A moment later she was horrified both by the wave of forgetfulness and by her own weakness. A month had passed, a month of hard work and fun. A month of living and preparing herself to live an independent and productive life. She had set a whole month between herself and him. A mighty bulwark, she had thought. But one sight of him, one touch, and everything had come crashing down again. The pain, she was sure, was worse than it had ever been.

She took her place in the line of ladies facing the line of gentlemen. She smiled—and he smiled back at her.

***

Elizabeth was still tight-lipped. She was looking about her for some friend whom she might join. The Duke of Portfrey gazed at her coldly.

"Take my arm," he commanded. "We will go to the refreshment room."

"I have just come from there," she said. "And I do not answer to that tone, your grace."

He sighed audibly. "Elizabeth," he said, "will you please accompany me to the refreshment room? It will be quieter there. Experience has taught me that a quarrel that is not resolved in the immediate aftermath of a heated moment is likely never to be resolved."

"Perhaps," she said, "it would be as well if this one never were."

"Do you mean that?" he asked her, the coldness all gone from his voice.

She looked at him—a long, measuring look—and then took his arm.

"Do you know Dorsey well?" he asked her as they walked.

"Scarcely at all," she admitted. "I do not believe we exchanged more than a dozen words at Newbury this spring. I was surprised when he applied to me for a formal introduction to Lily since he had seen her there. But it was hardly an unusual request this evening, and I knew of no reason to decline his request. Is there one?"

"He forced his attentions on Frances—my wife," he said. "Unwelcome attentions even after he knew that they were so. Is that reason enough?"

"Oh, heavens!" she exclaimed. "Oh, I am so sorry, Lyndon. I will not excuse him by saying that it was all of twenty or more years ago and he must have been young and headstrong. To you the offense must seem very fresh."

"He was desperate to marry her," he said. "Apart from the title, everything of Onslow's is unentailed, including Nuttall Grange. He had willed it all to Frances. When she would not accept Dorsey, he tried to—to force her into matrimony. It was one reason for our rushing into a secret marriage the day before I was to leave for the Netherlands with my regiment. There was the family feud, which made it difficult for us to marry openly. We both thought that when I returned we would be better able to persuade both families that our attachment had been of a long enough duration that it must be accepted. We were young—though both of age—and foolish. But at least the fact of our marriage could have been her trump card against Dorsey's insistence."

He had never before spoken of his wife, Elizabeth thought as they entered the refreshment room, which was deserted apart from a couple of servants who were doing something at a sideboard, their backs to the room. She had never liked to ask about his marriage.

"I can understand," she said, "why you dislike him so. He may, of course, have changed in twenty years, and there can certainly be nothing about Lily to attract his greed. But I will discourage any future attempt he may make to extend his acquaintance with her."

"Thank you," he said. "Keep her from him, Elizabeth."

She frowned suddenly and regarded him closely, her head tipped to one side. She did not care for the feelings she was experiencing. Jealousy? "What is your particular interest in Lily?" she asked him.

He did not answer in words. He did what he had never done before despite a close acquaintance of several years. He leaned toward her and kissed her fiercely on the lips.

"This must be the supper dance," he said, "the reason this room is so empty. Shall we go early to the dining room?"

Elizabeth fought to set her thoughts into working order as she took his arm. She felt, she thought with self-mockery, like a young girl fresh from the schoolroom who had just experienced her first kiss—all breathless and weak-kneed and eager for more. And hopelessly in love, of course. She was usually well disciplined enough to disguise that fact even from herself.

***

It was a slow and stately country dance in which they engaged. Since the patterns had them several times dancing about each other or joining hands, there were opportunities for some conversation. But Neville availed himself of none of them, and Lily for her part made no attempt to talk to him, though she smiled all the time they danced. Short snatches of conversation could deal with only trivial topics. Besides, any conversation under such circumstances might have been overheard. They danced in silence.

He knew they were watched. He knew that every look and gesture, every touch and word would be noted and commented upon tomorrow in many drawing rooms and that significance would be read into every detail. He found that he did not care.

She danced lightly and gracefully. She held herself proudly and elegantly. She looked as if she had always belonged in such surroundings. She was a beauty, a diamond of the first water. He could not—he would not—take his eyes from her.

He had come to London with hopes, albeit anxious ones. He had expected to find her miserable. He had hoped to be able to gather her—both figuratively and literally, perhaps—into his arms and assure her that he would protect her for the rest of his life even if she would not marry him. But she looked as if she belonged in Lady Ashton's ballroom. She looked poised and relaxed.

He felt almost as if he were seeing her for the first time. She had recovered the weight she had lost before coming to Newbury, weight she had never regained there. She was still small and slender, but she was all pleasing, enticing curves now. There were no traces left of the coltish, carefree girl he remembered so well. And none either of the beautiful, rather gaunt woman who had stepped into the church at Newbury. She looked now—

There were no words adequate to the task. She was femininity personified. No, too tame. She was everything he had ever wanted, could even want. Not just a companion, a wife, a soulmate. She was everything his body craved. She was—she was woman.

If this were only a waltz, he thought, he would maneuver her close to the French windows, twirl her through them, dance her into the shadows beyond the candlelight, and kiss both her and himself senseless.

It was not a waltz. They danced toward each other, moved about each other back to back, and returned to their respective lines without once touching, though he felt her body heat curl about him like a warm blanket. She held the smile she had worn from the start, but her eyes surely smoldered with an answering awareness to his own.

Thank God it was not a waltz. Her eyes merely smiled.

Honor dictated that he not even try to take advantage of her without her full and free consent.

Ah, Lily.

It was the supper dance, Neville realized as the set drew to an end, and she clearly knew what that meant. She took his arm without protest and allowed him to lead her into the dining room, where he was fortunate enough to procure them two places at a table slightly apart from any other guests. He seated her and brought her a plate of food and a cup of tea.

"Lily," he asked her, taking the seat beside her and resisting the impulse to take her hand in his, "how are you?"

"I am very well, I thank you, my lord," she said. Her eyes, which had smiled into his throughout the dance, were focused somewhere in the region of his chin.

"You look lovely," he told her. "But I could weep for your hair."

That drew her eyes to his, and he saw the old Lily in the amusement that lit them. "Dolly did weep, the silly girl," she said, "until I promised that I would still need her services. She used to spend hours on my hair. She is still always busy, though. I no longer iron my own clothes or do any alterations or mending."

"Or make your own bed or help peel potatoes or chop onions?" he asked her.

"Or those things," she agreed. "Ladies do not do such things."

"Unless they choose to," he said, smiling.

"They are too busy with other things," she told him.

"Are they, Lily?" he asked her. "Such as?"

But she would not tell him what had kept her so busy during the past month—apart from having her hair cut and learning to dance and behave like a lady. She changed the subject.

"I thank you for repaying the money I borrowed from Captain Harris, my lord," she said, "even though you were under no obligation to do so. I have called on them a number of times. Elizabeth said she would willingly spare me to visit them."

"Is she a hard taskmaster in general, then?" he asked.

"Of course not," she said. "Would I offend you, my lord, if I offered to repay what you sent to Captain Harris as soon as I am able?"

"I would be offended, Lily," he said. He added a further truth. "I would be hurt, my dear."

She nodded. "Yes," she said. "I thought you would. So I will not insist."

"Thank you," he said.

She had been toying with her food, he noticed. But then he had not even touched his own.

"May I call upon you, Lily?" he asked her. "Tomorrow afternoon?"

"Why?" Her eyes looked fully into his again. He was jolted by the question. Was she going to say no?

"I have something for you," he said. "Something in the nature of a gift."

"I may not accept gifts from you, my lord," she said.

"This is different," he assured her. "It is not personal. It is something you will certainly accept and delight in. May I bring it myself and put it into your hands? Please?"