In the cradle beside her, Hugh was still asleep, although soon he would be awake and greedily demanding like the ravening Vikings to whom, in a far distant past, he owed his bright Norse colouring. Her breasts were hard and pleasantly sore with milk. The constable’s wife had suggested that she obtain a wet-nurse, but Elene guarded jealously the privilege of feeding her son. His infant years were all that she would have of him. The moment he could sit his own horse and point a toy lance at a quintain, he would enter a man’s arena and break the thread that attached him to the distaff.

Her glance went to the coffer and the parchment lying there — Renard’s last letter from Lincoln, written two days before the battle. She knew it by heart and had no need to read the words because they were indelibly printed on her mind, as was the news of the disaster that had overtaken King Stephen’s forces.

The letter had been followed a week later by Adam’s appearance at Ravenstow along with Renard’s two frightened squires and evil tidings. Having been forced to flee before it was too late, Adam had known nothing of what had transpired after the battle, apart from the fact that Lincoln had been sacked. The smoke had cast a pall over the city, visible for miles around. As he told her and Judith in the courtyard, they had seen Gorvenal being led away by a groom. The stallion had been blanketed, without rider or decorated high saddle. Seeing him thus had brought Adam’s news home to roost with all the impact that his words had been unable to convey. Not just the battle lost, but perhaps the rest of their lives.

Judith had drifted away to the plesaunce in a daze and remained there until nightfall, sitting upon the turf seat and talking to herself. Both Renard and Henry were missing on the losing side of a battle. Her other son, scapegrace and half-wild, was somewhere among the victors, unless he too had been lost in the fighting. It was too much to bear, and she told Guyon so over and over again.

Adam had stayed awhile, but had had to leave to attend to his own lands. Then he was bound for Gloucester, to do homage to the Empress and intercede on Elene’s behalf for Ravenstow. From what Renard had told her of the Empress, Elene doubted that she would be persuaded to show clemency. Left in sole command of the keep because of Judith’s withdrawal, Elene had mastered her grief and panic in an outward display of calm that was reassuring to everyone but herself.

Two days after Adam’s visit, Sir Thomas d’Alberin arrived with a straggle of Ravenstow men, having made their way from the disaster at Lincoln by hazardous by ways. Sir Thomas was a shadow of his former bulk, and were it not for the haggard story written on his face, would have looked twice as healthy as when he set out. Elene and Judith had learned that the King had been taken prisoner, the victim of a minor head wound, and probably Renard with him, although Sir Thomas could not be quite sure. As to Henry, he was probably dead, but there was no final certainty.

Elene shivered and hugged her arms as her maids came from the antechamber in response to her summons. Renard might or might not be dead. He might or might not be a prisoner. The not knowing was destroying her. Leaving Judith at Ravenstow, she had come up the march to Caermoel to warn the garrison of possible attack by the Earl of Chester or his Welsh levies, and to hearten the men by her presence. Five days she had been here now. Five solitary, frightened days that were filled with the banging of masons’ hammers, the sawing of the carpenters, the slap of trowel upon mortar, and the rumbling of wain wheels as they delivered the supplies vital to a keep that might soon be under siege. ‘Madam?’ said the maid.

Elene folded her shaking hands in the sleeves of her bedrobe. ‘The blue gown,’ she said, making an effort. ‘Have some hot honey and wine ready for after mass.’

‘Yes, madam.’ The maid went to Elene’s clothing pole to find the requested gown. Another maid, yawning behind her hand, fed charcoal on to the brazier. Hugh woke up and began making his usual loud demands for sustenance.

Elene took her son and put him to her breast. She watched him as he suckled, his tiny fingers kneading her flesh and his jaws working steadily. Elene was overwhelmed by pangs of love and terror so fierce when she thought what might become of him that she began to weep softly. This impeded her flow of milk and Hugh sucked furiously for a moment, then released her nipple and howled his indignation to the world, which only made Elene cry harder.

In the end she had to give him to one of the maids who had her own baby and a surplus of milk in her breasts. The storm of tears left her exhausted and gave her a throbbing headache. Feeling ill with strain, she went to mass, lit candles and prayed for deliverance. The floor was cold and her mind remained a remote observer of all her actions, as though she moved in a dream.

On emerging from the chapel into the bailey, she was greeted by small, wind-floated feathers of snow. One of the guards on the wall walk, his voice full of excited alarm, cried out a warning of approaching troops.

Paralysed with terror Elene stood and stared up at the great, grey walls. Suddenly they seemed no protection at all. If she could have moved, she would have covered her ears with her hands and run to hide in the smallest, darkest recess that she could find.

William de Lorys, Renard’s companion in Antioch and now the constable of Caermoel, responsible for its defence, followed Elene from the chapel in time to hear the cry from the walls. ‘It’s too soon to be de Gernons,’ he re — assured her. ‘The whoreson will still be down in Gloucester persuading the Empress of his sincerity in the hope of being given Carlisle.’

Mind and body jolted back into awareness. ‘But she won’t give it to him,’ Elene said stiffly. ‘She’ll give him Caermoel instead.’

‘My lady, your cloak.’ Alys set Elene’s wool and marten mantle around her shoulders as de Lorys left them in order to mount the battlements and discover more.

Elene stroked the sleek fur trimming of the cloak and thought that something always had to die in order to gratify others. Alys was trying to usher her inside to warmth, muttering about the cold and the growing yellowish heavi — ness of the snow clouds.

‘Let me be,’ Elene snapped in a voice that would have better belonged to Judith, or even the termagant Empress herself. Shaking herself free of her maid’s solicitous arm, she followed de Lorys up to the battlements.

The wind snatched at her veil, whipped strands of hair free of her braids and stung her eyes as she tried to focus on the advancing troops below. Miniature men on mini — ature horses with pack ponies in tow. They did not hesitate at the ford, but splashed straight through it, heading for the steep pathway that wound its way around Caermoel crag and up to the twin baileys and keep that crowned its summit.

‘Not sufficient numbers for the enemy.’ De Lorys pursed his lips. ‘Looks like they’re coming straight up; seeking hospitality I would guess, or else they’re some of our own from Ravenstow or Ledworth. Pox take it, I can’t make out their shields.’ He scowled at the falling snow that was now obliterating their vision.

For a moment Elene slumped against the merlon, weak with relief. A shout drifted on the wind and guards in the outer ward suddenly began pulling back the heavy draw-bar that secured the gatehouse door. Elene turned and, standing on tiptoe, strained her eyes. Through a whirl of banking, shifting white, she saw that the leading horse was a black with white hind stockings. Its rider’s shield, momentarily glimpsed, was blazoned with a rampant black leopard upon a flame-coloured background.

‘It’s Renard!’ she shrieked. ‘God be praised, it’s Renard, he’s alive!’ Whirling round to de Lorys, her eyes feverishly ablaze, she kissed him hard on the cheek. He staggered, and then grinned his own delight and relief. Without waiting for him, Elene ran pell-mell down to the bailey, shouting at a loitering maid to run to the kitchens and warn the cook of extra mouths to feed. Another was ordered to see to the arranging of a bathtub in the bedchamber. The grooms and other servants were alerted.

Tense excitement shivered the air as the first horses trotted through the open gateway and emerged from the guarded passage into the ward. Elene watched Renard dismount. His cloak was scaled with snow, turning haddock-silver at the edges as it melted. It was agony crossing the bailey to him. She knew that she must not run among the destriers in case one kicked out, but all she wanted to do was fling herself upon him — hold and taste and know that he was solid and real, not some figment of her yearning imagination.

Renard spoke to one of his companions, then to the groom with an instruction about the horse, and thus did not turn until Elene had almost reached him. She stopped in her tracks as though hit by a crossbow quarrel, and gasped. The words of welcome stuck in her throat, for the picture she had carried in her mind’s eye for the past two months bore no resemblance to the man confronting her now. Renard’s face was gaunt, pared to the bone, and along one of those bones was a livid, half-healed scar. His mouth was a hard, narrow line, slightly down-turned, but he succeeded in giving her a bitter smile.

‘Commendable,’ he said. ‘My mother fainted.’

Elene swallowed, the words of welcome stuck in her throat. She was never good at dealing with him when he was like this. The more he hid behind defensive sarcasm, the more she floundered. ‘What happened?’

‘My barber’s careless,’ he snapped as he removed his helm and stuffed his gauntlets inside.