“Is that what it is?” my father asks. “My Mimi eats my meat all the time and still stays thin as a rail. I can get you some really lean cuts that are low in fat, but will load you up with protein, so that you don’t feel hungry when you’re dieting.”

After then assuring her that her figure is gorgeous anyway, my father promises to get Joan what he called his “Mimi cuts” that would help her to diet more effectively. I could have sworn that I later even heard my mom giving Joan some of her best diet tips.

Which is odd, seeing as she never really shares them with me.

The band begins to play and Jack puts his hand out for me to take. I can’t help but recall that other time that Jack and I danced at a wedding—when we were at my ex-boyfriend’s wedding and I was pretending that Jack was my Scottish fiancé so that I could keep my dignity ever-so-slightly intact. Long story.) It was at that wedding, on that dance floor, that I realized that Jack was the man of my dreams and that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him.

We’ve had countless ups and downs since that night—too many even to think about—but we finally made it here. To the day of all days. Our wedding day. Where we’re dancing as husband and wife, and I truly couldn’t be happier.

Now, here, in the middle of Millie’s art gallery, I look around the room and see friends and family. All of the people who mean the most to us in this world. My parents, Jack’s parents, Jack’s sisters and brothers-in-law and Vanessa…All here for us. To celebrate this day with us.

It may not be the Pierre Hotel in Manhattan and it may not be a temple on the South Shore of Long Island, but all in all, I couldn’t have had a more perfect wedding if I’d actually planned it myself.

It is the happiest day of my life.

Epilogue

“Oh, my God, Vanessa,” I say, staring at her as she comes out of the fitting room, “you look so beautiful I think I’m going to cry!” And then, since I’m not the type to let a good occasion to turn on the waterworks pass, my eyes begin to tear up.

“Please don’t cry,” Vanessa says.

“You just look so beautiful,” I say, dabbing at a tear.

We’re at Monique’s townhouse where Vanessa’s trying on muslins for the wedding dress that Monique will be making Vanessa for her wedding to Marcus. (Her second wedding to Marcus, for those of you who are keeping count. And if you’re my mother, yes, it’s her second wedding to a doctor. And I haven’t even married one doctor yet. Now, I know Marcus isn’t a Jewish doctor, but still, in my mother’s eyes, a doctor is a doctor is a doctor).

“I hate it,” Vanessa’s mother, Millie says, “take it off.” And then, to Monique, “do you have anything with capped sleeves? It would hide how—how—skinny her arms are.” She whispers the word skinny as if, though standing two feet away from her, Vanessa cannot hear her.

“I can hear you. And I’m not skinny,” Vanessa counters, “I’m a runner.”

“When we were models, we had curves.” Millie says to Monique. And then, to Vanessa: “Maybe you should stop running a few months before the wedding. Just to let yourself fill out a little.”

“I don’t need to fill out,” Vanessa says to no one in particular. I offer Vanessa the glass of champagne Monique served us when we walked in, but Vanessa shakes her head “no.”

“Maybe Brooke can give you some tips,” Millie says. “Honey, what do you do to keep your curves so nice and curvy?”

“I eat raw cookie dough straight from the roll when I’m upset.” I offer, going for the rest of Vanessa’s champagne, but Vanessa’s got it before I do and downs the whole thing in one gulp.

“You know,” Millie says, “when I got married, I was Yves Saint Laurent’s muse.”

I excuse myself to go to the ladies’ room just as Vanessa is formulating an answer to her mother. Something about inheriting the brains of the family instead of the hips.

It’s strange, but for the past month I haven’t been able to kick this stomach flu that’s been going around. Sure, since I began taking the lead on cases at my law firm, I’ve been busier, but I don’t think that I’m so run down as to be ill for a whole month. Or maybe it’s the stress from becoming so incredibly important to the firm. Now that I’m running cases on my own, I’m sure I’ll be making partner any day now. Surely that must be it.

“I was the same way when I was pregnant with Vanessa,” Millie says as I walk out of the bathroom and back into the showroom.

“But, I’m not pregnant,” I say, laughing. I subconsciously put my hand over my stomach. Sure, it’s not as flat as it used to be, but in my new role as perfect little wife, I’ve been cooking for Jack and myself just about every night, and everyone knows when you cook a lot, you tend to taste everything.

Okay, okay, well, not so much as cooking every night as ordering in and then putting it onto paper plates. But I’m sure to put it onto very fancy paper plates, thank you very much! And I already told you that I’m becoming absolutely indispensable at my firm, so I really don’t have much time to be home cooking all the time, so get off my back, would you?

And, anyway, my husband seems to think that I am a woman of many other talents, so there.

So, I certainly don’t have any time to be barefoot and pregnant. Which I’m not. And I most certainly do not look pregnant, thank you very much! And even if I was, I wouldn’t be barefoot. I’d be pregnant in, like, totally cute shoes.

“Yes,” Millie says, “you should never tell anyone before your first trimester is up. But we can quietly look for a matron of honor dress that is expandable.”

“I don’t need an expandable dress,” I say.

“She’s not pregnant,” Vanessa says, grabbing my hand and standing by my side.

“Do you think you and Jack will find out if it’s a boy or a girl?” Monique asks, getting up from her sketch pad and joining in on the conversation.

“I’m not pregnant!” I say.

“Are you kidding?” Millie says to Monique. “She’s clearly having a girl! Just look at her face.”

They both lean in and examine my face as if they were scouts for Elite Model Management. Just what any normal woman wants: two gorgeous former models examining every square inch of her face at close range.

“What’s wrong with my face?” I say, feeling my hand fly up to my face without even thinking about it.

“Well, you know what they say,” Millie explains, “when you’re having a girl, it steals your beauty.”

“Okay, that’s it,” Vanessa says, thrusting her body, skinny arms and all, between Monique and Millie and me. “She’s not pregnant. She’s still beautiful, and more importantly, today’s really all about me. So, please focus.”

“I don’t mean that you’re not beautiful, Brooke,” Millie says, to me, “it’s just a saying. It’s an old wives’ tale that when you’re having a girl, your nose gets wider.”

My nose? Isn’t it enough that society drives us crazy about our weight? That we endlessly obsess about our thighs and our butts and our tummies? Now we have to worry about how wide our noses are?

Vanessa and I retreat to the fitting room to try on another muslin. As Vanessa steps into a strapless A-line with a fishtail, she whispers, “You’d better not be pregnant. You were supposed to wait for me to get pregnant!”

Yeah, right. As if I want to wait to be pregnant with a woman whose biggest problem in life is that she’s just too darn skinny. (I can just see it now—Vanessa’s mom: “Why isn’t your tummy getting as big as Brooke’s?” Vanessa: “Because we’re only two months along.” Me: “That’s just the way my stomach looks naturally.” I don’t think so….)


“I just thought it would be fun to take one of those things, don’t you?” I say, as I unpack the premade chicken parmesan that I picked up at Bernard’s Market on Third.

“You thought it would be fun?” Jack asks, getting out the plates and silverware.

“Yes, Jackie, fun!” I say, laughing. Really, since getting married, sometimes Jack can be such a fuddy duddy!

“Remind me what’s fun about taking a pregnancy test again?” Jack says, furrowing his brow.

“Well, I’ve never taken one, have you?” I ask. Jack regards me for a moment and I quickly explain: “I mean, a girlfriend of yours or anything.”

“There was this time in high school,” Jack says, “and then once in college. No, wait, twice in college—”

“You know what, forget it,” I say, and make my retreat to the bathroom.

I shut the door and put the pregnancy kit down on the sink. I look up at myself in the mirror. Having a girl steals your beauty. How ridiculous!

“How can you possibly be pregnant?” Jack asks me as I come out of the bathroom. “Aren’t you on the Pill?”

“Well, yes, Jackie,” I say, “I am. And I take it every day.”

“But…” Jack says. “I can tell there’s a ‘but’ coming up.”

“No ‘buts,’” I say, “I mean, there was this one day a few months ago, though, when I popped a Pill out of the container and it went flying into the sink and then down the drain. So, I suppose that I did skip just that one day. But, that’s okay, because I took it every other single solitary day that month, so I’m sure that it didn’t really count. I’m sure there’s residual Pillness left from all those other days that I took it, so I was covered.”

“Um, no, Brooke,” Jack says, running a hand through his shaggy brown hair, “I’m sure there’s not. That’s why you’re supposed to take it every day.”

“Well, I do take it every day,” I say, looking off out the window. “Almost every day.”