Her voice was oddly weak.

He set his jaw. “You heard me.” When she continued to stare, dumbfounded, he repeated, “I want to marry you.”

Her eyes only grew rounder. “When did you decide this? And why, for heaven’s sake?”

He hesitated, trying to see ahead. “Kitty. She almost said something over the luncheon table. At some point, she will-she won’t be able to resist. I was already thinking of marriage and didn’t want you imagining, if I waited to speak until after she caused a ruckus, that I was offering because of that.”

With any other lady, letting Kitty create a scandal and then offering ostensibly because of it might have been a reasonable way forward, but not with Portia. She’d never accept an offer made out of social necessity.

“You were already thinking of marriage? To me?” The stunned look in her eyes hadn’t faded. “Why?”

He frowned at her. “I would have thought that was obvious.”

“Not to me. What, precisely, are you talking about?”

“I’m sure you haven’t forgotten you spent last night in my bed.”

“You’re perfectly right-I haven’t. I also haven’t forgotten that I specifically explained that my interest in such proceedings was academic.”

He held her gaze. “That was then. This is now. Things have changed.” An instant passed. Eyes locked on hers, he asked, “Can you deny it?”

Portia couldn’t, but his sudden talk of marriage-as if the subject had always been there, an unstated element between them-left her feeling like a deer suddenly facing a hunter. Paralyzed, unsure which way to turn, shocked, astonished, her wits literally reeling.

When she didn’t immediately reply, he went on, “Aside from all else, your involvement in last night’s proceedings was anything but academic.”

She blushed, lifted her head. Why on earth was he taking this tack? She tried to harry her whirling wits into order. “Regardless, that’s no reason to imagine we should wed.”

It was his turn to stare. “What?”

He uttered the word with such force, she jumped. He took a prowling, menacing step closer.

“You came to my bed-gave yourself to me-and you didn’t expect we would wed?”

Their faces were no more than six inches apart; he really was stunned. Eyes wide, she held his gaze. “No. I didn’t.” She hadn’t got that far in her deliberations.

He didn’t immediately answer, but something changed behind his mask. Then his eyes grew darker, his features harder; a muscle flexed along his jaw.

“You didn’t… just what sort of man do you think I am?”

His voice was a low growl-a very angry growl. He shifted fractionally nearer; she nearly took a step back, only just stopped herself. Spine rigid, she held his gaze, struggled to understand why he was suddenly so furious… wondered if he was pretending… felt her own temper rise.

“You’re a rake.” She said the word clearly, distinctly. “You seduce ladies-it’s the primary characteristic in the occupational description. If you’d married every lady you’d seduced, you’d have to go and live in Arabia because you’d have a harem.” Her voice had gained strength; her belligerence rose to meet his. “As you’re still living here, in this sceptered isle, I feel confident in concluding you don’t marry every lady you seduce.”

He smiled, a feral gesture. “You’re right, I don’t. But you need to revise your occupational description because, like most rakes, I never seduce unmarried, virginal, gently bred ladies.” He stepped closer; this time she backed. “Like you.”

She fought to keep her eyes on his, aware her breathing had accelerated. “But you did seduce me.”

He nodded, and closed the gap between them again. “I did, indeed, seduce you-because I intend to marry you.”

Her jaw dropped; she nearly gasped. Then she dug in her heels, tipped her chin high and locked her eyes, narrowing to shards, on his. “You seduced me because you intended to marry me?”

He blinked. Halted.

She saw red. “What aren’t you telling me?” She jabbed a finger into his chest; he eased fractionally back. “You intended to marry me? Since when?” She flung her arms wide. “When did you decide?”

Even she could hear the almost hysterical, certainly horrified note welling in her voice. She’d evaluated the threat, accepted the risk in going to his bed, but she hadn’t seen, hadn’t known the real threat, the real risk.

Because he’d hidden it from her.

“You-!” She went to box his ear but he caught her fist. “You deceived me!”

“I didn’t! You deceived yourself.”

“Hah! Anyway”-she twisted her hand; he let her go-“you didn’t seduce me-I seduced myself! I was willing. That’s different.”

“Maybe, but it doesn’t change the fact. We were intimate, whatever led to it.”

“Rubbish! I’m not going to marry you because of it. I’m twenty-four. The fact I was a gently bred virgin doesn’t matter.”

He caught her gaze. “It did-it does.”

That he considered the fact gave him some claim over her didn’t need to be stated; it hovered, very real, a tangible truth between them.

She set her chin. “I always knew you were a throwback to medieval times. Regardless, I won’t marry you because of it.”

“I don’t care why you marry me, just as long as you do.”

“Why?” She’d asked before; he still hadn’t answered. “And when did you decide you wanted to marry me? Tell me the truth, all of the truth, now.”

His eyes hadn’t left hers; he drew in a deep breath, then exhaled. Other than that, not a single line in his face or muscle in his body eased. “I decided after the picnic in the ruins. I’d thought of it after we first kissed on the terrace.”

She wished he wasn’t standing so close she couldn’t fold her arms defensively before her. “You must have kissed millions of women.”

His lips twisted. “Thousands.”

“And I’m supposed to believe that because of one kiss-no, two-you decided to marry me?”

Simon very nearly told her he didn’t care what she believed, but behind her anger, he sensed growing fright, the welling of a deep-seated fear, one he understood and had tried hard not to trigger.

He was very close to seriously queering his pitch with her; he might take months, even years, to win her back.

“It wasn’t only that.”

Her jaw set; she tipped her face higher. “What, then?”

Her eyes had clouded; he couldn’t read them. He eased back a little, wasn’t surprised when she shifted back and folded her arms across her chest.

“I’d already decided I wanted a wife and family before leaving London. When I met you here, I realized we would suit.”

She blinked. “Suit? Are you mad? We’re-” She gestured, searching for words. Lowering her arms.

“Too alike?”

“Yes!” Her eyes snapped. “You can hardly claim we’re compatible.”

“Think of the last days. Think of last night. In what matters in marriage, we’re perfectly compatible.” He caught her gaze. “In every conceivable way.”

Portia refused to blush again-he was doing it on purpose. “One night-that’s hardly a reasonable basis on which to make such a decision. How can you tell the next time won’t be”-she gestured wildly-”boring?”

His eyes, burning blue, pinned her. “Trust me. It won’t.”

There was something in his face, a hardness, a ruthlessness, that was quite different from anything she’d seen in him before. She kept her eyes on his, tried to ignore the aggression flowing from him. “You… really are serious.” She was having great trouble taking that in. One moment, she’d been logically following her step-by-step investigation into the physical attractions of matrimony-next thing, here they were, discussing a marriage between them.

He looked up, exhaled through his teeth. “Why is it so hard to imagine I’d want to marry you?” He’d addressed the question to the heavens; he looked down at her. Growled, “And what’s wrong with the idea of marrying me?”

“What’s wrong with the idea of me marrying you?” She heard her voice rise, tried to rein it in. “We’d make our lives a living hell, that’s what! You”-she landed a backhanded slap on his chest-“you’re a despot, a tyrant. A Cynster! You decree and expect to be obeyed-no, not even that! You assume you’ll be obeyed. And you know what I’m like.” She met his gaze, defiant and direct. “I won’t meekly agree with what you dictate-I won’t meekly agree with anything you say!”

His lips had thinned, his eyes had narrowed. He waited a heartbeat. “So?”

She stared at him. “Simon-this is not going to work.”

“It is. It will.”

That was her cue to appeal to the skies. “See?”

“That’s not what’s worrying you.”

She lowered her gaze, looked at him. Blinked. Into soft blue eyes she’d long known to be deceptive-there was nothing soft behind them, nothing but invincible, steely determination, inflexible resolution, rocklike, conqueror-like will… “What… do you mean?”

“I’ve always known what worries you about me.”

Something inside her physically shook. Rocked. She held his gaze for a long moment, finally found the courage to ask, “What?”

He hesitated; she knew he was deciding how much to reveal, how much to confess he’d seen. When he spoke, his voice was even, low, yet still hard. “You’re frightened I’ll try to control you, to curtail your independence, to turn you into the sort of lady you’re not. And that I’ll be strong enough to succeed.”

Her mouth was dry. “And you won’t? Try, or succeed?”

“I’ll almost certainly try, at least to curtail your wilder starts, at times, but not because I want to change you. Because I want to preserve you. I want you for what you are, not for what you’re not.”