Hope dared to stir in her chest before harsh reality tamped it down. Her mouth flattened. “Others will. You can’t change Society. And what about your friends and family? What will they say when they discover you’ve wed the offspring of a whore?”

“My friends and family are no strangers to scandal.” His tone was rueful, but his eyes held no trace of regret. “My sister married her husband the same week that she gave birth. One needn’t have a head for figures to realize they must have taken a few liberties with the proper order of events.”

She stared at him in amazement, scarcely able to comprehend his meaning. She had told him her darkest secrets, the very things she had spent a lifetime fighting to hide, and…it didn’t change his view of her in the slightest?

She was human, he’d said without the slightest hesitation. Without realizing she’d struggled her entire life to be treated like a whole person. She’d dreamed of Society accepting her…but perhaps it was enough to be accepted by one man.

This man.

She gave him a wobbly smile. He pulled her into his arms and just held her. Letting his strength comfort her. She hugged him tight.

If only he were someone she could keep.

Chapter 10

Anthony cradled his sleeping bride in his arms as their hired hack rattled across the border into England. There was nothing left for them in Scotland.

He had never been the sort of person who could sleep in a moving carriage, but he was not in the least surprised to see his wife succumb to her exhaustion. She had slept fitfully at best, after having realized her lifelong obsession with being reunited with her father had never been anything more than an impossible dream.

As for the confession that followed… Entering the parson’s trap with the daughter of a whore was perhaps not the most ideal of circumstances, but when had Anthony ever done the ideal thing? He could scarcely hold her accountable for something that had occurred prior to her birth.

Besides, Anthony was painfully cognizant of the fact that he was no fine catch himself. He couldn’t even be caught at all, if he didn’t find a way to triumph over the debt collectors.

He had considered the situation over and over again—some might say dwelled upon the matter to the point of nausea—and had come to the same conclusion. The only honorable way out of his scrape was to earn the owed sums himself.

The issue was how to buy more time.

He still believed London the most viable city for easy employment. And the only place he could repay his debt, since Gideon’s vice parlor lay within city borders. But, given the new information about Charlotte, ’twas no wonder she had no interest in returning to a city that constantly made her feel worthless.

How could he sit behind a writing desk somewhere while his wife was suffering elsewhere?

At least they were heading south. On the move. Not just because they’d left the debt collector’s ruffians behind, but because all of England still lay ahead. London was not the only fashionable city. They could go to Bath. Perhaps there, Charlotte wouldn’t be recognized or disparaged… And perhaps there, Anthony could scare up enough blunt to save his life—and his marriage.

He caressed the back of her hand. Now was not the moment to make her promises about the future. Neither of them was in a position to consummate a marriage whose future would come to an abrupt halt in less than a fortnight. But he had meant what he said. He would fix his mess. And once he deserved her, Charlotte would be his. Completely.

His throat went dry. What if that day never happened? What if he managed to pay off his creditors and be the best man he’d ever been in his life, and it still wasn’t enough?

In his heart of hearts, he’d always dreamed his future wife would be a paragon. Not full of herself or high in the instep, but someone who was…complete without him. Someone who chose him because she wanted him, not because she was enamored by the baubles he bestowed upon her when he was flush.

Of course, beggars could not be choosers. He had no particularly redeemable qualities, which left spoiling his loved ones when his pockets were flush his only option.

So what was he meant to do with Charlotte? What could he possibly give her?

He drummed his fingers against the carriage squab in frustration. Besides having a father, the thing she wanted most was societal approbation—and he couldn’t give it to her. No one could. She would never be accepted at high society gatherings, much less be granted an Almack’s voucher to mingle with the crème de la crème.

She could probably be accepted into the societal fast set—rakes and gamblers and courtesans—but although Charlotte could move in those circles more freely, scandalous company wasn’t what she desired. The gossiped-about set wasn’t where she wished to belong, or who she wanted to be.

But she had no other choice.

He lightly stroked her forearm. Having grown up with both parents and along the fringes of the beau monde, he could not imagine what it must be like to have been born a bastard. A man in such a position could still become a dapper dandy or a famous poet or a respected officer in the army, but what was a woman to do? Especially when her face was recognizable as the very mirror of her mother, a known courtesan.

Charlotte had never had a chance.

Anthony set his jaw. He, on the other hand, did have a chance. This was his opportunity not only to make something of himself—ideally something other than a Marshalsea prisoner—and, in doing so, give Charlotte a chance at an alternate future. A better one.

Once he paid off his debt, they could go anywhere. Perhaps move to the country, as his sister had done. Close enough to London to still remain in contact with his friends and parents, but not so close to the city that Charlotte was in danger of being recognized.

A flutter of hope stirred in his belly. For the first time, it occurred to him that perhaps he might have something to offer besides money. To Charlotte, happiness stemmed from other sources. Peace. Safety. Love. He couldn’t change society to fit her dreams, but he could give her respect and worth in the sanctity of their home. Wherever that might be.

Starting here. Starting now.

He pressed his lips to her hair. Going forward, his new goal wasn’t to collect the purses of every man at the betting table. It was to be dependable. Reliable. To be a good husband and provider. To be someone even he could be proud of.

The only question was how.

Chapter 11

When they reached Newcastle upon Tyne, Anthony found a comfortable inn in which to settle his exhausted wife, whilst he took a turn about the common areas in search of a moment’s entertainment.

As anticipated, there was plenty to distract him.

A handful of couples were just setting out for some sort of local assembly with drink and dancing. A few younger bachelors joined the party in the hopes of encountering a nice young lady…or a naughty one, as the case might be.

The rest of the unattached gentlemen gathered in the inn’s main salon. In moments, drinks were in every hand and the cozy chairs were rearranged into gaming areas.

Anthony’s blood raced at the sight. There was nothing he liked better than the thrill of a good wager. The risk of losing it all followed by a dizzying rush of euphoria when an improbable card won it all. This was where he thrived.

A few nights of exceptional hands, and he could come close to paying his debts back. It was unlikely, perhaps, but certainly not impossible. He’d almost done it in Scotland, had he not?

Before Charlotte joined the table, he’d been well on his way to winning back at least a tenth of what he owed. If he could have a run like that every day for a fortnight, he’d not only pay off his debts, but he’d also have plenty left over to whisk Charlotte wherever she wished. How happy she would be then!

“Fairfax?” exclaimed a surprised voice from the other side of the room.

Anthony whirled to see a familiar London face. “Thomas Quinton!”

“As I live and breathe.” Quinton stared in disbelief. “Daresay I’ve never seen you anywhere but St. James. What on earth brings you to Newcastle upon Tyne?”

Fleeing creditors seemed the wrong response if Anthony sought an opportunity to rid his friend of his purse at the tables. Instead he offered, “My wife wanted to visit family.”

“Your what?” Quinton’s jaw dropped. “Now you must be bamming me. Sit, sit. Allow me to buy you a drink while you regale me with lies about some poor debutante silly enough to tie the knot with a man who’s never home at night.” He laughed.

Anthony did not. The humor was lacking. Not because it was an inaccurate description of him—what single gentleman spent his evenings at home?—but because of the unflattering implication that Anthony was unlikely to change, even for a wife. Guilt assailed him.

Given that Charlotte was dozing in a guest chamber whilst Anthony had gone carousing, perhaps Quinton’s teasing assessment wasn’t so far afield.

“All that’s over,” Anthony said firmly. “At the moment, she’s recovering from a long journey. I don’t see any harm in taking a stroll about in the meantime, do you?”

“Oh, perambulate all you like—be my guest! Just make sure you end up at my table, so you can tell me all about the bewitching creature you’ve hidden away upstairs. What’s her name? Do I know her?”

“You don’t,” Anthony said quickly. “And the bewitching creature is Mrs. Fairfax to you.”

“My, you’re prickly,” Quinton teased. “Don’t be the jealous sort. Every man enjoys a pretty face.”

Anthony’s shoulders stiffened. What if Quinton recognized Charlotte? Anthony curled his fingers. He didn’t think Quinton would insult her, at least not purposefully, but a jokester like him could make just the right comment in front of just the wrong person, and even the briefest of stays at this inn would feel like a lifetime of misery to Charlotte. Anthony’s palms went clammy.