Theresa Romain - Season for Temptation

James sighed and rubbed a hand across weary eyes. “It’s all right,” he replied, dropping his voice even lower.

“Your aunt would probably tell you eventually, though it’s not really fit for the ears of a young woman.”

Julia bit her tongue, hard, to keep from hurrying James along. This promised to be quite interesting. She had long been convinced that some of the things most worth hearing were those deemed unfit for the ears of young women.

“How much Latin do you know?” James asked, fixing her with a piercing gaze. His green eyes were hard and tired.

She didn’t know the right answer, but suddenly this didn’t seem amusing anymore. She wanted to lift that terrible look from his face. She’d say anything to ease it; she’d caress the furrows from his forehead and kiss the sorrow from his mouth.

But all she said was, “Not much, I’m afraid. No more than most women.”

James nodded, as if this was the answer he expected. “Do you happen to know the phrase in flagrante delicto?”

Julia’s mouth fell open. That was one phrase she did know, though she’d never have admitted it to her mother.

“I see that you do,” James continued in his grim near whisper. “That’s how the rat died, with a mistress my sister didn’t know he had. A mistress who ran out into the street, screaming for help, wrapped in only a bedsheet, for all the ton to see and hear.”

“Good God.” Julia forced her mouth closed, but she couldn’t think of what to say next. Poor Gloria, to suffer a loss and betrayal at once, and then be sent to live in this cold pile of a house with her even colder mother.

“God had nothing to do with it,” James said. His mouth tightened into a hard line she’d never seen before. “Her fool of a husband all but made her a laughingstock, and our family by extension. I wish. .”

He trailed off, and looked over at Louisa, who sat unawares next to a woman who, Julia now knew, hid a great wound with her haughty expression. “I had hoped to marry soon, and thereby be in a position to help undo the damage. With a wife at my side, and Nicholls restored, I could offer them respectability and a real home in the country, away from all of this.”

He closed his eyes for a long moment, but Julia could have sworn she saw bright unshed tears in them before he did. He gestured to the stairway up which his nieces had vanished. “For their sakes, you know. For all of us, but especially for those girls, I hoped to marry as quickly as possible and give our family a chance to be decent and happy again.”

The reminder of his upcoming marriage affected Julia with the physical force of a horse kick to the stomach. She nearly choked on the sudden shock of it.

“Yes, of course,” she managed to say.

What was she doing, heating herself up with thoughts about James? She was such a fool. He might enjoy her friendship, but there was another lady here with a much greater claim on his attention. Why, his very expression became wistful as he looked from her to Louisa. He wished to be with Louisa now.

Of course he did; that only made sense. But she still ached to think of it, and she was relieved when the party broke up soon afterward.

They all wished each other a happy Christmas again, and Lady Matheson was as glacial as ever in her farewells. But when Julia spoke with Gloria, the widow clasped her hands with genuine warmth.

“Thank you again for your kindness to my daughters,” she offered. “I’m so very glad to have met you.”

“And I you,” Julia replied with equal candor, stammering under the weight of her too-deep understanding. “You have lovely daughters. I’m. . I’m delighted to have met you all.”

She took her leave from James with a friendly handshake, then turned away in order not to see whether he kissed Louisa good evening. All the way home, she remembered his wounded eyes, and she could swear she still felt the warmth of his hand on her shoulder.

Julia didn’t really want to think or speak about the evening once they all got home, but Louisa sought her out in her bedchamber later that night as she was completing her preparations for sleep. She had already changed into her nightdress, and the knock on the door sounded just as she was splashing her face with water.

“Go away,” she grumbled, and Louisa immediately walked in.

“Sorry, what did you say?” Louisa asked. She seemed nervous and distracted, so Julia took pity on her.

“Nothing, nothing. What’s going on? Are you all right?”

The tall girl sat carefully on the edge of the bed to avoid creasing her dinner gown. “How do you think it went?” she asked hesitantly.

“Oh, it was fantastic,” Julia replied at once with her brightest smile.

Louisa’s dark eyes bored into her. “You’re a terrible liar. Was it disastrous, or just merely bad?” Julia flung herself onto the bed and wiggled her feet thoughtfully, sighing as she considered her answer. She didn’t know whether Louisa wanted lies or the truth.

She settled for ambiguity. “I don’t exactly know. It definitely wasn’t like a cozy Christmas Eve at home. But I don’t think there’s anything you could have done differently to make it go better. Does that help?” Louisa blew out a breath between thinned lips. “Maybe a bit. But the fact remains, they don’t really want me to marry him, do they?” “As long as he wants to marry you, what does it matter?” Julia replied.

She knew that was dodging the question, but she didn’t really want to talk about this. She felt uncomfortable, even a bit envious. Which was ridiculous, she knew, since her season would begin soon and she would have her chance to find the same happiness Louisa had.

Except Louisa didn’t seem happy right now; she still seemed worried. “I suppose it was kind of them to have me join their game, but then they excluded you, which again seemed impolite to me. Not very hospitable. Do you agree?” “Yes, and Lady Matheson was very rude to me at dinner, too,” Julia said. “I could hardly believe she called me common.” Just the thought of it made the desperate annoyance wash over her again. Although. . then James had come to her defense. And then he had told her his future plans and family secrets. Had he told them to Louisa? Or had Julia somehow earned a special confidence?

The thought cheered her, although the memory of James’s bleak eyes was as painful as a wound.

“So, doesn’t that seem like a problem to you? If they aren’t willing to accept my family as well as me?” Louisa pressed.

Julia struggled to focus on her sister’s worried words. “It won’t bother me a bit, as long as it doesn’t matter to you,” she replied honestly. “I probably won’t meet up with them often. Though I did like James’s little nieces. I meant what I said about inviting them to Stonemeadows.” Louisa was insistent. “But we should all have good relationships, shouldn’t we? Do you think James should marry without the support of his family?” Now it was Julia’s turn to blow out a breath impatiently. She knew she should be giving Louisa her full attention, but she just wanted to stop thinking about the whole situation. “Louisa, he can do whatever he chooses to. He is a grown man who’s already come into his title and estate. He’s what, almost thirty years old?” “Twenty-seven.”

“Fine, twenty-seven. Anyway, he’s self-sufficient. And if he wants to be engaged, which he does, his mother had better get used to the fact. She may be too top-lofty to notice anyone below her own rank, but it would be the devil of a scandal if she tried to break things up.” A scandal. Julia could almost laugh, if it wasn’t so sad. It was precisely that, a family scandal, that James was trying to suppress through his marriage. Now that he was engaged, his mother ought to be more judicious about suggesting other young women for him to run off with.

Louisa acknowledged these pragmatic words with a miserable half smile. “That may be true, but what kind of life would it be for his wife if she couldn’t get along with his mother?” “Why are you speaking in hypotheticals?” Julia demanded. “You’re the woman in question; you’re going to be his wife. And then you’ll be a viscountess, too, as well as the mother of his heirs.” She thought for a moment. “Actually, if she’s too much of an evil cow to you, you could simply refuse to have any children but girls.” She almost smiled at the mental image of the dowager viscountess being presented with a squalling baby granddaughter.

But the idea of James, the father of another woman’s child — that thought was enough to wipe any smile from her face.

“Evil cow,” Louisa repeated, much struck. “She was a bit, wasn’t she?”

“More than a bit,” Julia agreed. “She’s lucky our aunt wasn’t in an attacking mood tonight. I wasn’t either, really, but I wished they’d been more friendly.” Louisa stared forward and nodded. “Yes, definitely that. A woman like that can put a lot of pressure on someone.” Julia looked at her curiously, but Louisa seemed to be in a reverie.

“Well, I don’t mean to bother you,” she said, standing abruptly. “I just wasn’t sure what to make of the situation.” She still looked uncertain, and Julia felt ashamed of her own reluctance to talk. If she had sensed unfriendliness in the air that evening, how much more so must Louisa feel it?

“I’m sorry,” she said at once, reaching for her sister’s hands. “Stay, talk as long as you need to.” “No, I’m fine,” Louisa assured her, managing a more sanguine expression. “I just have a lot to think about, I guess.” She squeezed Julia’s hands. “Happy Christmas.” Julia responded in kind, and relaxed back onto her bed. It hadn’t really been much of a happy Christmas Eve, but there was still tomorrow to come, and pieces of the evening had been pleasant nonetheless. Eating a large, delicious dinner. Playing with two young, shrieking children. And, of course, seeing James. Feeling the warmth of his trust in her.