“You think I don’t understand?” Rachel’s heart won the war with caution. She wrapped her arms around Max’s shoulders and pulled her close. She would have pulled her inside if she could have, wanting to comfort her so badly, to erase the pain that always rode so close to the surface of Max’s eyes. “I have dreams, nightmares, even when I’m awake. I know how easy it is to shut those places away. To close them down. And I know you haven’t.”

“When I’m with you is the only time I feel alive.”

“I know. I feel the same.”

Max hadn’t known she’d wanted comfort, was certain she hadn’t earned it, but Rachel’s heart beat full and strong beneath hers, her body and her words stroking her, soothing the broken, bleeding places. She clasped Rachel’s hand tightly and kissed her. “I love you. I’m not worthy, but I swear I love you with all my heart and all my soul and always will.”

Rachel cupped the back of her neck, deepened the kiss until Max’s head went light and all the blood in her body pooled in the pit of her stomach. Rachel’s lips slid over hers like silk between her fingers. “I’m in love with you, Max. You’re the only one I want. You’re all I want.”

Max groaned. “I’m starving for you.”

“Show me.”

Chapter Thirty-three

“I wanted to undress you the second I saw you tonight,” Max said, drawing Rachel to her feet.

Rachel looped her arms around Max’s neck and pressed close. “I’ve wanted your hands on me since that first afternoon in the jungle.”

Max tangled her fingers in Rachel’s hair and kissed her, one hand stroking down the silken curves of her outer breast and over her abdomen and hip. She slid her hand beneath the hem of the emerald dress and found silk stockings topped with lace. Silken flesh above.

“You feel like no one I’ve ever touched,” Max breathed.

“I never expected to feel this way about anyone,” Rachel said, opening the buttons on Max’s shirt. She kissed her throat, the hollow between her collarbones, the shallow valley between her breasts. “I’ve never wanted to give myself so much, take so much.” She cupped Max’s breasts beneath the tight tank she’d worn beneath the cotton shirt. “I’ve never wanted anyone to touch me the way you touch me. Everywhere, inside me, I feel you everywhere.”

Max played her fingers lightly up Rachel’s thigh from silk to lace to the soft skin above the stockings and higher, to the satin that covered Rachel between her thighs. Rachel surged into her hand as she pressed gently.

Rachel whispered against Max’s throat, “God, Max, you keep teasing me like that, you’ll make me come.”

“That’s all right. I want to touch you forever.”

“You can, I’m yours.”

“Mine,” Max whispered, drawing her finger along the satin-covered cleft in long, firm strokes.

Rachel gripped Max’s shoulders as her thighs grew weak. She circled her hips, her body guiding Max’s touch. Her breath caught as the pleasure brimmed and threatened to spill. “Close, so close.”

Max kissed her and stroked faster, forgetting to breathe, forgetting everything except Rachel’s soft whimpers and the demanding thrust of her hips. To pleasure her was an honor she didn’t deserve and one she craved every waking moment. “I love you.”

Rachel jerked in her arms and cried out against her throat. Max held her closer as her orgasm overtook her.

“I love you,” Max said again, and nothing had ever been so true.

“I love the way you make me feel. I love the way you know me.” Rachel clung to Max until some of her strength returned. “Will you take me to bed so I can touch what’s mine?”

“Yours,” Max murmured. “Yes, I am.”

Max turned Rachel in her arms and lowered the short zipper in the back of her dress. She smoothed the straps down over Rachel’s shoulders and the dress pooled at Rachel’s feet, the silky green on the pale beige carpet an oasis in the desert. Holding Rachel against her, she kissed Rachel’s shoulder and stroked her breasts and down her bare belly. Rachel’s head fell back against Max’s shoulder.

“This isn’t bed,” Rachel said with a sigh.

“I’m getting there,” Max said. “But undressing you might be one of the world’s greatest wonders.”

Rachel laughed shakily. “Max. You make me feel so special.”

Max kissed her shoulder again and slid her fingers beneath the satin panties. Rachel was wet and swollen, ready for her again. Rachel gripped her forearm, fingers tightening as Max circled the base of her clitoris.

“Max,” Rachel breathed, a warning and a plea.

“I know.” Max’s legs were as wooden as if she’d just marched thirty miles. She could barely breathe, she was so focused on the rising tension in Rachel’s body.

“I’m going to come again.” Rachel buried her face against Max’s neck. “God, Max. Right now.”

“I love you,” Max whispered again and again as Rachel tensed and shuddered. The words, the reality, freed her from a lifetime of isolation. Rachel was the sunrise, the promise of a new day. Rachel was life.

“I want you on top of me,” Rachel gasped. “I want you inside me.”

Max swung Rachel into her arms, carried her the short distance to the bed, and laid her down. She stripped and settled atop Rachel, supporting herself on one arm and straddling Rachel’s thigh. She slid her hand between Rachel’s legs and cupped her. “Here?”

“Yes. Now.” Rachel wrapped both arms around Max’s back, stroking the planes she loved to look at, and lifted her hips to take Max in deeper until the ache that hadn’t left since she’d walked out of Max’s apartment faded away. Max looked down at her, her expression fierce, intense, possessive. Rachel pulled her near to kiss her and kept kissing her as Max carried her, stroke by stroke, to the crest of another orgasm. When she was close, so close she was only seconds away, she pushed Max over and straddled her.

“Watch me,” Rachel whispered, her knees on either side of Max’s hips. She reached behind her to cup Max as Max filled her.

“So beautiful,” Max groaned, her dark gaze fixed on Rachel’s face.

Rachel squeezed, and the tendons in Max’s neck stood out. Gliding up and back, she rode Max’s fingers to the peak.

“I’m coming,” Rachel whispered, falling at last into the clear dark depths of Max’s eyes. Max groaned and bucked beneath her, carried over the edge with her. Boneless with release, Rachel slumped forward, catching herself on Max’s shoulders, her hair falling down to curtain Max’s face. “Never. Never like this.”

“I know.” Max cradled her breasts, softly thumbing her nipples. The sensation was erotic and soothing, like Max, always exciting and safe.

“I love you.” Rachel gathered her strength and slid down the bed between Max’s thighs. She stroked the iron-hard length of her legs and kissed her still-hard clitoris.

“Jesus,” Max groaned.

Smiling to herself, Rachel took her time, sucking gently for a few seconds until Max’s body tensed and she knew she was close, then easing away. She indulged herself, taking what was hers, one slow stroke at a time.

“Rachel, please.” Max cupped the back of Rachel’s head and drew her face closer. “I need you.”

Rachel’s breath stilled and every sense filled with Max. Only Max. She drew her in and pushed her over, holding her while she came in her mouth.

*

Max ran strands of Rachel’s hair through her fingers as she watched the ceiling grow light with the coming dawn. Rachel lay with her head on Max’s shoulder, her arm draped around her middle, one thigh over hers. She fit perfectly, as if she’d always been there. If she thought too much about how good Rachel felt in her arms, she’d begin to worry about jinxing what had to be a mistake. She ran a hand down her chest, an automatic gesture looking for her dog tags, her talisman, a reminder of who she was and that she was still alive. The tags were gone. Maybe her luck was too.

“I hear you thinking,” Rachel murmured, kissing Max’s breast.

“Not so much,” Max said. Rachel didn’t need to know about her fears. “Just enjoying you.”

“Well, you can enjoy all you want.” Rachel snuggled a little closer and kissed Max’s throat. “Especially when it makes me feel so good. But you’re not allowed to worry. Not when everything is fine.”

Max laughed and some of the darkness receded. Rachel always managed to do that. “How did you know?”

“I can feel you worrying. You’re not concerned about later today, are you?” Rachel said.

Max frowned while her brain tried to engage again with the rest of the world. She didn’t want to let the outside in. All she wanted was Rachel. This room, this bed, this moment with no past to haunt her, no failures and fears to torment her. “The press conference? No, but I’d be just as happy to skip it. I guess there’s no way we can just stay here?”

“I think Shelley Carpenter would find us,” Rachel said.

“I don’t want to put her in a bind. And I think you’re right. She’s determined.”

Rachel caressed Max’s chest. “I’d be happy staying here except for her too. But, Max—this moment, it doesn’t have to end. I don’t care what it takes.”

Max lifted Rachel’s hand and kissed her fingers. Took a breath. “I don’t fit in your world.”

“Thank God.” Rachel raised up. Kissed Max slowly and thoroughly. “I never wanted that world or someone who fit in it.”

“Your parents won’t approve.”

“Max, you might not have noticed, but you are a decorated war hero. Not that it matters to me what my parents think, but they’ll have no objections.”

“I’m not particularly sociable.”

“You seemed to be doing quite well last night. I think Shelley Carpenter is half in love with you.”

“That’s just because I thanked her.”

“You noticed her, Max. You saw her. Like you see me. It’s one of the reasons I fell in love with you. That’s so much more important than empty words.”