He responded electrically to her touch, stroking with deep, quick measured movements, playing his hands over her face and breasts.

“I can’t touch you enough,” he gasped.

“I’m all yours,” she replied, smiling for a second before a faster stroke, a gentle kiss on the sensitive skin of her nipples stole all thought from her. The feeling of longing and need was building to such a pitch, she wrapped her arms tightly around James and let him carry her away with the force of his body.

And when they both reached the wild joy of a shuddering, moaning climax, she held on to him afterward just as tightly, and she knew that she never wanted to let him go.

Chapter 27. In Which Things Aren’t Strange, Then Are


“I don’t feel a bit awkward around you now,” Julia mused as the two lay lazily entwined in James’s bedsheets.

“Good,” James said, drawing a finger along the line of her chin. “That’s the way I would certainly prefer things.”

“No, I mean it, James. I feel as comfortable around you as ever, even though we have no clothes on and I’m in your house. In your bedchamber.”

“Well,” he replied, dropping a kiss onto her nose, “if we didn’t feel extraordinarily comfortable around each other to begin with, I don’t think we’d be in this type of situation.” He nuzzled her hair and wrapped her in a hug, but she barely noticed, still trying to puzzle through a train of thought.

“Shouldn’t I feel somehow strange, or different? Since what we did was so strange — well, not precisely strange in the sense that it’s never been done before by others. Actually, I wouldn’t really know. Did we do anything very unusual?”

“Not especially,” James answered, amused. “Though I’d like to think we did it particularly well.”

“All right, so we did something that in itself wasn’t strange or unusual, at least not on a global scale. But on a personal scale, for me, it was very strange. I mean, I’ve never done anything like that before, and it was rather significant. As you know. Since you practically tried to talk me out of it.”

“I’m very glad I didn’t succeed,” he said, his hands now beginning to wander her body again.

Despite the distraction of her mind, her body began to respond to his touch, and her thoughts grew fragmented. “I am, too — that is, I didn’t know what it would be like. But now that it’s over”—she paused and shook her foggy head to clear it, as he circled her breasts with one teasing fingertip—“I know what it’s like, obviously, and I realize that it was more significant even than I thought.”

“You’re babbling,” he mumbled, kissing her neck. “I like it.”

“Oh. Well. Anyway, it was amazing, and I just feel right about it,” she finished in a rush. She let her head loll back, relaxed and enjoying his touch.

“That’s wonderful,” he said, his fingertips now brushing against her nipples and raising them to peaks. “Because we’ll be doing a lot more of this when we’re married.”

He brought his lips to hers for a kiss, but she pressed him back to look questioningly at him.

“Was that a proposal?”

He raised his head, glassy-eyed, and looked confused for a second. Then his expression became chagrined. “Yes, of sorts. Not a very good one, though, apparently. Sorry.”

“But did you mean it?” she insisted.

“Of course I meant it. You can’t think I would do this”—he gestured widely at their bodies, the bed, the heap of discarded clothing in the corner—“and not intend to marry you.”

Now she was embarrassed. “You aren’t just proposing to me because of what we did, are you?”

Her face grew hot. Blasted face, always showing her feelings so easily. She felt suddenly conscious of her nakedness and of the enormity of what she had just done. “My God, James, I gave myself to you. I can never marry anyone else.”

“You wouldn’t want to, would you?” He sounded hurt.

“No, of course not,” Julia hastily replied. “I love you and I would never want to marry anyone else.” The words were true, she knew they were true, but they tumbled out in a hurry and sounded awkward on her lips.

They lapsed into a self-conscious silence, the budding passion of a moment before now cooled into caution.

“I believe you,” James said carefully, “but you don’t sound very glad about it.”

“I am,” Julia insisted. Then she corrected herself. “Well, right now I guess I am not quite glad about it, since I’m embarrassed and I sort of feel like you are bringing up marriage out of a sense of obligation.”

James looked indignant. “How can you say that? Don’t you remember what we said to each other last night, and just a while ago? You knew I wanted to be with you if I were ever free. I didn’t think that would happen, even after I got Louisa’s letter this morning — but then you came, and it was the greatest gift of my life.”

Julia was mollified somewhat by this speech, until she dissected its full meaning. “Wait — you weren’t going to pursue me even after you got the letter?”

“I didn’t think I had the right. I knew it would be a huge scandal. And after what Gloria’s already been through in the last year, I didn’t want to add to my family’s notoriety.”

“And now?” Her voice was accusing.

“It will still be a scandal, of course. But now we have to marry, and I’m glad for that because it’s what I wanted.” His voice was defensive, belying his loving words, and now Julia felt stung.

“I didn’t try to manipulate you, you know,” she retorted.

“I didn’t think you did,” he replied, brows knit as he searched for the right explanation. “I’m used to young women throwing themselves at me because of my title, but I can certainly tell the difference between that and the way you’ve always treated me.”

“Oh, that’s right,” Julia said, a chill in her voice. “I had forgotten I was with a viscount.”

James blew out his breath between exasperated lips. “Maybe I didn’t put that very well. But please understand my intention, which is honorable. Lawful marriage. It may be the right thing to do, but it’s also what I want to do.”

Julia watched him carefully for a few seconds, but his expression was neutral and waiting. “Well,” she replied. “All right.”

He blinked. “So you’ll marry me?”

“No,” Julia replied without thinking. James looked shocked, and she hastily explained. “I mean, I might. Probably. Yes. But what I was really answering was your statement about understanding your intention. And I meant, all right, I understand your intention.”

“So you’ll only probably marry me?” he said in disbelief.

“I think I need not to talk about this right now,” Julia answered. “I know I love you and you love me, and it makes sense for us to get married, especially now, et cetera.”

“‘Et cetera’?” James repeated, his voice yet more incredulous. That haughty eyebrow was cocked again, as if what Julia was saying was the stupidest thing anyone had ever said since the dawn of the English language. Which it probably was, since her thoughts were in such a tangle that she hardly knew what she was going on about.

“Right, well, anyway,” she hastened to finish, “I need some time to think and let all this settle in. Since I woke this morning, I’ve had two proposals, helped my sister break her engagement, and lost my virginity. It’s been quite a day.”

James laughed at her recital. “When you put it that way, it is rather a lot to think about all at once. Fair enough.”

Julia smiled back at him, relieved. “We’ll talk about this again later?” she asked, sliding off the bed to retrieve her clothes from the corner of the room.

He slid after her and began to help her sort out her clothing. “Yes, of course we will. You’ll never be able to get rid of me. I’ll propose over and over again. I’ll harass you about it every time I see you.”

He handed Julia a stocking. “By the way, when will that be next? I assume I’m no longer invited over to dine with you and your family tonight.”

“Oh. Yes, probably it would be best if you didn’t come, for Louisa’s sake. She’d find it very awkward.” Julia considered. “What if I send you a note when I know of our next plans? I don’t know what Louisa will want to do, or what my aunt will consider proper under the circumstances.”

“Well, don’t wait too long,” James said, a twinkle in his eye as he helped her roll her second stocking back onto her leg. “Otherwise I’ll come after your aunt myself and tell her about how very improper we’ve been, to force your hand so you’ll have to marry me.”

“Ha.” Julia acknowledged his joke with an affectionate roll of her eyes, standing up and shaking her rumpled garments into place. “Don’t worry; I’ll write as soon as possible. I want that as much as you do.”

She twisted to look over her shoulder. “Is it completely obvious just what I’ve been doing?”

“Not at all,” James assured her. “That is, not if you wear that big cloak again.”

She wrinkled her nose at him and gave a wry smile, comfortable again now that she was dressed and had earned some time to think.

Well, she wasn’t entirely comfortable; he was still disconcertingly, unabashedly nude. It was quite distracting.

She averted her eyes and kissed him on the cheek. “I’d better go.”

He found a dressing robe in his wardrobe and wrapped it around his lean form. “I’ll see you out.”

Strolling thoughtfully downstairs, with James wrapping his arms around her from behind, Julia tried to enjoy the present moment. In the back of her mind, though, uncertainty about the next step niggled at her. What was she going to tell her aunt, and how, and when? Or her parents? Or Louisa, for that matter? Each confession seemed more daunting than the last.