Tymber Dalton - Pinch Me

It didn’t help that he had a bad feeling in his gut that whoever attacked Laura might be tied in with several unsolved murders in Florida and around the country.

And if that was the case, he suspected Laura would still be in the guy’s sights.

The sooner he could track the monster down, the sooner she, and others, would be out of danger.

Friday morning, Laura again awoke early, this time just as the sun was breaking its sleep over the eastern horizon. She’d spent a restless night having vivid dreams she wondered might actually be memories, between waking up when nurses came to check her vital signs.

Several of those dreams she spent on a boat, heading out on the open water with the sun rising at her back and the greyish-purple horizon ahead of her to the west.

She managed to take a shower without help, that little victory raising her spirits somewhat until she got another look at her battered face in the mirror.

Who are you?

She desperately wanted to know.

Needed to know.

Fuzzy little bits of stray memories had started filtering back, but still nothing concrete she could hold on to. And nothing recent. She had no active memories of any substance concerning Rob, or Shayla, for that matter. Just her emotions about them.

Trying to avoid the mirror, Laura dressed and returned to her bed in time for the doctors to arrive for morning rounds. The neurologist in charge of her treatment, now that she was awake and otherwise healing, ran her through a brief series of questions and movements while talking with a gaggle of residents tagging along.

“Any idea when my memory might come back?” She knew it couldn’t hurt to ask even if she already suspected the answer.

He offered her a smile. “Unfortunately, no. I want to run at least one more MRI before we discharge you, though. I’m thinking we’ll shoot for letting you go home on Monday, as long as everything else seems okay.”

She nodded but didn’t reply. Part of her wanted to get out of there.

Part of her felt terrified to leave the safely guarded confines of the hospital. Other than Rob and Shayla, the outside world was still full of strangers she had no clue how to identify, much less whether they were friend or foe.

She didn’t even know where she lived.

A few minutes after the doctor left, her bedside phone rang, startling her out of her thoughts. She stared at it for a moment before tentatively reaching out to answer it.

“Hello?”

“Hi, sweetheart. It’s me. Um, Rob.”

Her fingers curled around the receiver. He sounded a little tentative himself. “Hi.”

“I just wanted to check in this morning and see how you’re doing.”

She felt a wistful pang she hoped boded well for rebuilding her relationship with him. “Thanks. Are you still coming by tonight?”

“Yes,” he quickly said. “Absolutely. And if anything happens, I already put the captain on notice that I might have to cut out.”

“I don’t want you to get in trouble.”

“I won’t.” She got the feeling he wanted to say something else. After a moment, he did. “No more memories?”

She thought about the dreams she’d had. “No. Nothing yet.”

“Okay.”

She couldn’t bear his sad tone. “I miss you.”

He suddenly sounded choked up. “I miss you, too, sweetheart. I’ll be there tonight as soon as I get off work. Carol’s walking Doogie for me, so he’ll be okay.”

“The doctor said this morning they want to do another MRI on me. They might release me Monday.”

That seemed to buoy his spirits. “That’s great! I’ll make sure I tell the captain so I can be there Monday for you.”

After they said their good-byes she stared at the phone. She’d need to ask Rob about her cell phone, what happened to it, or if he could bring it to her. Maybe something on it might help trigger some memories.

At this point, she’d willingly try anything.

Pastor Ben stopped by a few minutes later.

“So how are you today?” he asked.

She shrugged. “Still no memories. Nothing that really matters, anyway.”

“I’m not one to harp on a subject, but I would be professionally remiss if I didn’t mention again that I think you should consult with a psychiatrist. It might help.” He watched her when she didn’t object. “I can call my friend, Dr. Simpson. She has privileges here. Have her come here to see you for a consult. Her office is only two blocks away.”

With not just the pastor, but the doctors also pressing the issue, Laura finally caved. “Fine,” she quietly said.

“It doesn’t mean you’re ‘crazy,’” he firmly insisted.

She let out a frustrated sigh as she pulled her hair away from her face. “That’s what you people keep telling me.”

“You don’t sound convinced.”

“I don’t know what I am at this point. But I guess if it’s possible it’ll help me get my memory back I should try it no matter what my feelings are on the subject.”

“No idea why you feel the way you do about it?”

“No.” She let out a ragged laugh. “Maybe I was already seeing one.”

“Did you ask your fiancé?”

She hadn’t thought about asking Rob. “No,” she admitted.

I should ask Shayla. If anyone would know, it would be her.

“Well, I’ll call her as soon as I leave and see if she can stop by to see you today.”

They were still talking twenty minutes later when Laura’s breakfast arrived, almost immediately followed by Shayla.

Laura got up and hugged the woman, nearly making her drop the plastic food containers she was carrying.

“Sorry, I didn’t mean to interrupt,” Shayla said after getting the containers safely stacked on the bed tray.

Pastor Ben stood. “It’s quite all right. Laura, I’ll call Dr. Simpson for you and notify the nurses about it.”

“Thank you.” After he left, Laura eyed the containers. “What is all this?”

Shayla smiled. “I’m glad I got here when I did. I brought you breakfast.” She peeled the lid off one of the containers. “Spinach, swiss, and mushroom omelet. One of your favorites.” She handed Laura a fork. “Who was that guy?”

Laura climbed back into bed and took a bite of the omelet. It tasted as good as it looked and smelled. “Pastor Ben. He’s also a pastoral counselor. He’s going to call a psychiatrist for me.” She looked at Shayla. “Did I see a counselor or psychiatrist? Or have anything against them?”

Shayla took the chair the pastor had occupied. “No. Why?”

She shrugged as she forked another bite into her mouth. “I just have this…I don’t know. Visceral reaction to the idea of seeing someone. A psychiatrist. I mean the doctors talked about it, too. Said it might help, so I guess I should.”

Shayla looked thoughtful. “You’ve never said anything about it to me. I would think if you were going to tell anyone, it’d be me or Rob.”

“Hey, am I religious?” She studied her friend.

Shayla let out a snort. “No. Definitely not. You’re not anti-religious, or an atheist, or anything like that. You’re just…not.”

“Oh.”

“Why? Did Pastor Ben make you want to take it up?”

“No, not that. Just didn’t know if there was something I was missing out on. Or if I should be asking some higher power for help.”

Shayla wore a smirk.

“What?”

The other woman shook her head. “No, the only pleas to a deity I ever heard come out of your mouth had nothing to do with religion.” Then Shayla’s eyes widened as a sudden look Laura could only describe as horror crossed the woman’s face.

“What is it?”

A deep red filled Shayla’s cheeks. “Sorry. Nothing.” She stood and rushed into the bathroom, shutting the door behind her.

What the hell?

She set the food container on the bed tray and pulled herself back out of bed. It was getting a little easier to move around the more she did it. Walking over to the bathroom door, she knocked. “Shayla?”

Inside, she heard the toilet flush. “Just a minute.”

“Are you all right?”

“I’m fine.”

She was waiting by the door when Shayla emerged. “What did you mean?”

Laura didn’t need to have her memories to know the smile now pasted on the woman’s face was forced. “Just…you know. Girl talk. Sorry. I shouldn’t have said it like that. Is the omelet all right?”

Laura’s stomach growled in protest at being interrupted. “It’s delicious. Thank you.”

Whatever had hit Shayla seemed to be receding as she noticeably relaxed. “Let’s get you back into bed.” Laura let her gently take her arm and help her.

Their eyes met. “What aren’t you telling me?”

Shayla pressed her lips together until they formed a thin line. “You and Rob love each other,” she eventually said. “And you had a great relationship before…before this. I don’t want you hearing the things I have to say and it influences you one way or another about Rob.”

“Why? Are there things I shouldn’t know about him?”

“No, it’s nothing like that.” She studied her fingernails for a moment. “I started thinking about it last night. You and I told each other everything.” A little laugh escaped her. “Everything. And Rob and Tony both know that. And they don’t have a problem with it. But knowing it and suddenly having another woman telling your fiancée stuff you did, it might not make him very comfortable.”

She finally raised her gaze to Laura’s. “I’d feel better if you and Rob try to find your more…private memories together. Does that make sense?”

Oddly enough, it did. Laura nodded. “I just want to know everything. I want it all back. I want my life back. I want my memories back.”