An extra blast of wind whistled through the shutters and one of the candles blew out, scattering wax over the table. William swore quietly as a page ran to the fire for a brand to relight it and he lowered his voice suddenly. “There is plenty of labor and it would be a good jumping-off place should one ever have plans to move into Elfael.” He looked at her and raised his eyebrow again. “Well, woman, what do you say to the idea?”

She smiled. “It seems good. I won’t deny I’d feel safer with a sound stone keep if we must stay at Hay.”

He nodded. “We’ll return to Brecknock for a while, then you can come back to supervise the building when I rejoin the king in the spring. Give you something to do, eh, while you’re waiting to spawn that brat?” He laughed loudly and turned to pour himself more wine.

And so it was at Hay that Richard’s daughter Matilda was born, on a cool, crystal-clear midsummer night, bright with stars that seemed to have been borrowed from the frosts of winter. Jeanne delivered the child, a flaxen-haired scrap, then laid the offerings on the hearth. The baby was tiny-more like a seven-month child than either of Matilda’s lusty full-term boys, and William accepted her as such without a word of doubt, crossing himself as he caught sight of Jeanne muttering protective spells above the cradle, hastily turning away to his horses and his falcons. Alone again but for Jeanne, Matilda held out her arms for the child and took her, staring down at the delicate, perfect features. She had expected to feel an especial love for this child of her love. She felt nothing at all.


***

“Are you all right?”

The woman from the produce stall had reached tentatively into the car to shake Jo by the shoulder.

Jo clutched the steering wheel, her knuckles white. The car engine was idling quietly as the sun beat down through the windshield onto her face. She rested her forehead on the rim of the wheel for a moment, feeling suddenly sick and cold.

“Are you all right?” the woman repeated. “You’ve been sitting there for ages. I couldn’t make you hear me-”

“I’m sorry.” Jo looked up with an effort. “I think I must have fallen asleep-”

The woman looked skeptical. “You were staring up at the castle as if you were in a trance.”

Taking a deep breath, Jo forced herself to laugh. “Maybe I was at that. I’m sorry, and I’m parked in your way too. If you could help to see me out-”

“You’re sure you’re all right?” The woman did not look convinced as she straightened and stepped back from the car.

“Quite sure,” Jo said firmly. “Quite, quite sure.”


***

This Thursday was the third time she had been up to London in under a month, Dorothy Franklyn realized suddenly. She felt very tired.

Nick ordered sandwiches and coffee for them both in his office. “I’m sorry, Ma, but as you see I’m up to my eyes here today…I’ll get you a slap-up lunch next time you come up to town, I promise.” He smiled at her fondly. “Now, what can I do for you? Your call sounded urgent.” He had been looking at her with some concern since Jane had shown her up to his office. Her face was drawn and she seemed suddenly old and frail as she drew off her gloves.

She sat down on the low sofa that stood against one wall of the room beneath a colorful display of some of Franklyn-Greerson’s artwork. “I want to talk to you about Sam,” she said without preamble.

Nick closed the office door carefully and leaned against it. “What about Sam?” he asked.

“How do you think he is?”

“Fine. Sam has never been ill in his life, as you well know.”

“I don’t mean physically, Nick.” She fiddled with the clasp of her handbag.

“Then what do you mean exactly?” Eyebrow raised, Nick sat down beside her and reached for one of her hands. “What is this all about?”

She sighed. “I had a long talk with Sam the other day about Jo and he said some very strange things. I can’t get them out of my mind.”

Nick’s jaw tightened imperceptibly. “Jo has been doing some very strange things.”

His mother’s fingers closed around his and she squeezed his hand. She looked up at him. “Nick, you do know that Sam is very fond of Jo, don’t you?”

“Of course he is. He’s known her for years.” Nick leaned forward and helped himself to a smoked salmon sandwich.

She frowned. “I think it’s a little more than that,” she said cautiously.

“You don’t mean you think he’s in love with her?” She saw the quick flash of anger in Nick’s face, almost instantly masked.

“No,” she said hastily. “But I think he’s become too involved in this business of her past life. He said such weird things to me about it-I just think you and Jo should discourage him from discussing it with her any more. In fact, I think it would be much better if you could persuade him to go back to Scotland and forget about the whole thing. Get him right away from her.”

Nick looked at his mother suspiciously. “You really are worried, aren’t you?” he said after a thoughtful pause. “And it’s not like you to interfere. What are you trying to say to me?”

“I’m not trying to say anything,” she retorted sharply. “I have said it. Now, tell me, have you and Jo made it up yet?”

“No.”

She sighed. “Oh, Nick!” Her voice was wistful. “Then perhaps it doesn’t matter after all.” She picked up a sandwich and nibbled the edge of it. “I love you and Sam so much, and I’ve come to love Jo too. I don’t want any of you to get hurt, that’s all.”

Nick stood up abruptly. Turning his back on her, he strode toward the window and stared out. “No one is going to get hurt,” he said.

“I wish I could believe that,” she replied softly. She was watching her younger son with an expression of enormous sadness. If only she could tell him what it was she really feared, but with Nick’s temper she didn’t dare. She put down the sandwich and reached for her coffee. “Promise me something,” she said carefully. “If Sam should suggest that you ever be hypnotized like Jo, I want you to refuse.”

He turned. “Why?”

“I have a good reason for asking, Nick. You must never let Sam hypnotize you.”

“Too late. He already has.” He grinned wryly. “A little gesture of brotherly goodwill-and it didn’t hurt a bit.”

Dorothy stood up in agitation. Trying to cover it, she stopped and picked up Nick’s cup, carrying it to him as he stood there. “When did he do it?” she whispered.

“To be exact? The day before yesterday.” He took the coffee from her. “What is this really about, Ma? What are you afraid of?”

She shook her head and smiled. “Nothing. Just a superstitious fear of the unknown, I suppose. But I never thought you would do it. You used to be afraid even of falling asleep when you were a little boy-”

“It wasn’t like falling asleep. I remember every word he said-” He hesitated. “At least, I think I do-”

Her eyes shot up to meet his. “Oh, Nick-”

“It’s okay. There’s nothing to worry about. Sam knows what he’s doing.”

She turned away. “That is what I’m afraid of,” she said, so quietly he did not hear her.

Absentmindedly she picked up her sandwich again and stood staring at the wall on which hung a steel-framed silhouette of two children playing ball. It was several minutes before she could bring herself to speak again. “And did he find out who you were in Matilda’s past,” she asked at last, “or did he say you were not there at all?” She turned back slowly to look at his face. “Well, Nick? What did he let you remember?”

21

Jo did not want to stop. She wanted to drive on. She wanted to get as far away as possible from the Welsh Marches, where the name of every town and village seemed to beckon her back into the past. She was afraid that if she stopped it would happen again. The past was still there, floating on the edge of her consciousness, and with it the shadow of Matilda’s fear.

Driving blindly southward, bypassing Abergavenny, she realized suddenly she must have taken a different road from the one she intended. She pulled up at last, grabbing her road map, trying to force herself to concentrate on the network of roads on the page in front of her, tracing a route back toward London with her forefinger as the sun blazed down on the car.

She stopped for a late lunch in the end at Monmouth, drawing the car onto the side of the road, too tired to drive farther without a break. The garden outside the pub was cool and shady, and she found herself relaxing as she ate a fresh crusty roll and a plate of Stilton salad, and sipped a glass of cider. Her panic was retreating. She had come, after all, to find Matilda. What had happened by the Wye and outside Hay Castle was no more than she had hoped might happen at Bramber or as she ran her hands across the ancient walls at Clare. Somehow she had triggered off some sort of trance and the place had done the rest.

So why had she been afraid? She leaned back in her chair, staring with half-closed eyes up at the underside of the striped umbrella that shaded her table. What she ought to do was face this strange talent she had found within herself and bend it to her will, summon it once more and with it discover whether Matilda had heeded Jeanne’s warning.

Slowly she stood up and stretched catlike in the sun. Had Matilda ever come to Monmouth? she wondered. And if so, did she have the courage deliberately to try and find out?

Undecided, she walked slowly out of the garden and into the quiet road. She glanced with distaste at her car parked at the curbside; the thought of another four hours in the sweltering heat did not appeal to her, so she turned her back on it and walked on. The sun was now shrouded in haze, but it was still very hot as she followed a footpath between some old stone-built houses and made her way down to the Usk, where she sat down on a crumbling wall and watched a small lizard skitter over some dry moss and disappear into a crack in the stone.