My broken boot had rubbed a good-size blister into my left foot. No one strolled idly along the wide boulevard of Kamennoostrovsky Prospect anymore. Why would they? The shops were all closed. There was a time you might have walked halfway across the city just to meet someone for hot chocolate. Now you thought of your pitiful rations, your hoarded strength, your precious boot leather, like an old maid counting kopeks in a tea shop.

A man emerged from the fog, a small man with burning dark eyes, a dirty fur collar on his coat. “Hey, chicken,” he said. “Sweetie pie.”

I felt for Anton’s gun in my pocket. I didn’t know if I could really shoot someone. The man looked so sad, so desperate, his dark eyes glittering hot. He had a fever, maybe consumption, maybe the onset of typhus, which was beginning to spread in the city. I began to walk faster but he was following me. “Thirty rubles,” he called out. “Queen of my dreams.” Thirty rubles—it was a good price, when women would lift their skirts for half a loaf of bread. I walked faster. “Forty, princess of my heart,” he said. “Please, sweetness, I’m dying.” He grabbed my arm.

I pulled out the revolver and pointed it at the bridge of his nose, his great shining eyes. “Please,” he whispered. “Shoot me. For God’s sake, I can’t live like this anymore.”

Someday soon I might be as desperate as this man, as sick and crazy. I lowered the gun. “I heard something the other day,” I told him, pocketing the gun. “Want to hear it?”

“Why not?” he said.

In the middle of the white fog, with no one else around, I began to recite a Blok poem for him, holding his sleeve as he was holding mine.

A girl was singing in the church’s choir

of all the weary souls on foreign shores,

of all the vessels sailing ever farther,

of all who’d lost the joy they’d known before…

Blok understood this kind of despair, understood it very well, perhaps better than the two of us standing there. I let the man go, and he vanished into the fog.


Around midmorning, I crossed the last bridge into the park-swathed elegance of Kamenny Island, the old playground for affluent Petersburg. What absolute silence. Frost painted every contorted tree limb and traced the railings in white. Somewhere in the fog, the dachas of the upper nobility lay empty. Here the Soviet government planned a utopia of workers’ clubs, hospitals, and old-age homes. But there was no trace of the new purpose, nor remainder of the old.

In places, the snow rose to my knees and higher. It was difficult to keep to the road. My nerves were tattered, like a sweater that moths had gotten into. If this trip ended in failure, I couldn’t imagine how weary the return journey would be. Maybe I could find the man with typhus and go home with him. But no—I would find this Arkady somehow. Yet if I asked the wrong person now, I could find myself in a Cheka cell by nightfall. Who would tell Mother and Avdokia? I couldn’t put them through that.

I found it hard to believe a market thrived up here. All I could see was acre after acre of white parkland fading into the fog. There was no one to even ask the time of day. I came to a crossroads. If there was any semblance of a market, it would either have to be east, at the old Church of St. John the Baptist, or west, out near the Kamennoostrovsky Theater. Like everyone else in Petrograd, I was trying to spare my boots, and the church was closer. I bet on St. John.

I kept to the prospect as best I could, until finally the church’s rosy brick bled through the mist like a watered pastel. In the little square, the shadowy shapes of human beings appeared, a small silent Kabuki of sinister figures with sleds at their feet, ropes in their gloved hands. I let my eyes run over the men with the sledges, looking for someone to approach. But who? How to choose? One man’s solidity somehow reminded me of Kolya’s men, and on impulse I approached him.

“I’m looking for Arkady,” I said, my breath blending into the mist.

A bright pair of Kirghiz eyes stared out from under a fur hat. “The Archangel?”

“Sure,” I said. “That’s the one.”

“Or the Antichrist?” He grinned, his leathery face breaking into jagged lines.

Was he playing with me? “It’s pretty much the same, Uncle, now isn’t it?”

He shifted from foot to foot, stamping to keep them warm. “Yes, it’s all the same. Yes, you’re right about that one.”

“So where is he?” I tried again.

“You should pray,” he said, and nodded with his bearded chin to the church. “God knows everything.”

Arkady was in the church. I didn’t like the idea. What happened out here would be visible at least to someone, but in that ancient darkness, I could disappear like Alice’s rabbit. Yet I had come up here for a purpose—what else could I do? I was not about to leave now. The eyes of the men burned holes in my back as I approached the entrance.

Inside, the air was even colder, if that was possible. Dutch Gothic beams and pillars arched, high and gloomy, like the trees of an ancient forest. The church smelled of centuries of incense and damp. A couple of old women stood meekly before a tall bent priest and sang prayers in surprisingly lovely voices. A votive flame burned before the icon of St. John, stripped of its frame, which had no doubt been silver or gold. The flame wasn’t from a candle but rather some sort of rancid fat in a jar. It smoked horribly. The iconostasis had also been stripped of its gold cladding but otherwise had been left miraculously intact. I crossed myself and bowed. Mother of God, please let this Arkady be here, if not for my sake, then for my mother and Avdokia. And get me home safely.

I felt I was being watched, that subtle pressure of another’s gaze, but I didn’t see anyone besides the old babas and the priest. Then I noticed that one of the side doors in the iconostasis was open, just a crack. Archangel Gabriel’s door, Gabriel the Messenger, the Angel of Death in Exodus. I could see the slightest movement of someone watching from behind it, blocking the light. The Archangel? Or the Antichrist? I was no great believer, but my neck prickled as I walked toward that opening, hugging the shadows, giving the worshippers a wide berth, my hand on the butt of the heavy revolver. Nudging the door just a crack more, I held my breath and slipped inside the great altar screen.

Dark. Movement up high. Birds. I heard a step on the stone floor.

“Who are you?” A quick voice, a man’s, low but not whispering.

“I’m looking for Arkady,” I said. I could hear only breathing in the dark, a bit of thready wheeze. On the other side of the iconostasis, the pure high voices of the old women rose. “A friend sent me.” As my eyes adjusted to the darkness, I saw the silhouette of a man and smelled… cooked meat. Now I knew I was in the right place, for who but speculators would have meat in our starving city?

“What friend?” came the voice.

“Nikolai Shurov,” I said.

The scritch of a match revealed the profile of a man with a salt-and-pepper moustache and heavy black eyebrows. He lit a lantern and I could barely conceal my horror at the sight of the altar being used as a picnic table for the lamp and a greasy wad of papers that smelled like sausage. It was like watching Genya trample the Virgin of Tikhvin, my luck breaking in a thousand pieces. “Are you Arkady?”

He stuck out his lower lip, shook his head. “What do you have?”

My panic redoubled. “I’m only talking to Arkady,” I said, trying to sound tough, my voice strange against the ringing crystal tones of the babas. I wondered if the priest was in on it, too. “So who are you, anyway—St. Peter at the gates?”

He waggled his finger in front of my nose. “You’d better watch that mouth up here.” He picked up the lantern. “Come with me.”

Every instinct shouted at me to turn around and flee while I could. But it was too late for instinct. I followed him through a door into the sacristy, smelling of ancient incense and dirty hair, and out the back of the church into the snow.

44 The Archangel

I STAYED CLOSE BEHIND my surly guide and tried to walk in his footprints, sinking into the snow, struggling to keep up. I didn’t trust him. He knew I possessed something valuable. Why pay for it when he could rob me and leave me up here to freeze? Kolya, what have you gotten me into? I wanted to keen aloud like a terrified child, but instead I gripped the handle of Anton’s gun, hoping it worked, hoping there would be enough time to use it.

To my relief, we came upon a path of sorts, churned by many boots. I did my best to memorize the spot so I might find it again if I needed to flee. Now a long shedlike building coalesced in the fog. It must have been used to service one of the great dachas. A bundled man emerged from a small door. It closed behind him, and he marched off into the park. Soon my churlish Virgil pounded on its peeling gray wood, three long blows. A small bowlegged man let us in, his quick eyes taking my measure.

Servants’ quarters—for gardeners, cooks—had been converted into a kind of barracks. Men sat in the makeshift clubhouse playing cards, smoking, and eating. I could smell their cooked meat, and it made me wolfish with hunger. They glanced at me in rough disinterest. I gave up clutching the pistol in my pocket lest it draw their attention. The black-browed man led me to a door, knocked, opened it, stepped aside like a butler—or a jailer—and waved me in.

On a threadbare divan with stuffing coming out of the arms lay a handsome man of around fifty, though it could be sixty—I wasn’t much of a judge of old people. He was languid and long, with untrimmed pale hair and eyebrows, a long Swedish face with sloped nose and eyes of brightest blue, intent upon a web of string in his hands. I watched, fascinated by fingers that could move so deftly from cradle to diamonds to fish. “So?” he said, his voice dry, unimpressed.