Lily Dalton - Never Desire a Duke

She squinted, peering through the fog and snow. If she cut across the paddock and that little ditch, she’d join up with the public road and arrive in Lacenfleet even quicker.

Despite the snow lying deeper in the paddock than on the road, she at last arrived at the ditch, which upon closer inspection was not quite as little as she’d believed. Earthen walls cut rather steeply to a frozen, stony brook bed below. The smooth leather soles of her ladies boots, while suitable for a walk in the country, were less than ideal for such rugged terrain, especially when glazed with frost. Even so, she wasn’t about to declare a retreat. By doing so, she’d increase what had become a miserable excursion by at least another ten minutes.

She dropped her valise to the stones below and gingerly began her descent.

Sophia?” Vane traversed the vestibule, his mood darkening with each step.

He’d not located her in her room or the kitchen or elsewhere in the house. His wife had vanished. Not knowing where else to look, he ventured onto the porch to dispel the unlikely notion she might have ventured outside, which of course, she would not have done without telling him.

He sighted her instantly, a crimson spot in the paddock.

“Damn my eyes,” he shouted, his breath clouding the air.

How reckless for her to venture off into such inclement conditions and without telling him first. Without even having the courtesy to say good-bye. Bloody hell, she provoked him, but all he could think was that he had to get her back.

He stormed half across the field in pursuit when he heard her exclamation. Flailing, she dropped from view.

A sickening terror rose in his throat, along with the unforgettable details of another fateful fall. Vane broke into a run, sliding to a halt at the edge of the ditch. She sprawled supine, eyes wide open to the sky, her redingote and skirts flipped high, revealing her stockinged legs up to her garters.

Dead. This time Sophia was dead. This time, in her determination to escape him, she’d broken her lovely neck.

Scrambling over, he skidded down. Ice, rocks, and earth crumbled.

By the time he slid to a stop beside her, she stood on her feet, smoothing her skirts.

“Don’t say anything,” she muttered sullenly.

Thank God for his greatcoat. Otherwise, she would see the unmistakable evidence of his heart having exploded out of his chest. He couldn’t breathe. For a moment he felt certain he had died. He wanted to grab her by the arms and examine her body from head to toe for any sign of injury. He swallowed hard, struggling to temper his response.

“Good God, Sophia,” he shouted hoarsely. “Are you certain you aren’t hurt?”

“I’m perfectly well,” she answered testily.

“You shouldn’t have gone out in this weather.”

“I walk all the time and not always in perfect weather.”

He forced himself not to shout at her. “You shouldn’t have gone without telling me. What if I hadn’t seen you?”

“Ugh.” She clasped her hands over her ears, like a naughty child suffering an unwanted lecture. “I wish you hadn’t.”

“Come along.” With a scowl, he thrust the heel of his Hessian into the frozen earth and extended his hand.

She ignored his offer of assistance. Instead she bent to retrieve her valise, which had popped open and fallen onto its side. The open gap offered a tantalizing glimpse of something ivory trimmed with frilly violet lace. She stuffed the errant garment inside and secured the clasp. “You owe me no such courtesies.”

He did not withdraw his hand. “What sort of gentleman would not offer assistance in such a situation?”

She sniffed dismissively. “You have offered assistance, and I have declined. Now go.” She made small shooing gestures with her gloved hands. He could not recall the last time he’d been shooed.

“Don’t be ridiculous,” he said with all imperiousness.

“I’m not ridiculous.” Dark lashes flared wide against pale skin. “And I require no escort, which is precisely why I did not ask you to escort me initially. Your duty is done. Isn’t that what we decided on? I felt certain that’s what ‘I want a separation’ meant, that we would go our separate ways. So go yours now and I’ll go mine, at least until after the agreements are drawn. Then we will make arrangements to…well, to…” She exhaled.

“To do what?” he asked darkly, wanting to make her squirm, which to his satisfaction, she did, bristling up like a porcupine.

“Just leave me,” she exclaimed, leaning toward him. “Return to the house, and I will continue on to the village.”

“What happened to ‘Let’s not bicker, Claxton’?” He raised his voice several octaves in an imitation of hers.

“I’m not bickering.” She jabbed a finger at him. “You are.”

His head pounded at her obstinacy. “Did you not see how I found you? I thought you’d broken your neck. Don’t pretend as if a fall is of no concern. As if you don’t remember—”

“I remember, thank you very much,” she shouted. Set against the bleak backdrop of winter, Sophia’s countenance blazed brilliant, with raspberry-blush cheeks and bright eyes, and just like that, desire struck him, like a kick to his gut.

“If you must know,” she added testily, “I rather skated down the incline, and so as not to fall chose to deliberately slide down on my bottom there at the end. Not the most graceful move in my repertoire, but I didn’t expect an audience.”

Valise in hand, she carefully maneuvered the frozen brook bed, her delicate boots crunching lightly on the ice. She proceeded to the far side of the ditch, a path that would take her to Lacenfleet and away from him.

She muttered, “I’m not made of eggshells. I will not break from a mere bump or shatter from cold.”

Well, good. He did not regret so much, then, the near violent urge to grab her and shake some sense into her. And then kiss her senseless again.

Damn, but he wanted to kiss her.

Something about the cold weather and the way she looked so delectable bundled up in her redingote, scarf, and hat, like a little present waved in front of his nose that he’d never be allowed to open, kindled an already smoldering fire in his chest. A consequence, no doubt, of living the life of a monk for the past seven months, two days, and five hours, trying to become a man worthy of—

He ground his teeth together. None of that mattered anymore. He had made mistakes for which there would be no forgiveness. Now effectively set free from his vows, he would have a woman as soon as he returned to London. A pair of them, perhaps—both dark haired and green eyed and who looked like Sophia, if that was what he needed to shatter the fantasy of her and forget.

Still, he would not be dismissed. Not after he’d found her like that. She’d gone down intentionally, his eye. He followed her, the frost cracking loudly under his weight to a greater degree than when she had crossed.

She twisted round and eyed him like a haughty queen. She made a beautiful, regal duchess. He’d always thought so. “Really, Claxton, your husbandly concern is admirable. But as of last night, unless you have forgotten, I am to become an independent woman. Accordingly, I would appreciate being allowed to resolve my own difficulties from this point forward.”

It had begun to snow again quite heavily. “Sophia—”

“Good-bye.” She gave him her back again.

In silence he stood, observing as she climbed a few feet up the ditch wall, only to slide, scrabbling for purchase, down again. This sequence repeated numerous times until, at last, the amusement of watching her fail played out.

Vane stepped forward over the stones and grabbed the valise from her hands.

“Ah—don’t!” she shouted.

He extended the case out of her reach.

“It’s not that you are incapable physically of achieving the feat, dear girl.” He bent, leveling his nose with hers. “Rather, the cumbersome nature of your valise undermines your efforts, as does the impractical style of your clothing. But if you haven’t noticed, it has gotten colder and is snowing again. Any further delay is foolhardy.”

He tossed the leather case high over the ledge, where it landed with a solid thump. “There. Now come along.”

He reached for her.

“Not with you—” She pushed his hand away, allowing him the opportunity to capture her elbow in doing so.

“Go. Up. Now.”

Leading her by the arm, he hoisted her in front of him and half pushed, half lifted her up the remainder of the ascent. Taller and heavier by far, he anchored them on the slippery slope. She blustered and protested all the way, and though he held his scowl, he could not deny taking pleasure from every touch. Even padded with layers of petticoats and wool, his estranged wife was a rare, lush confection, one he wanted to push down into the snow to taste, eat, and savor. To touch her underneath her clothes with his mouth and his hands until she couldn’t even remember what the word separation meant.

But alas, there would be none of that. As soon as they reached level ground, where she regained possession of her valise, she stormed, pink cheeked, away from him and down the snow-laden public road.

Furious at his continued efforts to torment her, Sophia fumed away, but with his long legs, Claxton easily matched her pace. Wordlessly, he wrested her valise from her grasp, freeing her of its burden. This time he did not demand that she turn back, but walked beside her, his boots making easy work of the snow. For a long while, they tromped along without speaking until she could bear the quiet no longer. She had never been one for successfully brooding in silence.