Amy Sohn - The Actress

“No. They just call you an actress. These articles say you’re Steven’s girlfriend.”

“Seriously?” She kicked off the heels, lay on the bed, and massaged her aching feet. “But I never said that. I specifically said—I mean—I told the reporters I had just met him. I told them about you, but then I got interrupted and—I didn’t have time to explain.”

“It’s fine, Mad,” he said. “You don’t have to tell me he’s not your boyfriend.”

Dan squinted at one of the photos on his screen, blew it up as big as it would go. His girlfriend was not falling for Steven Weller. What Dan had with her was deep and important, the intimacy they had built. The look in her eye wasn’t love. It was intoxication: the cameras, the attention.

He had to think like a director. These photos were golden for I Used to Know Her. The shots would run in the American tabloids, and the tabloids were more influential to the entertainment industry than every film festival combined. No matter how much that fact bothered him. What piqued audiences was backstory. And a romance, even a fake one, was just that.

Since Dan had signed with the OTA agent Jon Starr, he’d been reading scripts for directing jobs. He wanted to keep working, maintain momentum from the acquisition. Maddy was momentum. “This is exactly the kind of publicity we need going into our release,” he said on the phone. “We couldn’t have planned it better if we’d tried.”

“But we didn’t plan anything. I told you, I’m here to meet Juhasz. It was Bridget’s idea for me to go on the red carpet, like an introduction to the media. The handholding thing just happened. He pulled me onto the line, and they—they drew their own conclusions. It’s a sexist world. People expect any woman who’s in public with a movie star to be sleeping with him.”

“Where’d you get the dress?”

“Bridget sent it. It’s her job to advance my career. You’re reading this all wrong. You don’t know anything about it.”

“Are you saying he tried something?”

Her mind flashed back to the slow-dancing at the club. But Steven hadn’t tried anything; she’d been the drunk one. She’d asked him a tactless question. “Of course not. He’s been a total gentleman.”

“I told you that he’s gay.”

Maddy stood with the phone and went to the window. There was a couple fighting below, in front of one of the luxury shops on the Kurfürstendamm.

“I don’t care if he’s gay, and you shouldn’t, either,” she said. “It isn’t relevant. Grow up.”

“It is relevant, because if I thought the guy was going to make a move, I wouldn’t have wanted you to go. I’m not worried. Just have fun. Play it out a little. Look at Steven like you’re into him. It’ll be easy. Think about it as a role. You’re an actress.”

The next day Maddy slept till one in the afternoon. After ordering room service, she finished watching Body Blow, taking notes. All of Juhasz’s work dealt with outsiders who could not figure out how to fit into society. Ruth’s Kiss, about a young waitress in Los Angeles who slowly becomes unhinged, was a great example; at first Ruth just seems a little lonely, and soon it becomes clear she’s insane. In Juhasz’s films, madness could afflict anyone, given the right set of circumstances.

Maddy decided to go for a walk and get a coffee. On Kurfürstendamm, she passed the designer shops and department stores, the theaters and cinemas. At a newsstand piled high with magazines she was startled to spot a photo of herself and Steven. The magazine was called Bundt. His arm was around her waist and she was staring at him. The caption read, “Steven Weller: Er ist seit Jahren in Maddy Freed verliebt!” The only piece of it she could translate was verliebt; she knew liebe was love.

She lowered her head so the newsman wouldn’t see her and hurried along to a café. She drank her coffee quickly, feeling exposed. She kept seeing her gaze in the photo. It was as though it had been Photoshopped; she looked like a woman in love.

If Steven was gay and using her as arm candy, then he was either a master seducer or a deeply gifted actor. When he’d touched her on the red carpet, he had made her feel that he liked her. And then he’d danced with her at the club, his body hot and near.

That evening at five, a quirky heist film by an Austin, Texas, director would be premiering. Steven and Bridget had said they were planning to go, and Maddy had been looking forward to it. Now, after seeing the tabloid, she felt it might be better to stay home.

That morning, her cell phone had rung several dozen times, all reporters, so she turned it off until Bridget could change it for her. At the premiere, they would be there again, flocking around her. If she mentioned Dan, who knew if they would print it?

She went to the VIP restaurant in the penthouse, which Bridget had told her about, and ordered a late lunch. It was a totally private area with wraparound windows. After lunch, she started watching another Juhasz film, and then four o’clock came, and four-thirty, and there was no call from Bridget. Wanting to make dinner plans and not sure what was expected of her, she dialed Bridget’s cell. “Are we seeing that movie?” she asked.

“Oh my goodness, I forgot to call you,” Bridget said. “I’ve been running around like a chicken without a head. We’re not going. Steven’s in London.”

“What? When did he go?”

“This morning. He went to meet Walter about the script.”

“But you said Walter was coming here.”

“He is. They’ll come back together. Either Tuesday or Wednesday.”

“Oh,” she said quietly. “Well, did you want to see the movie with me?”

“I have a phoner I can’t get out of. I’m producing a film in Sofia, and our director is going over budget, it’s a disaster. But you should go. That’s why you’re in Berlin. There’s a ticket for you at will call. Why don’t you take Zack?”

Maddy found the news of will call slightly disappointing and then was shocked at herself for being so shallow. Steven’s trip to London was good, not bad. It proved that Dan had been wrong about him. If they had truly invited her to Berlin to act like she was dating Steven Weller, he wouldn’t very well take off when the festival had just begun.

She dialed Zack but didn’t get him and decided to see the heist movie alone. She wore her sheath dress and a dingy gray coat and walked to the theater. As she was approaching, a short bearded man darted in out of nowhere, snapped her photo, and disappeared. She was shocked. She had never felt watched before, used in this way. It was violating.

She took the civilian entrance to the Palast, a long walkway under a temporary roof that ran parallel to the red carpet. From the glassed doors inside the theater, she could see the director and two of his actresses posing on the red carpet, just as Maddy had the night before. It was as though she had hallucinated the Widower premiere, even the cover of Bundt. Except for that one strange photographer, it was as though the night before had never happened at all.

The next afternoon Bridget took Maddy to the European Film Market to meet international distributors and talk up the film. The distributors were exceedingly polite and couldn’t wait to see I Used to Know Her. A few of them wanted to know how long she had been dating Steven, and she kept having to correct them, tell them about Dan.

In the car back to the hotel, Bridget took a call. When she clicked off, she said, “There’s been a change in plans. Walter can’t make it here after all. Steven is bringing back the script with him tomorrow. We’ll all fly to Venice on Tuesday, and you’ll read for Walter there.”

“Where would I stay?”

“Palazzo Mastrototaro, of course. Oh, honey, did you think we would just drop you at a pensione?”

They were inviting her to his palazzo. This was turning into a European tour. She had already taken a week off La Cloche.

She had a bad feeling about Husbandry. So many delays, so many “issues,” and now, a new city. She wanted to talk to Dan but was worried he would say, “I told you so.” He would say Juhasz was Godot and wouldn’t come to Venice. And if Juhasz was Godot, she would have to fire Bridget, because no actress in her right mind would employ a manager who had no intention of getting her cast.

Dan was having trouble reaching Maddy, and he was nervous. She had texted him her new number, and he had tried her a couple times, but it went to voice mail. Once, when she called him back, he had been on the subway and missed it. He had a vision of her holed up in a suite with Steven Weller, fucking him around the clock. He had been certain Weller was gay, but maybe he had it all wrong.

On Sunday he finally caught her. He was on his way to his attorney’s office above Barneys on Madison Avenue. “What have you been doing the last couple days?” he asked.

“I went to the Film Market with Bridget. Visited a couple museums, walked around. And I’ve seen a couple screenings.”

“With Steven?”

“No. Alone. Steven’s in London.”

“Gone?”

“London. To meet with Walter Juhasz. He’s coming back today, and on Tuesday we’re going to go to Venice. I’ll audition for Juhasz there.”

As soon as he heard her say Venice, he felt a chill. She would be staying in Weller’s palazzo. In the most romantic city in the world. Dan had a premonition, however irrational, that if she made it to Italy, he would never see her again. “So it’s happening,” he said.