“Okay,” she replied and I smiled to myself.  She might struggle in the domestic department but at least she tried.  One day she would make someone a good wife because she truly loved to take care of those around her.

I finished my shower and took some time to blow dry my hair and fix my makeup.  Normally I didn’t spend a lot of time on this but today I was feeling down, and on down days I liked to look my best.  I looked in the mirror and didn’t mind what I saw.  Even though I had done some hard living, I had come through pretty much unscathed.  Since giving up alcohol I had made an effort to live pretty healthily and I was fit and strong thanks to yoga and crossfit.  I had fairly flawless skin that I had inked a few times with images and words that held significance to the highs and lows of my life.  The most prominent reminder of the shit I had done in my life was the long scar that Rob had inflicted on me; it glared at me every damn day, but I didn’t begrudge it.  Whenever Serena or Blake suggested I ink over it, I always said no; I needed to see it to keep me focused on a path that would take me far away from where I once was.

“I’m ready,” I announced as I headed into the kitchen to grab my lunch out of the fridge.  Serena and I had a shift together today which I was really looking forward to.

“Let me just put my hair up and then we can go,” she replied and slapped my ass on her way out of the kitchen.

I laughed and shook my head at her.  Yep, it was going to be a good day.

Five minutes later, Serena reappeared with her hair done.  She tilted her head and smiled at me; I knew she was sussing out my mental state.  “How you doing, chica?” she finally asked.

“I’m not sure,” I was honest, “The fact that Nix is involved in all of this worries me.  Scott didn’t give me a lot of info to go on but I can only imagine it is bad.  Nix is a motherfucker you don’t want to mess with.”

Serena nodded, “Yeah, I’ve worked that out from some of the stuff you’ve told me in the past.  How the hell did you end up dating him?”

I sighed.  “I was so messed up and pissed off with J, and Nix was just there one night and it felt like a good idea at the time.  Dad and I weren’t really speaking and I was annoyed at him too and I knew that being with Nix would shit him.  I think I kinda did it to get back at all of them; J, Dad and Scott.”

This was the most I had spoken about my relationship with Nix to Serena and she encouraged me to keep sharing.  “So you hooked up with him and then kept seeing him?”

“Yeah, he was really into it.  Me, not so much but it had been six months since I broke up with J and I was lonely.  I was drinking pretty heavily by then and Nix was the only one who didn’t give me grief for it,” I gently shook my head as the memories came flooding back.  “When I was drinking I was a lot easier to boss around, that’s probably why he liked me drinking.  I just didn’t give enough of a shit about anything and went along with whatever he wanted.”

Serena moved closer to me and touched me gently on the arm; on my scar. “Did Nix do this to you?”

“No.”  Shit, this conversation was making me feel ill.  The familiar feelings of self hatred washed over me, my hands started to feel tingly and my head was beginning to spin.  Nausea took hold of my stomach and I actually thought I might vomit.  No-one besides J and Scott knew how I got my scar and it was something that I never wanted Serena or anyone else to find out.

“Hey honey, are you okay?” Serena sensed my distress and directed me to sit on the couch.  She ran into the kitchen and got me a drink of water which I took gratefully from her.

I downed the water in one go and focused on my breathing.  Serena was now sitting beside me and rubbing my back.  I knew she was worried but I didn’t have it in me just yet to ease her concerns.  All I could think about was that my past was finally going to catch up with me.  Fuck Nix.  Why did he have to come back into my life?  He wasn’t the reason for all the crap that had happened but he was the climax to it all.  And now he was going to be the catalyst for it all flaring up again.

Serena looked at her watch.  “We should probably get to work otherwise Gina will be in a foul mood with us all day for being late.”

I looked at her and nodded my head and gave her a small smile.  “Thanks,” I whispered, grateful that she knew I needed this conversation to be over.

* * *

“Oh, god these shoes are killing my feet,” Serena complained as she fell onto the couch and ripped her shoes off.

It had been a long day at work and the fact that we both wore heels to work even though we were on our feet for nearly eight hours a day didn’t help.  A girl’s gotta look good though and heels really help you rock what you’ve got.  It was Friday night and we both had the weekend off and were in the process of making plans for the weekend.  Blake had rounded everyone up to come to his restaurant, Scarlett, for dinner tonight.  Tomorrow was gearing up to be a girl’s day out shopping.  Sunday was still open for discussion but I was hoping for some time in the sun.

“What time did Blake say dinner was?” Serena asked.

“Eight o’clock,” I answered and pulled my phone out to see if I had any messages.

“I’m going to take a shower unless you want to go first,” she said but I waved her away as I had just discovered a message from Scott.

Scott: Will you be home tonight?

Me: No.

Scott: Text me the address of where you will be.  I’ve got a guy on the way.

Me: You’re kidding right?  I’m fine tonight, send him tomorrow.

My phone rang and I rolled my eyes when I saw it was Scott.  “I’m with friends tonight, Scott.  They will look out for me,” I answered the phone.

“Madison, just give me the goddamn address.  He’ll be there in a couple of hours,” he snapped.

I sighed long and loud.  “Fine,” I said and gave him the restaurant’s address.

I heard him repeat it to someone in the background and then he ended our conversation with, “I’ll be there towards the end of next week to try and talk some sense into you,” and he hung up.

I threw my phone on the couch and stomped into my bedroom. Why the fuck did my brother, father and their club think they could control me and my life?  I hoped he sent one of the prospects; they were a lot easier to boss around.

* * *

Faith threw her head back and laughed so loud that pretty much all eyes in the restaurant were on us.  She had a pretty wicked sense of humour and when she found something funny, everyone knew it.  Rowan had just relayed a story about something that happened to him at work today and although it was kind of funny, Faith thought it was hilarious.  It amazed me that these two used to date a couple of years ago and had managed to stay friends after they broke up.  In fact, from what I had been told, they were better friends now than when they dated.  I never managed to stay friends with any of my exes.

Rowan leaned across the table and touched my hand.  “You’re quiet tonight,” he said quietly while the rest of the group kept bantering back and forth.  Rowan was one of the most sensitive guys I had ever met.  Serena had introduced us at a party where I knew no-one and he had gone out of his way to stay close to me that night and make sure I was okay.  He was also the guy who would bring you soup and medication when you had the flu and the guy who gave up his plans to go to a football game when you needed someone to go with you to visit your sick grandfather.  Yep, he had done those things for me as well as so much more.  He was also one of the hottest guys I had ever met; tall, really well built, covered in ink and bald.  However, neither of us were interested in anything more and I valued his friendship.

“Yeah, there’s some stuff going down with Scott and the club.  He’s trying to get me to go back home again,” I replied.

“And you’re refusing again?” he grinned and shook his head.  Rowan and I had often discussed my brother’s desire for me to return home, and because he had sisters he felt sympathetic towards Scott.

I nodded emphatically, “Of course I am.  So now he is sending someone here to look out for me.”  I rolled my eyes.

Rowan laughed, “You would drive me fucking insane if you were my sister, Madison.  I can just imagine the hell you are going to give this poor guy.”

At that exact moment I glimpsed him entering the restaurant; the guy that Scott had sent.  And I couldn’t believe my fucking eyes.  Over six foot of pure muscle, tanned and inked skin, dark hair and piercing blue eyes; he was as gorgeous today as the last time I saw him.  My heart started beating faster and I blocked everything else out as my mind focused on the man that was heading straight for me.  He looked as pissed as I was.  Yeah, I bet he didn’t want this gig and I could picture the battle he probably had with Scott about it.

I pushed my chair back and stood up, ready to face him.  It had been two years since we had seen each other and while my head was screaming that it didn’t want to see him, my body was betraying me.  I had that fluttery feeling in my stomach; felt that familiar deep need in my core.  No man had ever affected me like he did.

He walked up to me, ignoring everyone around us.  “Madison.”

His gravelly voice did me in, it always had.  I felt weak at the knees and gripped the chair to steady myself; there was no way he would see me falter now.  He had sent me away two years ago; ripped my heart out and crushed it, and I would be damned if he discovered what he was still capable of doing to me.  I lifted my face and met his eyes, “J.”