Charles was as charming as ever. He was less earnest than I, and I felt more and more grateful that he should have granted my wish, which could not have been easy. If he had refused, I should have been most unhappy. He had understood this and was determined to please me. What a wonderful husband I should have!

After the ceremony Charles kissed me. He whispered: “Don’t forget you have to go through all this again.”

I replied that I should be very happy to do so.

Then the Duke of York kissed me and said most graciously how delighted he was that I had come to these shores to be his good sister.

I was so happy. My cold had disappeared and I was now ready for that other ceremony which would take place later that day.

Lady Suffolk helped to prepare me for it. Donna Maria clucked her disapproval and whispered with Donna Elvira, who shared it. They had been somewhat placated because of the earlier ceremony in my bedchamber. At least I was now Charles’s wife and that set their minds at rest. It was a pity, said Donna Elvira, that we had to go through this heathen performance.

They did not approve of my wedding dress, which Lady Suffolk and I thought charming. It was cut according to the English fashion. “Disgraceful,” murmured Donna Maria.

“Too low cut and showing too much of the shoulders,” added Donna Elvira.

It was of the color of roses — a beautiful shade which would be becoming to my dark eyes, and there were little knots of ribbon all over it. I thought it was the most delightful dress I had ever seen.

Communication was not easy. I knew that I must learn the English language as quickly as I could, for I could see many difficulties ahead. I thought: I will ask Charles to teach me. Perhaps I shall teach him Portuguese.

“You must not get exhausted,” warned Donna Elvira.

“Indeed not,” added Donna Maria. “Do not forget that you have just arisen from a sick bed.”

“Oh, Maria…it was nothing.”

“You have to remember, my lady, how excitement upsets you.”

I knew what she meant. Once or twice, when I had been overtired or became too excited, I had fainted, and this was accompanied by a tiresome bleeding of the nose. It had happened only a few times but that was enough for Donna Maria. She was continually reminding me of it. It had happened once in the convent and had alarmed the nuns. Donna Maria was now shaking her head prophetically.

“I shall be watchful,” she said. “And if I see the signs, I shall insist on your returning to your bed — no matter who shall try to stop me. It was foolish to have two ceremonies on the same day. The morning’s was necessary, I agree, but this other…”

“Dear Maria, this is the one people here think is important.”

“I can only wish that we had come to a country of the Faith.”

“I’m happy here, Maria.”

Lady Suffolk fortunately could not understand this conversation, so perhaps there was some advantage in the language difficulty after all.

The ceremony was to take place in the great hall of this house, for which I was grateful. I was buoyed up by excitement, but I did feel a trembling of the knees, due no doubt to this excitement rather than my recent indisposition.

The grand hall, or the Presence Chamber, where Charles received visiting emissaries and ambassadors, was an impressive room, especially as it was fitted up for this occasion. Two thronelike seats had been set under a canopy, and a rail had been put across the room to partition off that section where the nuptials should take place, separating us from the rest of the company. The place was filled with nobles and those of high standing in all professions.

Charles led me to the seat under the canopy, and with us was the Bishop of London, who was to perform the ceremony, and Don Francisco with Sir Richard Fanshawe, whom I knew because of the part he had played in the negotiation of the marriage.

Charles took my hand and the ceremony began.

I could only nod my head when told to do so, for I was not able to say the words which were required of me.

I learned afterward that when the Bishop proclaimed us man and wife, what the people were shouting was: “Long may they live!”

There was to be a banquet and the King, holding me by the hand, took me to his apartment, the people following us.

There we stood side by side and many came to congratulate us and to wish us a long and happy life together. Charles explained this to me. He looked very happy — and so was I.

Lady Suffolk indicated that she would like one of the blue knots of ribbon on my dress. It would be a memento of this happy occasion which she would treasure all her life. I thought it was a charming suggestion, so I pulled one off and gave it to her.

People pressed round and I realized that they were all demanding a knot of blue ribbon.

“You cannot refuse them,” said Charles. “You are going to be ribbonless before they will let you go.”

It was all very merry and there was I, plucking off the knots of ribbon, which I knew later had been lightly tacked on so that they could easily be pulled off.

I looked down with dismay at my denuded dress.

“Do not regret the loss of the ribbons,” said Charles. “It still looks delightful, as any dress would on you.”

I noticed that only one knot had been left, and Charles plucked it off. “This one shall be mine,” he said. He kissed it and held it to his heart. Everyone applauded.

I turned to him and smiled. I was so happy. There was only one regret. My mother was not here to see my contentment, and the successful culmination of the dream we had shared through the years.

Suddenly I felt almost faint and might have fallen if Charles had not put an arm about me.

“You are unwell, my dearest?” he said with concern.

“No, just a little tired.”

Donna Maria, watching me intently, had seen what had happened. She was beside me, indignant and vociferous.

“I should think so. You have had enough. It is time you were in your bed. You will be ill. I have never heard the like…two weddings in one day.”

I was glad few could understand her.

The Countess of Suffolk was talking to the King. He looked grave.

Then he said to me: “They are saying you are overtired. This is too soon after your illness. The Countess thinks you should return to bed.”

I said: “There is the banquet…”

“Your good health is more important than all the banquets in my kingdom. The ladies are right. You must go to your bedchamber at once. You must rest.”

“But…,” I began.

“Yes,” he said firmly. “It is best. There is the rest of our lives for us to be together.”

Donna Maria was chattering about the folly of doing too much too soon. Elvira was with her. They knew, they were saying, what was best for me.

I said: “I shall miss the banquet…my wedding banquet…and I shall not be there.”

“A plague on banquets,” said Donna Maria. “Your health comes first.”

The King came with me to my bedchamber. Donna Maria pursed her lips and I wanted to remind her that he was my husband now.

Lady Suffolk was there. She implied that she, with my ladies, would help me to disrobe.

I lay in my bed. Yes, I was exhausted and it was a relief to rest. But I could not stop myself thinking of the splendid banquet, the merrymaking, and the King sitting there with an empty chair beside him, which made me feel a little dispirited, when the door was flung open suddenly, and two men appeared, carrying trays.

I thought: I do not want to eat. Oh, how I wished that I had been able to hide my weakness.

And then Charles was there. He gave an order to the men and one tray was set down on the bed. He seated himself on the other side of the tray, smiling at me.

“What…?” I began in Spanish, and he answered in that language.

“I could not sup on my wedding day without my wife.”

Oh, what a merry meal that was! How we laughed and how we talked! It was so amusing for us because we found our Spanish not always adequate and must resort to miming.

Charles said: “I wonder if you will share my view that this is far more agreeable than the grand banquet they are having downstairs.”

“It is the most enjoyable meal I ever had,” I told him.

We kissed over the tray, and I was happier than I had ever been before in the whole of my life.


* * *

I SPENT MY WEDDING NIGHT alone in my bed. Charles was so considerate that he realized I was too overcome by the excitement for anything else.

I scarcely slept. How rarely is the realization more delightful than the dream itself! That was what I believed had happened to me.

How charming he was! He had a nonchalant air, a carefree manner which implied that everything would be well if left to him. And above all, there was his kindness. I remembered how grim Don Francisco had become when I had told him I must have a Catholic marriage ceremony. How different from my dearest Charles! It was a delicate matter, I knew. I was asking something which had to be performed in private because the people here would not have wanted it to take place. But he had immediately understood how much it meant to me. He was wonderful. I must be the happiest woman in the world.

He was in the room early next morning asking me, with the utmost tenderness, how I was.

I told him I was completely well.

“We shall take care of you,” he said.

Then he talked of our honeymoon which, he said, if I were agreeable, should be spent at his palace of Hampton Court.