‘Enough of this!’ Uncle John said. ‘I prescribe a warm bed for this invalid and a rest until dinner, which you shall have served in your room. Upstairs with you.’

‘I’ll come with you, Mama,’ I said. ‘But then I will take the children down to Acre.’

‘Of course!’ Uncle John said. ‘You will be wanting to change into another gown, I dare say. You may have been in that one for – oh! all morning!’

‘Yes, indeed,’ I said solemnly. ‘And tomorrow I shall have to order some more. This one is going out of fashion even as I stand here!’

Uncle John laughed, and then I saw my mama into her bed, where she looked glad enough to be, and went up to my room, up to the room of my girlhood and childhood where I had hidden when Richard had been angry with me and where I had dreamed my dreams and wept when I feared I was going mad.

It looked out over the back garden, over the paddock and orchard, towards the common with the high horizon of the downs beyond. The twilight was falling and the sun had gone, leaving only strip upon strip of rose, jasmine and violet clouds to show the west. An icy-cold star was low in the sky, sparkling like a snow-flake.

I swung the window open and leaned my elbows on the sill to look out. The downs were as dense as the wool of a black lamb against the shadowy sky. I could dimly see the streak of white which was the chalk on the forehead of Acre hill, pointing down to the village. The air was scentless and cold. I could feel the night-time frost coming. In the distance an early owl hooted twice.

If ever I should have felt Beatrice, it would have been then. I waited in utter stillness and silence for her coming. I waited, getting chilled in my new sleek gown, and I dared her to come. I breathed a half-silent sigh and waited for the shiver that meant she was passing near me, or for the hum in my mind which meant she was coming, or for the slide into unreasoning mindless joy which meant I had become her.

Nothing.

Nothing happened.

No shiver shook me, no humming sounded in me, no daydream overtook me. I was not ridden by hobgoblins. I was at peace. Alone, gazing at Beatrice’s sky over Beatrice’s land and lit by a small sliver of a rising moon, I was at peace with myself and with the ghost of her. She did not come for me wilfully. I was not haunted by an unquiet spirit. I heard her voice when I needed it. I had her strength when I could not manage alone. She was there to help me. I closed the window and turned for the door.

Bath had not done the job they had hoped: Mama had wanted me to become wholly her daughter; Uncle John had wanted me to be cured of my Lacey traits; and Richard had wanted me to be an indoor girl, off the land. They had all thought that I was haunted, possessed.

Bath had not cured me of that. Bath had taught me that it was no illness, that Beatrice’s voice in my head was a gift not a terror, that I could live on Beatrice’s land and be proud to be her heir, be determined to avoid her mistakes and be here to set things right. And Bath had taught me that I was a young girl of courage and looks who could give and receive love as an equal. I had set aside my foreboding about James on the journey and told my mama that I loved him and would marry him. And she and Uncle John had been pleased and proud. There was nothing to stand in the way of my happiness. There was no reason for me to fear.

I took Ralph’s little wooden owl from my reticule and put it on my bedside table. Ralph’s owl, Beatrice’s owl, my owl. I would keep it by my bed, this symbol from Beatrice and Ralph, which was also mine.

I glanced around my room to ensure it was impeccably neat, and then I slipped down the stairs, taking the little steps enforced by my slim-cut skirt.

The children were in the kitchen finishing bowls of tea and plates of bread and butter.

‘They’re ready for you in Acre,’ Airs Gough told them as I came into the kitchen. ‘They’ve a cottage opposite the church, beside the vicarage, ready for you.’

Their faces were bright around the table.

‘Would you like to leave now?’ I asked.

Their stools clattered on the stone-flagged floor as they pushed them back.

‘Thank you for the tea, ma’am,’ said Rosie Dench to Mrs Gough with an eye on the others. Nat and Jimmy knuckled their foreheads for thanks, and snatched up their caps and backed out of the kitchen as if they were not sorry to leave. They followed me out of the front door as I pulled on a cape, and out into the carriage.


‘This is the drive to the old Wideacre Hall,’ I said. ‘You may remember it. Here are the lodge gates. To the right the lane goes to the London and Chichester Road, but we turn left for Acre.’

They gazed wide-eyed out of the windows at the newly turned fields, hard with frost now, and the spindly sticks of fruit trees.

‘And this is Acre,’ I said. ‘On your left there, Rosie, that’s the Dench cottage, which you will remember…’ Then there was a sudden crash of noise, a great drum-roll and skirl of mad pipes; it sounded like a thousand Highlanders were coming.

‘What on earth…’ I started.

The carriage stopped with a jolt and Ralph’s bright beaming face was at the window opening the door.

‘Welcome!’ he said. ‘Welcome home, children, and welcome, Julia, for bringing them.’

The children tumbled out before the steps were down, and Ralph put out a hand to help me jump after them. All of Acre village had turned out to greet the children, and there was a great bonfire stacked for lighting on the village green, with a trestle-table laid with food near by. There were two pipers, their cheeks blown out like clowns, to pipe the children home, and Matthew Merry was giving them the beat on a drum.

‘Ralph!’ I said, laughing but near to tears. ‘Oh, Ralph! I feel as if I have been away all my life as well!’

Before the eyes of all of Acre Ralph pulled me towards him, put his arms around me and hugged the breath out of me, saying very softly in my ear, ‘Julia Lacey, you are a darling girl and I am gladder to see you than I had thought possible.’

‘Mr Megson! Miss Lacey!’ came a voice over the noise of the pipes and the drum, and Ralph let me go, without the least hurry, and Dr Pearce stood before us. ‘Really, Miss Lacey,’ he said reprovingly. But then he could not help but smile too. ‘Oh, Julia! This is very well done!’ he said, and he took both my hands in his and drew me to him for a kiss on both cheeks.

I looked past him at the village people welcoming their children. Rosie was surrounded by Clary and all the Dench family. The little ones were especially fascinated, fingering the new dress and cloak of their half-sister; and Clary’s pale mother was there, the baby on her hip, hugging Rosie and crying to have her safe home again.

The Brewer family was hugging Nat and exclaiming at the dark stripes still marking his skin. Only little Jimmy was alone. He had been a pauper in the village, one of the first taken. Ralph left my side and put an arm around his shoulder.

‘I’m Ralph Megson,’ I heard him say gently. ‘I badly need a young lad to work with me. A quick lad, one that’s no fool. D’you think we’d suit?’

Oh, aye,’ Jimmy said, beaming up at Ralph’s face. Oh, aye, Mr Megson, sir. I’m the very lad for you, sir.’

Ralph nodded, and clapped the boy gently on the shoulder. ‘Let’s eat!’ he called out loud.

The pipes and drum stopped as short as if they had been silenced by a curtain falling, and Matthew cast aside his drum and came over to me.

‘W-W-Well done, Julia!’ he said, and he hugged me and kissed me until Ted Tyacke appeared from nowhere and swept me into his arms in a great hug which knocked my bonnet sideways.

Everyone moved towards the table and seated themselves on stools and looked expectantly towards Dr Pearce’s gate. Clary came out carrying a flaming torch and beckoned to Jimmy Dart.

‘Light the bonfire,’ she said with a smile. ‘You’ve no kin here now, but every one of us is your family. We built this for you, for the three of you, to welcome you home to a warm fire and good food. May Acre always be warm and hospitable to the three of you.’

Jimmy stepped forward, his sharp little face serious, and took the torch carefully from Clary and walked towards the great heap of wood. It was coated with pitch, and at the touch of the flames it flared up with a great whoosh so that Jimmy jumped back and flung the torch on to it.

Clary turned to me and put a hand around my waist. ‘Safe home?’ she asked.

Our walk together in the moonlit garden when I had been so afraid of leaving Wideacre and yet too afraid to stay seemed like a lifetime ago.

‘Safe home,’ I confirmed. ‘Is all well with you, Clary?’

Her smile was the contented smile of a woman who is well loved and who knows it. ‘Aye,’ she said. ‘Come and sit down, and tell me all about Bath.’

And in the gathering dusk of a cold winter light we made merry on the village green of Acre. They celebrated because they had their children home. And I celebrated because I was safe home myself, because I was loved by a good man, because I was loved by a whole village of people and because I was a Lacey on her land again.

My mama was not fully well for two more weeks, and the weather was cold and hard until the middle of March, so she was well content to stay indoors beside a warm fire.

I was well content too, for although I rode out in all the daylight hours and came home chilled to the bone and very often wet through, I had the joy of seeing the colour come back to her cheeks, and for myself there was the delight at being back on my land.

Even my lingering anxiety about my parting with James was removed early in the month when I came home to find Uncle John and Mama toasting crumpets at the parlour fire and smiling at some secret.