“You should not kiss your husband thus,” he said quite severely.

She cocked her head to one side. “I shouldn’t?”

“Nay.” His blue eyes darkened with heat. “You should do it like this.” He took her mouth with possessive passion, his lips moving against hers in ways guaranteed to scramble her mind.

Forgetting where they were, she returned his kiss with enthusiasm, burying her hands in the hair at his nape.

When he pulled his lips away, she was breathing heavily. So was he.

She brushed at his neck. “I seem to have gotten dirt from your mother’s garden on you.”

“’Tis your garden now.”

“I will share it with her, and keep her memory alive there for our children.”

Just like that, the emotion grew thick between them.

Talorc traced the line of Abigail’s lips with the hand not clasping her to him. “Thank you.”

Unused to being the recipient of such gratitude, she rubbed at the soil clinging to the sweat on Talorc’s neck. “What shall we do about this dirt?”

“Lucky for me, I was planning a swim in the loch.”

“You were?”

“I thought you would like to join me. I remember how much pleasure you found in the water at the hot springs.”

A blush of equal parts embarrassment and pleasure heated her cheeks. “I should like that very much.”

“Good.” Rather than release her as she had expected, he put his free arm under her knees and swept her up against his chest.

“I can walk.” But she didn’t say it with any heat. After all, she enjoyed being held this way.

“I like carrying you.”

She giggled in pure joy.

He nodded at someone else and only then did Abigail realize they had an audience. Men and women of the clan were smiling at them and calling out teasing comments. For once, Abigail did not allow the fact she had been unaware of them bother her. Nothing could diminish the pleasure she felt in this moment.

She loved her husband and had had the courage to tell him so. While he might never repeat the words back to her, he clearly cared about and liked her. That was miracle enough for Abigail.


She rode to the lake on Talorc’s horse with him, feeling a sense of belonging unlike anything she had ever known. They played in the water, not even pretending their primary purpose was bathing. Afterward, they made love in the sweet green grass, surrounded by the scent of heather.

As she climaxed she heard his voice saying something in what she recognized as Chrechte. She pretended it was “I love you.”

If she was going to hear a voice that existed only in her imagination, it might as well say something she would never see spoken on her husband’s lips.


Later Talorc sat on a rock and smiled at Abigail’s efforts to do her own pleats. Determined to prove that she could dress her pleats every bit as efficiently as her laird husband, she was concentrating on getting each fold precisely the same when she heard Talorc’s voice inside her head for the first time outside of making love.

“Abigail, run!” The urgency was so strong, she obeyed without thought, only to trip on her unpleated plaid and go crashing to the ground.

Air rushed over her and she looked up in time to see a huge gray wolf. Her mouth opened in a silent scream, but the wolf did not attack. He sailed right over her.

She scrambled to her feet, yanking her plaid off as she went. She looked for Talorc, but he was nowhere to be seen. She turned her head and saw a wild boar and the wolf in a fight. Abigail ran to Talorc’s horse, screaming her husband’s name.

She scrambled onto the big black stallion’s back and kneed him into movement. She had to find her husband. Something must have happened to him.

Terrified but unwilling to leave the man she loved behind, she turned the horse toward the forest from which the wild boar had come.

“Abigail! Go back to the keep,” Talorc’s voice demanded in her head.

“I won’t leave you,” she said in her own head, feeling more than a little crazy for replying to the imaginary voice.

“Obey me.” The voice had never sounded so harsh.

But it wasn’t real and no matter how insistent it sounded, she did not have to listen. She wasn’t leaving Talorc behind. She skirted the fighting wild animals, but kept her attention on them in case they lost interest in each other and came after her.

With a spray of blood, the wolf tore out the boar’s throat. The big gray beast put his head back and howled. Heavens above, she really was going mad. She felt an insane and almost irresistible urge to stop the horse and approach the wolf, to commend it for fighting so bravely and effectively.

The beast turned his head to look at her. Showing she truly had lost all sense, she halted the horse and stared back at the blood-covered wolf. If she didn’t know it was impossible, she would have thought the look the wild animal gave her was one of possession. That made no sense.

Without warning, the wolf spun and ran into the forest. Filled with trepidation and undeniable curiosity, she kneed the stallion to follow.

They had only gone a couple of yards when Talorc came striding out of the forest. He was covered in blood, explaining where her husband had been. He must have been fighting another boar. Guaire had told her the wild pigs with deadly tusks sometimes traveled in groups.

Talorc had been protecting her, and just like the massive wolf, he had clearly won his fight. He gave her an indecipherable look before turning to dive into the lake.

He did not come out until all the blood was gone.

Abigail had managed to get her plaid on while her husband bathed. He said nothing as he donned his own clothing.

“You are not hurt?” she asked. She had not seen any marks, but she could not be sure.

His jaw set, he shook his head.

“Did you see the wolf? I believe the beast saved my life.” She bit her lip. “Not that you did not protect me, too. Clearly you were in your own battle in the forest, but a second boar came into the clearing.”

“A second boar?”

She nodded and pointed to the bloody carcass. “Over there.”

Talorc stared at her for several tense seconds but said nothing.

She had spent years in silence, but this one felt more than a little uncomfortable. “I must rethink my view on wolves. Niall told me the gray wolf I met at the hot springs would never hurt me. You will probably think me mad, but I believe it was that wolf that helped you save me today.”

“It was.”

“You know this wolf, too? Is he a mascot for the clan then?”

“A mascot? No.”

“But he is a friend to the clan.”

“That is one way to put it.”

Wishing her husband did not look so very stern, she nodded. “What caused the boar to charge, do you think?”

“It is their mating season. Our presence may well have been the only cause.”

“Oh.”

He turned and headed for his horse. She followed, not sure what was going on between them. They had been so happy before the wild boars attacked. It had been upsetting to be sure, but Talorc acted angry. Though not overtly. It was like fury simmered under the surface and she did not understand why.

Was it because he believed he had not protected her enough? If the gray wolf had not shown up, the boar might well have gotten her. Talorc was the sort of man that would find reliance on another, even a wild beast, a trial. He often acted as if he believed he and he alone was responsible for the safety and well-being of his people.

He pushed himself and his warriors harder than any English baron she had ever seen or heard of.

Their ride back to the fortress was a silent one. Despite riding pressed one to the other, Talorc held himself apart from her behind an invisible but undeniable wall of hostility. Abigail made no attempt to speak, not knowing what to say. She only wished she understood what had upset Talorc.


When they returned to the keep, he led her directly to the great hall. She was surprised to find a handful of his elite warriors seated at one of the banquet tables. The evening meal was still a couple of hours off and the warriors did not usually come inside to congregate this early in the day. But Niall, Barr, Earc, Fionn and Airril were all there, along with Osgard’s glowering presence.

Una served water and mead to the seated warriors before scurrying from the hall with a single, baffled, backward glance at Abigail.

Guaire was there as well, standing on the other side of the room from the warriors, though he looked as puzzled by the presence of the other men as Abigail.

Talorc stopped in the middle of the hall with her. “Turn your back to the soldiers,” he instructed.

“What? Why?” She worriedly bit at her bottom lip. Turning her back on others was a recipe for disaster in Abigail’s silent world.

Anger simmered in his blue gaze. “Just do it.”

She did not understand his request and liked it even less, but she did not think now was the time to argue.

Hoping against hope that he would not speak while her back was to him, she turned. Talorc moved so that he had a view of both her face and the soldiers behind her. Because of his position away from the other soldiers, Guaire was the only other person whose face she coud see.

With a sick feeling, she suddenly began to realize what might be happening. Her stomach lurched while her hands grew clammy and her head buzzed with dizzy terror. She could not force herself to ask again what was happening because she feared she already knew.

She was being tested, and if what she suspected was true, the covering she had worked so hard to hide her secret behind was being ripped away with ruthless efficiency. She could pretend to “hear” whatever Talorc had instructed his men to do behind her. She could keep lying through her actions, if not her words, but there was no strength left in her for the subterfuge.