Tymber Dalton - Pinch Me

She couldn’t exactly storm, but she plodded over to the fridge and yanked it open, ignoring the pain in her side as she did.

Then she…stood there, staring at what was eye level.

Bill, who hadn’t moved from the kitchen doorway, watched her without speaking.

She let the refrigerator door swing shut and rested her head against the cool surface as tears rolled down her cheeks. On the upper freezer door, there were several magnets. One from Yellowstone.

A magnet she’d bought on her trip out there after their parents died.

She remembered stopping in the visitor center by Old Faithful and buying it, one just like it for the fridge at the house, and several others for Shayla and…people she couldn’t even remember. Maybe Sully and Clarisse had one on their fridge, too.

But she knew the one on Rob’s fridge sat just a little lower than eye level, toward the right. The door handle, opposite of this one, was on the left, and it opened to the right. This one swung open to the left.

His fridge was stainless steel, and matched the stove and dishwasher. He’d taken her with him to pick them out when he bought them several months earlier.

“Laur?” Bill softly asked.

His voice shook her out of her thoughts and the remaining pieces swirled out of reach, once again, into the abyss.

“Take me to Rob’s,” she said.

“I can’t. The alarm company will be here any minute. We have to wait until they leave.”

She nodded as her eyes once again settled on the magnet. “I’m sorry.”

He took a step into the kitchen. “It’s okay,” he said, his voice still low and gentle. “No one blames you for feeling out of whack. I’m surprised you’re handling it as well as you are.”

She reached up and touched the surface of the magnet, tracing its embossed image. “You took the time off then, too.”

“Yeah.” He edged closer, so he could drape his arm around her shoulders.

“Do you still have the horses?”

“You remember that?”

“I remember something about riding.”

He smiled. “Yep. Those two big mooches are still hanging around.”

She looked up into his eyes. “Will this get any easier?”

“I wish I could tell you that.”

The alarm company was able to work fast and get everything installed in less than two hours. Her condo was much smaller and easier to equip than the house.

They went over everything with her, showed her how to program it, how to add additional users, and how to check trouble codes.

She stared at the keypad as she and Bill prepared to leave.

“What’s wrong?” he asked. “Do you need help with it?”

She slowly shook her head. “I never needed one of these before, did I?”

“Well, you’ve had one at the shop for years.”

“I mean here.” Rob had arranged for the system and apparently paid for it out of his own pocket. He’d also instructed them to install a panic button in the master bedroom, and included not one, but two key fobs that also had panic button switches on them.

“No, you didn’t. But this is different.”

She picked up her purse, which she really hadn’t looked through other than to study the contents of her wallet, and trailed a finger over the keypad. “I guess everything’s different now.”

* * *

Bill went first out of caution, leaving Laura and Doogie in the truck while he got the front door unlocked and disarmed the alarm.

He had to help her out, the ibuprofen she’d taken not helping to kill the pain so much as strangle it a little.

Kind of like me.

She suppressed a snort.

“What’s so funny?” he asked.

“Nothing.” She looked around the yard. “Can we walk around?”

“Sure.” He kept his arm out for her and she didn’t argue with him. She held on for support, following him and Doogie as the dog sniffed every blade of grass and watered quite a few of them.

The back side of the property bordered a protected wetland area. With the exception of a two-foot swath outside the fence that Rob took care of with a weed trimmer, there was a ten-yard-wide section of overgrown grass and weeds leading to a thick area of pine trees mixed in with palms, palmettos, Brazilian peppers, melaleucas, and mangroves. The area was several hundred acres large. With the exception of the few homes on Rob’s street there was no public access to the wildlife area except by boat from the water.

She stared out at the woodlands area and listened to the sounds of birds, insects, and the wind.

“I’ve spent a lot of time here, huh?”

“That’s what Rob and you’ve both said.”

“It’s quiet here.”

“Peaceful. That’s one of the reasons you love it.”

She closed her eyes and tried to remember something tickling at her thoughts. When she had it, she turned and looked at the back side of the house, where a screened-in lanai opened onto a wooden deck.

“He bought it from a bank. It was a foreclosure,” she softly said. “I came to look at it with him. He built the lanai and deck.”

Bill nodded, but didn’t speak.

She stared, trying to pull images from the past, to merge and reconcile them with the present. “The yard was a mess. The kitchen had been gutted.” She looked up at the new roof, variegated tan shingles. “The barrel tile roof was cracked and leaking.”

Releasing Bill’s arm, she walked over to the deck and stepped onto it. “We got a lot of stuff, including the kitchen cabinets, from IKEA.”

She closed her eyes, teasing the last bit from her reluctant brain. “Seth was a contractor,” she whispered, not understanding why Bill shouldn’t hear that. “And Tony, Cris, Landry, Ross, Mac, they all came over and helped one weekend.”

She opened her eyes again and, without waiting for Bill, headed around to the front of the house.

The laundry room. She had to see it.

With her heart pounding and Bill and Doogie on her heels, she pushed through the front door and trusted her feet. They unerringly carried her past the kitchen to a closed door.

Her fingers trembled as she reached out and twisted the knob, a sob falling from her as she recognized the laundry room. And on a low shelf over the washer sat a yellow jug of laundry detergent.

Ignoring the pain, she hurried over to it and yanked it from the shelf. Twisting the top off she held it up to her nose and took a deep breath.

Laughter flowed through her tears as she stood there, hugging the bottle to her chest and taking long, deep breaths.

Bill stood in the doorway, watching her. “You all right?”

“It’s yellow,” she said, eyes closed, the happiest she’d felt since the nightmare started. “I remembered. It’s yellow. It’s the detergent I use.”

“Um, yeah. I think you have the same bottle at the condo.”

She shook her head and kept her eyes closed in case more memories wanted to return. “No, you don’t understand. I saw this laundry room. While I was still in the hospital. This room.” Eventually, she opened her eyes and screwed the cap back on before returning the jug to its shelf.

“This room was in my thoughts. Meaning other stuff is still there. In my brain. It’s just…locked up still.”

“Sweetie, I thought we already established you remembered some stuff.”

“I know. But this was one of the first things I remembered.” She trailed a hand over the washing machine’s lid. “If I can remember something as stupid and trivial as this, doesn’t it mean I’ll remember all the important stuff eventually?”

“I don’t know. I’m not a doctor.”

He stepped out of the way as she walked past him and to the kitchen.

A sense of peace settled over her. There on the fridge, exactly where she’d pictured it in her mind, was the other Yellowstone magnet.

* * *

Friday morning, Bill drove Laura to the shop. Rob had come in a little after seven that morning, exhausted from working a serious early morning accident, and went to bed.

She’d spent the better part of a half hour before they left in the bathroom in front of the mirror, trying to mask the worst of the still-visible bruises with makeup. Fortunately, the swelling in her lip had completely gone down.

Another oddity. Bill told Laura she rarely wore makeup, due to the nature of her job. Unless she was going out somewhere with Rob.

She refused to take a pain pill that morning, the pain more tolerable and preferable to the fuzzy, groggy blanket that settled over her brain with the prescription drugs.

And work seemed to greatly help her state of mind. The more she dug into the paperwork and chores at the shop, with a little help from Steve and Carol, the more that came rushing back to her in terms of what to do.

Unfortunately, that didn’t translate into a lot of personal memories. It also didn’t help her with her writing. She’d forced herself to weed through her email again and found a note from an editor looking for a progress report on an article due to a magazine.

Feeling defeated, she asked Bill to call the editor at the number in the email while she retreated to the bathroom to have a cry in private.

Two steps forward, eight steps back.

* * *

Bill sadly watched her exit the office before making the call and explaining the situation to the editor. The woman sounded sympathetic and told Bill she’d kill the article, but that if Laura regained her memory and wanted to submit it, she’d still take it.

Before, Laura was proud of her writing, of the freelance career she’d built up in addition to running the shop. She’d journaled every day as a teenager.