“Yeah,” I joke, tossing a couple of polo shirts into my suitcase, “and we all know how many roses you’ve smelled, so many I’m surprised you don’t have thorns digging in your ass.”

“Hey,” he says with a satisfied smirk, “it’s better than having Allison’s heel in my ass when she kicked me out the door after a few years. I can’t believe I actually considered having handsome little Calebs with her. Speaking of which, my mom called me the other night and gave me the spiel about finally settling down and finding a ‘nice girl.’ I told her I found a nice girl, but she turned out to be a bitch.” He chuckles. “She didn’t really appreciate that.”

“Go easy on your mom, Caleb, she just wants the best for you. Besides, you know how much I love her, so you’re not getting any sympathy from me on that front.” I grab a few more t-shirts and several pairs of Calvin Klein boxers and stuff them in my bag. “Okay, I’m all set. Do you want to get some breakfast and hang out with me at the hotel for a while?”

Caleb sags back in the chair, hands knotted behind his head. “Yeah, that sounds good. But can I ask you a stupid question? Why are you staying at the hotel when your apartment is only twenty minutes away?”

I zip up my suitcase and haul it off the bed. “You do realize the conference is at The Ritz-Carlton, right?”

Caleb shrugs his shoulders, looking dumbfounded. “And?”

“And it’s one of the most upscale hotels in LA, on the company’s dime. That’s why. I intend to chill out all week, order some room service, watch a couple of movies, and then I’m coming home.”

Caleb shakes his head. “That sounds boring as shit, man.”

“Exactly.”

Chapter Three – Fran – Leaving on a jet plane

The ride to JFK airport is filled with silence, void of conversation that is, with the exception of Beyonce’s “Single Ladies” blaring through the car speakers. Peyton is obviously mistaking her Acura Integra for the club. The music is booming and my head is pounding as I press it to the glass, trying to keep my heart palpitations to a minimum.

I turn to her, raising my voice to a screech so she can actually hear me. “Peyton, please turn down the music!”

She tunes me out and continues doing her erotic dance, which only infuriates me. My teeth grab at the inside of my lip, fingers scrape through my hair. By the time I get on the plane I’m going to be a hot mess.

We stop at a toll booth and wait in the very long line of cars. Peyton finally turns down the music and angles her body to face me. “Fran, this is supposed to loosen you up. Shake your bon bon a little before you have to sit in a confined seat for six hours.”

And there it is.

“Thank you so much for reminding me how long I’ll be on the plane in which I’ll plunge to my death, no doubt into the ocean where I’ll get eaten up by sharks.”

She bursts into laughter, the sound drowning out Beyonce’s voice. “When you get back, Fran, I’m signing you up for an acting class.” She shakes her head at me and pulls the toll pass from the center console. “Sharks, really?”

We make it to JFK in record time, two hours before my scheduled flight thanks to Peyton’s Mario Andretti tendencies. Even though I know she has better things to do, I make her come in with me so I can give her a proper goodbye since this very well could be my last day on earth.

“All right, all right.” I slap her hands away. “I’m going! Stop pushing.”

Peyton’s hand remains on my back. “I’ll stop pushing as soon as you start walking.”

The path to the terminal is the longest of my life. I can hear my heart beating loudly in my ears, my breathing uneven. We push past the crowd of travelers striding briskly, coffees in hand, cell phones plastered to their ears, seemingly relaxed. I wish I could be that way, too.

I stop short in front of the double doors of the terminal. I hear a grunt from behind and turn to see a gentleman with peppered hair sidestep me, cursing under his breath and wiping the brown liquid that just spilled on his fingers from our near collision.

“I should’ve told them I had travel-phobia,” I say, my eyes focused to a spot on the ground.

She sets her hands on her hips, an exasperated sigh leaving her glossy red pout. “Travel-phobia?”

“Yes,” I reply, wishing I had thought of it sooner. “You know, that the farthest I can travel is to the nearest Starbucks and to the All Male Review on West 27th Street.”

Peyton laughs and grabs my hand forcefully to drag me through the entrance. Once inside, she doesn’t let go, but continues to pull me toward the Delta ticket counter.

Digging my fingernails into the palm of my hand that’s clinging tightly to my suitcase and sucking on my lip isn’t helping. Neither is Peyton. She feels when my feet come to a halt beside her and turns her head to glare at me, her pecan-colored eyes narrowed into tiny slits.

“Okay. Deep breath and count to ten,” she instructs, splaying her hands out in front of her.

“How about, deep breath and we go home?” I reply, my lips twisted into something resembling a grin.

She cracks a smile, then blows a chestnut strand of hair away from her face. “Desperate times call for desperate measures. Hold out your hands.”

I drop my bag to the ground and release my firm grip on the suitcase handle. I hold out both hands in anticipation…of what, I have no idea.

Peyton shakes something that sounds like a maraca and it lands in my palm. “Ambien,” she says with a smile. “Just in case you have a freak-out.”

I roll my eyes.

“Now, for the good part.” She reaches into her Gucci purse, pulling out three mini bottles of Jack Daniels, and shoves them into my hand. A mischievous grin spreads across her face. “In case you get thirsty.” She winks and her brown eyes light up like the Fourth of July.

I look at her lovely gifts. “Great. So you’re trying to get me drunk and high.”

“Yeah. Pretty much,” she states blandly.

My ears pick up a child screaming in the distance, seemingly over a lollipop that has fallen to an untimely demise. It jolts me and I nearly drop my newfound addictions to the ground, the child’s cries morphing into the voice of Dad yelling at Mom because she got him the wrong cereal.

I watched Mommy hover in the corner, Daddy’s arms against the wall on both sides of her head. He looked so scary, and I was afraid for Mommy.

“I told you to get the Goddamn Captain Crunch,” he shouted, and I saw Mommy’s eyes fill with tears, just like mine did when Daddy would come to my room.

“Now get the fuck out of here and go get my cereal,” Daddy yelled again, and Mommy ran out like a scared little mouse. I wished I could have helped her, but I couldn’t even help myself.

I shake off the shiver that crawls down my spine and quickly stuff the pills and liquor in my bag before meeting Peyton’s gaze. “Well, this is it. You’re entitled to my clothes and shoes, even the Louboutins, after I’m gone.”

She nudges my shoulder with her own. “Will you stop! You’re going to be fine. Besides,” she begins, winking and rolling her hips, and I look around to make sure no one noticed her obscene gesture, “you know what people do when they go away to these conferences, don’t you? Sin, baby. Flings of sin.” She laughs but her expression falls when she sees the color drain from my cheeks. With a soft exhale she reaches for my hand. “Seriously, sweetie, all will be well. Text me through the entire flight if you need to.”

I throw my arms around her, pressing my lips together and forcing my eyes shut as if this single embrace can overcome my internal struggle.

“You’re going to squeeze all the life out of me if you’re not careful,” she squeaks out.

Reluctantly, I pull back, dropping my hands to my sides with a sigh. “I guess I’ll see you later.”

“See ya, and I wouldn’t want to be ya,” she teases, laughing and walking toward the exit, her manicured fingernails waving high in the air.

“Very funny,” I call out, but that’s why I keep her around.

I grab my suitcase and turn briskly to wave at Peyton one more time before watching her amber waves and perfectly curved figure disappear into a sea of travelers, leaving me completely alone. An extraordinarily happy woman with a blonde bob and straight, white teeth greets me from behind the counter. I feel like I’m in a commercial.

“Good morning! Welcome to Delta!”

“Morning,” I reply, suddenly wishing I could have whatever she’s just had. As soon as she turns her head to wink at the dark-haired Adonis further down the counter, the one who must use the same brand of whitening toothpaste, I realize maybe that’s exactly what I need.

After leaving Miss Congeniality, I check my suitcase and go through security clearance to find Gate 35. I’ve still got about an hour until it’s time to board the plane, so I take out my cell phone and send a couple of texts: one to Gabby, letting her know I’m at the airport, and one to Peyton, telling her I’m still alive.

I can’t seem to stop fidgeting so I plod over to one of the shops to kill some time, grab a bottle of spring water, and some M&M’s to calm my nerves. My heels drag as I make my way back to the sitting area before I finally take a seat and tear open the bag of candy, picking out the green ones first because they’re my favorite. I remember always hearing stories about how they’re an aphrodisiac, not that I necessarily need any help in that department.

The contemporary romance I’ve been reading on my Kindle is calling my name, so I pull it from my Dooney & Bourke handbag and dig in. I love getting lost in a good book, especially one with a happy ending, mostly because I know that won’t be in the cards for me. The screen blurs as a heavy breath releases from my chest before I continue to read about Andrew and Camryn. I’m completely absorbed in the story so it takes me a while to notice the little girl standing in front of me with short, curly red hair, a multitude of freckles, and the most piercing blue eyes I’ve ever seen. I stare at her face, a happy smile lifting her pudgy cheeks.