”, you said.’

‘Not only is she pretty, but she forgets nothing.’

I ground my cigarette out. ‘Do you?’

Ronnie Shaw was looking directly in through the open windows of the drawing room. ‘Who’s that woman?’

I looked. Bella was standing at a window, talking to Norman.

‘That’s Bella, my sister.’

Ronnie’s fingers went to the slim case and he took out a fresh cigarette. ‘Good Lord, she’s gorgeous,’ he said, almost to himself, and tapped both ends of the cigarette against the polished silver.

I was suddenly weak. Bella’s beauty only emphasised how irrelevant I was to a man like this, and how much I still had to learn. Then I felt his hand on my bare arm.

‘But not half as gorgeous as you.’

‘I beg your pardon?’

‘We never discussed when I will have the pleasure of showing you the lighthouse which you don’t believe in, did we?’

His engaging smile.

I freed myself. ‘No, we didn’t, Mr Shaw, and we never shall.’


I spent the rest of the party, or of much of it as I could, sitting by the range in the kitchen, as the staff hurried in and out with plates and trays and teapots. It was the one place I was sure that Norman Penrose would never enter, but each time I reappeared in the marquee, he immediately put down his glass or plate or indeed his current dancing partner and cornered me. The kitchen was my haven. At two in the morning, I went up the back stairs and into bed and slept deeply, dreaming of men in battle and enormous black rooks flocking into night roosts.

‘Iz! Iz! Wake up!

Bella went to the heavy curtains and pulled them back. Light flooded in whitely.

‘Are you awake?’

I had gone under the blankets.

‘Iz! This is important!’

‘What time is it?’

Bella was dressed and she was smiling at her most engaging. ‘Nine o’clock. Listen, you and I are going to do something absolutely mad today.’

‘Go away. I want to sleep.’

Bella sat down beside me. ‘You know Ronnie Shaw? He wants us to go down to Monument.’

‘He what..?’

‘He’s playing a rugby match and he wants us to go down and watch it. It’s only a few hours in his car. Come on!’

I sat up. ‘He wants you, Bella, not me.’

Bella’s eyes were intensely bright. ‘He suggested we both go! Come on! It’s something different!

‘I don’t want to go to Monument with him. He’s pompous,’ I said and went back under the bedclothes.

I felt Bella kneel on the bed and catch the sheet where I was clutching it; she tugged until she fell out on the floor, all my bedclothes around her head. We were both laughing.

‘Ronnie’s not the worst when you get to know him,’ she said.

‘He thinks you’re gorgeous.’

‘They have no money, but he’s fun. I mean, this is just a fun idea.’

‘Then you go with him.’

‘You know I won’t go on my own. Please, Iz.’

‘I don’t want to go down the country as a sort of chaperone to you, Bella.’

‘Why not? I’d do it for you.’

‘No, you wouldn’t.’

‘It’s not as if your whole life will end because you spend a day in Monument.’

‘I don’t want to go.’

Bella’s face darkened and I felt suddenly sorry for her that so much seemed to depend on so little.

‘You’re a spoilsport, you know that? she said. ‘You’re going to embarrass me.’

‘Why on earth should I embarrass you?’

‘Because I thought this was something you’d like to do. That’s what I told Ronnie.’

‘You’ve actually told him I’m coming, haven’t you?’

‘Oh, for God’s sake, Iz! It’s not as if I’m asking you to elope! Look, please, as a treat for my birthday, please, say you’ll come. I’ve told him we must be back by evening.’

In the end, it was not so much that it was easier to let Bella have her way than the fact that I saw her all at once as a woman who was essentially floundering in life, whose beauty and poise should have delivered her so much more than a fast and racy life in which the leaping into a car on a whim and dashing to the other end of Ireland was the pinnacle of achievement.

‘What about all the work here?’ I asked.

‘I’ve seen to everything!’ she cried. ‘Thank you, little sister!’ She ran to the door, then turned back. ‘Well, come on! He says he has to be down there by two!’

As I got dressed, I felt excited, despite myself, that I was embarking on what was, in my life, an adventure. An hour later, having eaten breakfast and said goodbye to my parents, sitting sideways in the tiny rear seat of an MG Midget behind Ronnie Shaw and Bella, we drove down the avenue of Longstead.

‘You see?’ Ronnie said, turning around, a grin cracking his face. ‘You may get to see the sea much sooner than you imagined.’


My chief memory of the journey was of the smoke from Ronnie Shaw’s cigarette. Although he pulled in near Carlow and folded down the roof, an ever-floating tail of smoke lay across my face and made me dizzy. Bella and Ronnie chatted the whole time, mostly about people we all knew, people like ourselves who lived in Down and Donegal and County Clare. The social lives of this extended group, their comings and goings to and from London, their war — their war! — their marriages and infidelities, their vanities, offspring, disloyalty and appearance were analysed without cease or remorse. Or so I assume, as I went to sleep and, when I came to, found that we were coming in along a busy quay. It was a wider river than I had seen before and its ships and sailing boats were moored right up to the town. Horse-drawn broughams and drays slowed our progress. I smelled ship-bound pens of waiting pigs and cattle before I saw them. Behind me, the brightly painted face of Monument appeared, shop fronts and hall doors, brass knobs and striped, protective door sheets.

We made our way up through the town, Ronnie leaning on the horn to clear the street of children and cyclists. Women in black shawls, their skirt hems to the cobblestones, stood behind carts piled with apples. Most of the shops had awnings rolled out to protect their windows from the sunlight.

‘It’s hardly Bond Street, but you can buy most things here,’ Ronnie said and Bella smirked, since the remark had been for her.

We drove up a steep hill and passed through what seemed like tenements; then we were out again in open country with hedgerows either side and fields of after-grass. The match, Ronnie explained, was a ‘little pipe-opener’ that always took place before the season proper got underway, between Monumentals, the local rugby club, and a team from Limerick. Several cars and a great many bicycles were parked in a field in which a tent had been pitched. Beyond the far ditch, I could see the crosses and headstones of a cemetery.

‘This is our rugby club,’ Ronnie said, getting out and reaching to help me.

‘It’s just a field!’ Bella cried, as if something far greater had been promised. ‘And it’s beside a graveyard!’

‘Which is very handy’, Ronnie said. ‘Someone gets done over during a match, we just heel them straight in.’

Bella’s jaw dropped and Ronnie turned to me and smiled and I saw something deeper in his eyes than I had been expecting.

‘Back in a minute,’ he said and made his way to the tent.

‘I don’t know about you,’ Bella said, ‘but I’m starving.’

A few other people were waiting around, chatting and giving us shy, sidelong glances. Ronnie emerged less his jacket and with the top of his shirt unbuttoned. He was followed by a big red-headed man in his mid-twenties. The man was limping.

‘This is Tom King,’ Ronnie said and introduced us. He turned to Tom. ‘The girls have come down from County Meath to see how rugby is really played.’

‘You must have very little else to do,’ Tom said, as Ronnie disappeared again.

He had sprained his foot, he explained to us, otherwise he too would have been playing. His face was round and freckled and he spoke in an accent that was gently guttural.

‘I beg your pardon,’ Bella said, ‘but is there by any chance someplace we could find something to eat?’

‘Not unless you go back into town,’ Tom said. ‘Would you like me to see if there are sandwiches inside?’

‘Thank you so much,’ Bella said and lifted her chin.

She had a way of being condescending to people who she considered of lesser social standing than us that was beyond her power to correct or alter, an imperious manner she believed was intrinsic to her position but which, when seen at times like this, was simply ridiculous. I could see that she was disappointed, that she had had in her mind a glittering occasion, an event such as polo or cricket that followed house parties in England, a social set piece played out in surroundings of wealth and privilege rather than a ramshackle game of rugby in the Irish countryside.