I retired to Brunswick Square at last. After spending an hour with John and Isabella, I retired to bed.

As I went upstairs, I thought again of what Routledge had said. Marry Emma? Ridiculous!


Thursday 18 March

I thought of Routledge’s words again this morning. Marry Emma? Impossible! I am not in love with her, and my dislike of Frank Churchill has nothing to do with jealousy. It is just that I do not think it would be good for her to marry him. Now he is no longer in Highbury, I am sure Emma will think no more about him.


Monday 22 March

Work on the path is at last finished, and I examined it to make sure the work was well done, then went over the costs with William Larkins. We managed to spend more than we had anticipated, but it was well worth doing, and I am looking forward to getting John’s approval of it when he visits us.


Tuesday 23 March

Elton has named his wedding-day at last, and will soon be back among us. I heard it first at the whist club, where it produced a variety of reactions.

"Happy man," said Longridge, blowing his nose. "It is twenty-five years to the day that my dear wife and I were married. It was a beautiful wedding. Everyone said she was the prettiest bride they had ever seen. She was a wonderful woman, always cheerful, and always with some news to bring me. She took a great interest in life, Mr. Knightley, and was a source of much solace to me." He shook his head sadly. "The house is too quiet without her."

Cole was interested in the event in a more practical manner. He told me that Mrs. Cole had offered to find Elton a parlour maid, as Elton would no doubt require more servants, now that he was losing his bachelor status.

Weston said he hoped that Elton would be as happy as he is, but begged leave to doubt it, and then said that he would like to see his son find a good woman and marry, too.

After everyone had ventured his or her opinion on the subject, we settled down to whist. Weston had all the luck tonight, and declared himself blessed, whereupon Longridge offered that his wife had been a keen cribbage player, and had beaten him on many occasions. Cole hoped that Elton would still visit the whist club once he was married, and we parted in perfect amity.


Wednesday 24 March

I called on Miss Bates as I was passing this morning. I found Miss Fairfax trimming a bonnet for her aunt.

"So good, I am sure it is better than anything Ford’s has to offer, or indeed anything from London, Jane has always been so clever - yes, I thank you, well, though growing a little deaf, but Perry says she is remarkable for her age - I was going to trim it myself, some ribbon from Ford’s, but Jane had some in her workbasket, just the right shade…."

I was glad to find her in good spirits, and Mrs. Bates in health. Miss Fairfax still looked pale and ill. I hope that the better weather might bring an improvement. We had sunshine today, and if it continues, perhaps Miss Fairfax will regain her spirits.


Sunday 28 March

We had our first glimpse of Mrs. Elton at church today, and I"ll wager that not one woman in the congregation paid attention to the sermon, they all spent their time looking at the newcomer instead.

Very little of Mrs. Elton could be seen, save the back of her bonnet. It did not look as well as Miss

Bates’s bonnet to me, and Emma was amused when I said so.

"It has come from London, depend upon it," she said.

"It seems as though it could just as well have come from Bath to me," I said.

"As you are so much older and wiser than I am, I must of course defer to your judgement."

"Not so very much older," I said.

"And not so very much wiser," she said saucily.

I smiled, but would not give her the satisfaction of laughing.

"I may be allowed to be a little wiser, I suppose," I said.

"You may. But not where bonnets are concerned."

She teases me and bedevils me, she exasperates and infuriates me, but what would I do without Emma?


Tuesday 30 March

It is two weeks now since Frank Churchill left, and I have fallen back into my routine of regular visits to Hartfield.

"And what do you think of Mrs. Elton?" I asked Emma. "Or have you not yet had time to visit her?"

"Yes, I called on her yesterday," she said.

I was surprised that she had paid Mrs. Elton the compliment of an early visit, but I was also relieved. I am not perfectly sure of what happened between Elton and Emma, but I know her thoughts were not easy on that score, and yet she still performed her duty.

"And did you see her?"

"Yes, I did."

"Then you had better luck than I did. When I called, she and her husband were out. Well?" I asked, as no comment was forthcoming.

"She was very elegantly dressed," said Emma.

"In a London bonnet?" I asked her.

"In a London gown."

"And have you nothing more to say?" I asked in surprise.

"One visit is hardly enough to judge of someone’s character," said Emma, "but she seemed to be very pleasing."

She would say no more, but perhaps she might be ready to commit herself when Mrs. Elton has returned the call.

I did not meet the lady myself until later in the day, when I came across her at the Westons. I had called to speak to Weston about some hay, but as soon as the Eltons entered the room, everything of that kind was naturally postponed.

I had not been in company with Mrs. Elton for more than five minutes when I realized that she was not destined to become a regular guest at the Abbey. Between telling me how fine her brother-in-law’s house is; calling Elton by turns her caro sposo and Mr. E; informing me of her many resources - which, however, she seems determined to ignore now that she is a married woman - and saying that Emma was already a favourite with her; she managed to disgust me in as many ways as she spent minutes talking. How Elton could bear it I do not know, but he simpered and smiled as though he had brought home a jewel.

I was polite, however, and welcomed her to Highbury society.

"I would love to stay all day, but my caro sposo insists I return Miss Woodhouse’s visit," said she.

"I am looking forward to seeing Hartfield. Mr. E tells me it is very like Maple Grove. Did I mention Maple Grove? My brother-in-law, Mr. Suckling’s place?"

Mrs. Weston assured her she had, and Weston bowed her out of the room.

"A very elegantly dressed woman," said Mrs. Weston.

"Hah!"

She looked at me in surprise.

"That is exactly what Emma said!" I told her.

Mrs. Weston had the goodness to smile, and I knew our views of Mrs. Elton coincided.


Wednesday 31 March

I was eager to find out about Mrs. Elton’s visit to Hartfield, and I had an opportunity this evening when I dined with Emma and her father. Whilst Mr. Woodhouse fretted that he had not paid Mrs. Elton a visit - "A bride, you know" - Emma reassured him that his health would be his excuse.

I could get very little from her concerning Mrs. Elton, and she said no more than yesterday, but that in itself told me everything I needed to know.

"You do not like Mrs. Elton," I remarked. "So you have been subjected to her talk about her caro sposo and Mr. E as well, have you?"

"I have, though I think it is very unfair of you to ridicule her for demonstrating her knowledge of Italian - and the alphabet," she said to me saucily.

"I have no objection to her knowledge of either, but I have a lively dread of her displaying such knowledge in the most vulgar way possible. How Elton can stand it I do not know."

"He is in love. Allowances must be made," she said.

"Hah!"

She does not think that Elton is in love any more than I do.

"I am glad to see that your taste, which erred in singling out Harriet, and again in rejecting Miss Fairfax, and yet again in singling out that puppy Frank Churchill - yes, well - your taste, in this case, was not at fault," I told her. "Mrs. Elton is a vainglorious woman with a small mind who thinks she is bringing refinement to a quiet corner of the country, when she is bringing only change."

"At last, we think the same on something!" said Emma. "No, pray do not spoil it," she said, when I opened my mouth to speak again. "Let me savour the moment."

Impossible girl! But out of the goodness of my heart, I let her have her own way.

April

Friday 2 April

I was glad to find that Miss Fairfax had extended her visit, and would not be returning to London so soon as was expected.

"We are so glad, Mr. Knightley," said Miss Bates. "We are to have her for a full three months. She still does not look well. No, Jane, my love, you do not, though you protest you are very well indeed. When you were altering my gloves for me - such wonderful gloves, Mr. Knightley, quite the warmest I have ever worn, and bought from Ford’s, but just a little big around the wrist, and Jane kindly offered to take them in for me, as she was mending Mother’s petticoat anyway, and who should walk in but Mr. Longridge. A very kind gentleman, Mother is quite besotted with him - yes, you are, Mother, you know you are, for he comes and sits here for an hour or two together, and we are always glad of company, Mr. Knightley. He has asked me to give him my opinion on another house, Whitestones, you will know it Mr. Knightley, the Dodds have been renting it out but their tenants have left and they have decided to sell it. It seems a fine house to me but it is perhaps a little large for a single gentlemen. And then there is another house I have promised to see next week, Southdean, a pretty house with a stream, you know. I have always liked that house. It is not so grand as Whitestones, but I often used to think, when I was a girl, if I could choose a house to live in, that would be it. I painted it once, though not as well as Jane, she sketched it when she was eleven years old, do you remember, Jane? I believe I still have the picture somewhere, though I cannot remember where. I remember Mother saying to me…."