“I want to see you again,” he stated simply. She searched his dark brown eyes for any hint of humor or malice, but there was none. He was telling the truth.
“Again as in now or as in later?” she asked.
“Now and later and many times after that.”
Liz swallowed. She didn’t know what she had expected, but certainly not that. It didn’t make sense. Why had he let her leave the club that first night? Why had he let her walk out of the hotel room? Why had he never called her back, sent his press secretary to fetch her, and then not finished off the job he started? That didn’t sound like a man who wanted to see her many more times.
She needed answers.
“If you wanted to see me again, why didn’t you call me?” she asked defiantly. She didn’t even have the patience to let him answer. “In fact, why did you even start something yesterday at all? You obviously knew you couldn’t finish, because you had some dinner.”
“Indeed, I did.”
“Now you’re coming to me saying you want to see me again, but you made no effort before this point,” Liz said. “Why did you even kiss me yesterday? Your actions seem rather mixed.”
“Because I wanted to kiss you, like I want to kiss you right now,” he told her.
Liz blushed. He had said that he wanted her multiple times, and yet he had left her dangling for someone else to scoop up for two weeks, letting her think it was a one-night stand.
“For someone who claims to know what they want, you don’t act like it.” She could see him tensing.
“Do you want the truth?” he asked, his tone flat.
“No, lie to me,” she said, with an eye roll.
His eyes narrowed, and she could see she was pushing too hard. “The truth is, I had to test you.”
“Test me?” she nearly squeaked out.
“I didn’t know for certain if you were sure about this,” he answered her.
“How thoughtful of you to inform me,” she said dryly. She was uncertain how the conversation had even gotten here. Brady Maxwell, a State Senator, was testing her to see whether she was sure about the two of them. How did this make any sense?
“People, women in particular, get close to a politician for a reason,” he stated bluntly. “I wanted to know whether you were that kind of woman.”
“And you decided I wasn’t?”
“With the fervor you kissed me back yesterday…no one could fake that.”
She hadn’t faked it, but she wasn’t so sure about his reasoning. “That’s it? A kiss?”
“You might have cleared the background check as well, but that’s neither here nor there.”
Oh, of course. A background check. “Seriously?”
“I had to be sure,” he told her flatly.
“Totally normal.” She wanted that to irritate her, but she found that it didn’t as much as she thought it would. If he was serious enough to look into her background, then he must really want to see her again.
“So, what do you think?” he asked finally.
“Well,” she said uncertainly, “I don’t know.”
“You don’t want to see me?” He apparently seemed amused at the thought. He knew she wanted to see him.
“I do,” she corrected. She couldn’t lie about that. “But I don’t know why you had to bring me here at seven o’clock in the morning to tell me that. Why didn’t you just come to my place yesterday?”
“Because I can’t see you when you want to see me,” Brady told her, pushing his diner coffee away and meeting her eyes.
Hers were already narrowed. “But you can see me when you want to?”
“Yes.” He didn’t even try to hide behind his charming words.
“Why? I don’t get it.”
“I want to see you, but in the position I’m…we’re in, it’s not possible,” he told her.
“What, because you’re running for office?” She knew she sounded incredulous, but it made sense. He wouldn’t want to risk anything…especially not on a woman, no matter his big talk.
“And you’re a reporter…a college reporter,” he reminded her.
“And I wrote that article,” she said, filling in the blanks.
“You did,” Brady confirmed. “While I don’t mind you pointing out my faults, the campaign and my opponents will see it as me giving up the nomination.”
“Why are you here then?” she asked, her anger mounting once more.
“Because I still want you. Weeks later, I still want you. And you want me too.”
Liz’s stomach dropped and all the anger she had been holding dissipated. He wanted her. She knew he did, but hearing it like that was intoxicating. She didn’t want to give him up. She was having a fucking hard time even concentrating on anything else. After he had left, it felt as if she had a hole in her chest. She didn’t know if it was the sex, because that had been fantastic, or if it was just Brady. As much as she wanted it to be the second, that idea scared the shit out of her.
“So, you want me, but you can’t see me?”
“I can’t see you on your terms,” he corrected.
“What does that even mean?” Liz asked, raising her voice. She immediately quieted down and looked around the restaurant. No one had even glanced at them. That was lucky.
“Look, I want us to continue what we’re doing, but in private. I don’t want to jeopardize my career…or your career,” he added quickly.
Liz breathed in and out deeply, realizing finally what he was saying. “You want a fuck buddy,” she stated as bluntly as possible. If he was going to be all out in the open, she wanted plain words. She wanted to know what he was offering…what kind of deal she was willing to take.
He sighed as if she was misinterpreting, but she was sure she wasn’t. He wanted to sleep with her, no strings attached, while he was on the campaign and too busy for anything else. She had heard of these kinds of situations before. She never knew how they happened…how they got started—apparently at seven o’clock in the morning at a dingy diner in downtown Chapel Hill over coffee.
“That’s not what I had in mind,” he said.
“No? That’s what it sounds like. So, what kind of situation is this?” she asked, her anger resurfacing. She didn’t even know where it came from, because it wasn’t as if she didn’t want to sleep with him, and it wasn’t as if she didn’t want to keep it a secret. Some innate trigger in her brain was firing and she was listening. “Do you get to sleep with other people? Are you going to be dating someone who fits you better in the spotlight? Should I find someone else to date in the meantime?”
“Liz,” he snapped, cutting off whatever she was going to say next. “I’m not here to argue the point. I’m not here to discuss terms. I want you, and I want you anytime I can have you. That happens to be a much more limited time frame. If you aren’t interested, then good luck with your paper.” He pulled out his wallet, threw two twenties on the table, and stood.
“Wait,” Liz said, reaching for his arm, “I didn’t say I wasn’t interested.” Her cheeks flamed at the admission, but she sure as hell wasn’t going to let him walk out of the diner.
His brown eyes stared right through her, as if measuring the honesty in her statement. “All right,” he said, sitting back down.
“Uh…” she began, nibbling on her bottom lip, “I’ve never exactly been propositioned…let alone at a diner first thing in the morning.”
“As much as I enjoy hearing that…I find it hard to believe. No one has ever come on to you?” he asked inquisitively.
“It’s not that,” she said, trying to find the words. “I’ve had boyfriends before, but I met them in…normal places, like school or work or something. But usually people aren’t that interested before getting to know me. Um…I’ve heard I’m intimidating.” She shrugged.
“Really?” he asked, looking her up and down. “I guess I could see that.”
She didn’t know how. She couldn’t figure out why anyone thought that.
“You’re a well-educated woman at a top university with staggering confidence,” he told her, filling in the blanks.
Liz looked down, overloaded by the compliments. “Well, I did bring a Senator to his knees once,” she said, trying to break the tension.
He chuckled softly. “I hope it’s not just once,” he responded.
Liz stared at the napkin resting on the tabletop. She wasn’t sure what to say. He was making a proposition that, to be honest, sounded downright appealing. It’s not as if they could ever come out and announce they were dating. It’s not as if he had asked to date her. He wanted her and he wanted her whenever he could have her. Those were his words…the terms he refused to discuss.
“You’re thinking too hard about this,” he told her with a shake of his head.
“I can’t think about it?”
“The longer you think about it, the more likely you are to make a decision I don’t agree with,” Brady answered.
“So, you’re saying if I think about it…I’ll realize how much of a bad idea it is to get involved with you?” she asked, arching an eyebrow.
“Something like that.”
“Well, that’s not true. I’ve already realized that.”
“It’s not a good idea.” His voice lowered and he leaned toward her. “I’m not telling you that it’s a good idea. But it’s the only idea.”
“Is that so?” she whispered, meeting his intense tone.
“Tell me you haven’t been thinking about me since we parted.” He waited.
She didn’t respond. How could she?
“Tell me you haven’t been thinking about me pressed against your body, the feel of my lips kissing every inch of your skin, me thrusting in and out of you in the dark hotel room. If you can tell me that, then I’ll let you go. No questions asked,” he said, sitting back once more and crossing his arms. “Because I haven’t stopped thinking about any of those things, and your flushed face tells me you haven’t either.”
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