He looked across the room, where Lydia sat silent and blank-faced. Poor little mite. ‘May I leave the little one with you, Stepan Gregorovich?’ he asked. ‘The count and countess will be here soon, God willing. I am surprised they are not here ahead of us, but no doubt the weather in the hills delayed them. I have to return.’

The couple were alarmed at the prospect and would have liked to refuse; if the Reds were getting close, harbouring an aristocrat would cost them their lives. On the other hand, the money the big man was offering was more than they had ever seen at one time before and would enable them to move into better accommodation. And it was only for a few hours. They agreed and, having shared a meal of boiled mullet and fish soup with them, Ivan set off back to Petrovsk, leaving behind a child so traumatised, she was barely alive.


‘I don’t know how to entertain a countess,’ Marya Ratsina said between sobs for her dead daughter. ‘What would a countess expect? Where can I get food good enough for them?’ She looked at the money Ivan had given her. It was made up of gold and silver coins, not Kerensky’s paper money. Spending it would invite questions and they had to think of a good reason for having it. ‘Should I go and buy some food? And plates. You cannot expect them to eat out of wooden bowls.’ She went over to Lydia and peered into her face. ‘You, girl, what shall I do to make your mother and father welcome?’

She received no reply and set about cleaning the house with frantic haste, taking the rugs outside and banging them against the outhouse wall, choking on the dust. She swept the floors, cleaned the one little window, stoked up the stove, shook out the blankets and squashed a few bugs, none of which made much difference. The place was still a hovel.

‘For God’s sake, woman, leave off fussing,’ Stepan told her, filling his clay pipe with strong-smelling tobacco. ‘They will probably not even come through the door, they are only coming to fetch the child.’

‘What’s the matter with her? Why does she not speak? I offered her soup and bread but she took neither. I shall be glad when they come and take her away, she is giving me the shivers, sitting there so still and staring. What is she staring at? Is she ill? Oh, I hope she is not going to be ill. I have no idea what to do…’

‘Do nothing. Get on with your usual chores. Feed the chickens, milk the goat, and be thankful we still have them. If the Reds come, they will have them off us in a twinkling.’

‘And if they find her here…’ She jerked her head towards the corner where Lydia sat on a small stool. ‘We will be arrested and probably shot for harbouring her. Do you think they really are coming? It must be very bad in the north. I saw hundreds passing by when I went to the market this morning. They have bought up all the supplies, inflating the prices so I couldn’t afford a thing.’ She sat down, suddenly deflated like a pricked balloon.

They waited the rest of the day. Stepan went on with his chores and Marya would sit for a while, trying to persuade Lydia to talk, and then would jump up and go out into the road to peer towards the mainland, hoping to see the Kirilov carriage. It did not come. They put the child to bed on the floor. She refused to allow them to undress her, struggling silently, and when it looked as though they might succeed, she opened her mouth and screamed so loud and long they gave up and let her sleep as she was, which she did from sheer exhaustion.

The next morning Stepan went into Simferopol to see what was happening for himself. The town was milling with strangers, soldiers in tattered uniforms, civilians riding in an assortment of vehicles or making for the railway station on foot. Some were in furs, having come from the colder climate of the north, and they had servants with them. Others were less well clad and carried their own cases. They all looked desperate. There was a larger police presence than usual, looking at people’s papers, afraid Red soldiers might have infiltrated themselves among the refugees. The grand square in front of the railway station was packed with people, as was the station itself when Stepan managed to push his way through to it.

‘Your Excellency,’ he said, addressing a gentleman in an astrakhan coat and a shiny top hat, who was directing porters loading his luggage onto a trolley, while his wife, in a sable coat, and a boy in warm knickerbockers and belted wool jacket, stood watching. ‘Why is everyone leaving? Are the Reds coming?’

‘I fear it is inevitable,’ the man said. ‘If you have any reason to fear them, then I suggest you make your escape.’

‘No, I have no reason to fear them. I am a poor peasant, I have nothing but a few chickens and a goat. They can come, it won’t bother me, except that I have a child in my care, the little daughter of Count Kirilov. She was supposed to meet her parents at my house and they were going on to Yalta, but they have not come. I don’t know what has happened to them, but what am I to do with her?’

‘Can’t you keep her?’

‘No. She is a little aristocrat, dressed like one too. What would I do with one like that? She isn’t used to work…’

‘I should think not!’

‘Her brother and nurse were shot dead in front of her eyes.’

‘Oh, the poor thing,’ the lady said.

‘The nurse was my daughter and my wife is grieving for her. Even if she were not, she would not know how to look after the child. Can you take her? When her parents come I can tell them you have her. She will be better with you.’

They looked at each other doubtfully, while he waited, cap in hand, looking from one to the other hopefully. ‘She is so sad, the little one,’ he added. ‘She has lost everything…’

‘Where is she now?’

‘At my place, less than two versts away. If you do not take her I shall have to take her to the orphanage.’

‘No, don’t do that,’ the man said, his voice sharp. ‘Fetch her here.’

Stepan darted off before the man could change his mind.

‘Pyotr, what are you thinking of?’ his wife asked him. ‘We have problems enough getting ourselves away without taking on someone else’s child.’

‘But we cannot abandon her. If she is the daughter of Count Kirilov…’

‘If,’ she reiterated.

‘We shall soon find out. I am sure the count would do the same for us if it were Alexei left alone. Just think about that for a moment, will you? All alone and no one to take care of him. We can take her as far as Yalta and can make enquiries there for Count Kirilov. If he hasn’t turned up, the authorities will know what to do.’

She looked at her sturdy young son and gave in. ‘I hope she does not make us miss our train.’

‘It is not due for another hour and we shall be lucky if it leaves on time. Let’s see if we can find something to eat in the station canteen.’

They had just finished their smoked fish, cucumber and pickled mushrooms when Stepan reappeared with Lydia sitting sideways on a donkey he had borrowed. Her weight was balanced on the other side with her bag of clothes. He had persuaded her to come on the promise of seeing her papa and mama soon. He crossed the square and pulled up outside the station, lifted her down, and taking her hand, led her through the crowds, searching out the gentleman, wishing he had enquired his name, so that he could ask for him. Lydia, her hand in his, stared about her, looking for her father and mother. And Andrei. He had not died, he had not shed his life’s blood all over her dress. That had been a nightmare and was not real.

‘There he is,’ Stepan said, pointing.

It was not her papa but another man, and her heart sank. Of course, Stepan Ratsin would not know her papa, would he? She pulled against his hand, still unable to utter a word to tell him he was mistaken. Words choked her. She was dragged unwillingly towards the man. He had a woman with him and a boy, a boy a little older than Andrei who was looking at her with curiosity.

The man bent down towards her. He had grey eyes and a blond beard, a kind face. ‘Are you Count Kirilov’s daughter?’ he asked.

She nodded, her features brightening just a little at the mention of her papa.

‘What is your name?’

She tried, she really tried, to say her name but all that came out of her mouth was a croak.

‘She is still in shock,’ Stepan said, shifting from foot to foot. ‘Her name is Lydia Mikhailovna Kirillova.’

‘How do you know that? Does she have papers?’

Stepan told the man everything Ivan had told him, about the count being a colonel in the White Army and sending the children off separately so as not to attract attention, how they were all supposed to meet at his izba, and about the attack in the woods – he choked a little over this. ‘As for papers,’ he said. ‘Maybe they are in her bag.’ He handed it to the man, who opened it to discover the bloodstained dress. ‘Good God!’

‘Sorry, Your Excellency.’ If it took all the bowing and scraping and ‘your excellencies’ in the world, he would do it. He took the bag from the man and delved into it but there were no papers. ‘I expect the count has them.’

Pyotr closed the bag and looked at his wife. ‘No matter who she is, we can’t leave her, can we?’

‘No, I suppose not,’ she said, putting out her gloved hand to touch Lydia’s cheek. ‘Poor little mite. My heart bleeds for her.’

Stepan bent to Lydia. ‘You go with the gentleman. He will take you to your papa and mama.’ He looked up at the man. ‘What shall I tell the count if he comes? Who shall I say has her?’

‘Baron Simenov. We are going to Yalta. If he has not caught up with us by then, we will take her to the consul. Tell him that.’