She began to eat and, with his eyes upon her, she swallowed the contents of her silver dish.

He filled a goblet with wine and toasted her.

“To you, my love! To your future! May it be great and glorious.”

“And to you, Brother.”

“To our future then, which is one and the same. How could it be otherwise?”

He came to stand beside her at the table; he put his arm about her and drew her to him.

She thought: He is the greatest man in Italy. One day all will acclaim him; and he is my brother, who loves me … no matter what he does to others. He loves me … and no matter what he does to me, how can I stop loving him?

She was conscious of the old spell, and he knew it even as she did; he was determined that tonight he would carry her across the bridge which spanned the chasm between past and present; when she was safely over, he would make her look back and see that the past was vague and as shadowy as the Sabine Mountains seen from the castle of Nepi.


* * *

They sat talking after the meal was over.

He wanted her to return to Rome. This was no place for her. She was young—only twenty—and was she going to spend the rest of her days pining for what could never be?

“I wish to stay here for a while,” she told him. “Here I have solitude.”

“Solitude! You were meant for company. Go back to Rome. Our father misses you.”

“He does not like to see me with my grief upon me.”

“Then he shall see you without it. He yearns to see you thus.”

“He cannot. So I will remain here where I may nurse my sorrow as I wish to.”

“You shall no longer nurse a sorrow for a worthless man,” cried Cesare.

She rose, saying: “I will not listen to such words.”

He barred her way. “You will,” he said. He took a strand of her hair in his hands. “It is less golden that it was, Lucrezia.”

“I care not,” she said.

“And this gown,” he went on, “is like a nun’s habit. Where are your pretty dresses?”

“They do not interest me.”

“Listen, my child, you will have a new husband soon.”

“Do you think to tempt me with husbands as you would tempt a child with sweetmeats!”

“Yes, Lucrezia. And speaking of children, where is this child of yours?”

“He is sleeping.”

“I have not seen him.”

There was fear in her eyes. Cesare noticed it and exulted. He knew now that if he could not bend her through anything else he would through the child.

“You have no interest in the child,” she said quickly.

Cesare’s eyes were sly. “He is the son of his father.”

“His grandfather … adores him.”

“His grandfather’s affection can be blown by the wind.”

“Cesare,” cried Lucrezia, “do not attempt to harm my child!”

He put his hand on her shoulder and grimaced as it touched the black stuff of her gown. “So ugly!” he said. “So unbecoming to my beautiful sister. Have no fear. No harm shall come to your son.”

“If any tried to kill him, as they killed his father, they would have need to kill me first.”

“Nay, do not excite yourself. Alfonso was a traitor. He sought to take my life, so I took his. But I do not concern myself with babies. Lucrezia, be serious. Be sensible. You will have to come back to Rome; and when you return you must be our merry Lucrezia. Let joyous Lucrezia come home and leave the weeping widow behind her.”

“I cannot do it.”

“You can.” Then insistently: “You shall!”

“None can force me to it.”

His face was close to her own. “I can, Lucrezia.”

She was breathless; and he was laughing again, quietly, triumphantly. The fear of years took on a definite shape; she clung to fear, loving fear even as she loved him. She did not understand herself; nor did she understand him. She knew only that they were Borgias and that the bonds which bound them were indestructible while life lasted.

She was almost fainting with fear and with anticipated pleasure. In her mind two figures were becoming confused—Cesare, Alfonso; Alfonso, Cesare.

She could lose one in the other and, when she did that, she would lose the greater part of her misery.

She was staring at Cesare with wide-open eyes; and Cesare was smiling, tenderly, passionately, reassuringly, as though he were taking her hand and leading her toward the inevitable.


* * *

He had gone and she was alone.

Everything had a different aspect now. The landscape was less harsh; she gazed often toward the misty Sabine Mountains.

Cesare had ridden away to fresh conquests. He would go from triumph to triumph, and his triumphs would be hers.

There were times when she wept bitterly; and times when she was triumphant.

How could she have thought that she could stand alone? She was one of them; she was a Borgia, and that meant that she loved the members of her family with a passion which she could give to no other.

Yet she was afraid.

She passed through many emotions. She washed her hair and ordered that her beautiful dresses might be brought to her: but when she examined her face in the mirror she was shocked by what she saw. She thought she saw secrets in her eyes and they frightened her.

She wanted to be in Rome with her father. Cesare would return to Rome some day.

She thought of their family relationship as something infinitely tender, yet infinitely sinister. She longed to be bound so tightly by those family ties that she could not escape; and then she was conscious of a longing to escape.

There were times when she thought: I shall never be at peace again unless I escape. I want to be as other people. If only Alfonso had lived; if only we had gone away together, right away from Rome; if only we had lived happily, normally!

She would tremble when she contemplated the future. Cesare had come to her at Nepi; he had disturbed the mournful solitude, the sorrowing peace.

With a shock she would remember that he was not only her brother; he was the murderer of her husband.

Then she knew she must escape the web into which she was being more closely drawn. She felt like a fly who has been caught on those sticky threads, caught and bound, but not so securely that escape was impossible.

Less than a month after Cesare’s visit to Nepi she called her attendants to her and said: “I have my father’s permission to return to Rome. Let us make our preparations and leave as soon as we may. I am weary of Nepi. I feel I never wish to see this place again.”


* * *

When Lucrezia arrived in Rome, the Pope treated her as though her stay in Nepi had been merely a pleasant little holiday. He did not mention Alfonso, and was clearly delighted to have young Roderigo back.

Cesare’s army was achieving its objectives, and the Pope was in a benign mood.

He walked with Lucrezia in the Vatican gardens and discussed the topic which was nearest his heart at the moment.

“My dearest,” he said, “you cannot remain unmarried forever.”

“I have been unmarried a very short time,” said Lucrezia.

“Long enough … long enough. There is something which irks me from time to time, daughter. I cannot live forever, and I would wish to see you happily settled in a good marriage before I left you.”

“A good marriage one week may be an unsuitable one the next, and marriage would seem, from my experience, a very unstable state.”

“Ah, you are young and beautiful and you will have many suitors. Cesare tells me that Louis de Ligny would most willingly become your husband.”

“Father, I would not willingly become his wife … nor any man’s.”

“But, my child, he is a cousin of the King of France and a great favorite of the King’s. His future is rosy.”

“Dearest Father, would you have me leave you to live in France?”

The Pope paused, then said: “I confess that has occurred to me as the great disadvantage of this match. Also the man wants an enormous dowry and makes fantastic demands.”

“Then we’ll have none of him, Father. I’ll stay in peace with you awhile.”

He laughed with her and declared he would snap his fingers at Louis’ friend. He would never consent to giving his daughter to any who would take her miles away from her father.

But it was not long before he spoke to her of another offer. This time it was Francesco Orsini, the Duke of Gravina, who was very eager for the match and had most ostentatiously given up his favorite mistress that all the world should know how seriously he contemplated marriage.

“It is a pity he has given her up,” said Lucrezia. “It was so unnecessary.”

“He would be a good match, daughter. Like others he is greedy, of course, demanding offices in the Church, with good benefices to go with them, for his children by his previous marriage.”

“Let him ask, Father. What matters it? There is no need for you to listen to his demands, for I shall not. Why do these men seek my hand in marriage? Have they not yet learned that my husbands are unlucky men?”

“You are so beautiful, so infinitely desirable,” said Alexander.

“No,” she answered; “it is simpler than that. I am the daughter of the Pope.”

“Soon,” went on Alexander, “Cesare will be home again. It makes me happy to have my children about me.”

Cesare will be home! Those words rang in her ears. She thought of Cesare’s return, riding at the head of his men, the gay condottiere who would conquer all that lay before him. She felt that she was firmly caught in the web; and she could see no escape from it.