“You’re starting school in the fall?”

“Yep, they gave me a two year deferment which is nearly impossible to get unless you’re in the Peace Corp or something like that. However, given the job loss, medical, and financial issues my family encountered, I managed to get two years instead of one.”

He purses his lips to the side and the cogs in his head are so loud I’m certain the people across the street can hear them. “Has it ever occurred to you that there might be a special place in hell reserved for you and Alex for the great deception you both have going on with your parents?” Oliver raises a single brow.

“Without a doubt.” I laugh. “But if you feel like you’ve already been to hell and back, then for some reason a return trip in the afterlife doesn’t seem like such a big deal. You know what I mean?”

Oliver’s face falls somber. “Yes, I think I know what you mean. How long did it take you to get back?” His words are soaked in anguish; they’re heavy, sucking the air from the room.

I shrug, leaning back in the chair, still feeling ghostly remnants of my trip to hell. “A little less than two years.”

“How’d you know you were back?

I peek up at his tensed face and smile. “One morning I didn’t recognize myself in the mirror.”

Oliver nods, maybe pondering my statement as a metaphorical one, but it’s not. I mean it in the most literal sense.

“So have you always lived in Cambridge?”

He smiles. “Yes. Born and raised. I was the overachiever, steadfast in my determination to follow in our parents’ footsteps to graduate from Harvard and conquer the world. Chance, suffered from ADHD and while his grades were okay, he had no desire to sit in another classroom after he graduated high school. Our parents were disappointed, but they have always been loving and supportive of our decisions and they didn’t hesitate to help Chance get up and going with his own business.”

“Do you like working with Chance?”

“I like playing in the dirt. Working with Chance…” he grins “…that’s yet to be determined.”

“Do you miss Portland?”

“No. Shall we go? You still need to get me tipsy then make inappropriate sexual advances at me that we’ll both regret in the morning.” His eyes light up, maybe too much.

I’m. In. Trouble.

He’s sexy, irresistible, and … guarded.

* * *

Oliver

Clueless. I have no idea what the hell I’m doing wandering around chasing a young woman who does not need the head case that is Oliver Konrad. There’s only one problem: I can’t stop. Vivian is so plain she’s wildly interesting. I’ve never seen her pull out a compact or reapply lipstick. People stare at her because she is truly stunning, but she’s oblivious to every set of admiring eyes. When she clasps her hand with mine it feels as natural as folding my own together.

I deserve nothing, yet I want her every word, every smile, every laugh … and tonight I want her every touch.

“Which car is yours?” I ask as we approach her condo.

“I don’t have a car. I’m the queen of public transportation. It’s better for the environment, sometimes entertaining, but mainly it’s cheap.” She laughs. “Maybe when I’m CEO of the company that pushes Amazon off the map I will at least purchase an old beater so I can buy more than two bags of groceries at a time.”

“Pushing Amazon off the map, huh? That’s a mighty ambitious dream.”

She releases my hand to unlock her door. “Maybe, but I watched an interview of Jeff Bezos and he admitted that eventually another company would come along that would be better than Amazon because that’s just life. Nothing lasts forever and at some point the next best thing will happen.” She tosses her keys and purse down as we enter. “So why not me? Why can’t I be the next best thing?”

I follow her into the kitchen, trying not to stare at her legs that stretch to infinity.

“Beer or wine?”

“Water’s good.”

She gapes at me. “Water? Really? How are you supposed to get tipsy on water? How am I supposed to make inappropriate sexual advances?”

“You’re dangerous. I think I’d better keep my wits about me,” I say with a slow wink.

She laughs. “Yes, because I’m such a sexual predator. If you only knew.” Vivian hands me a glass of water and, as usual, she leaves me hanging with her mysterious comment.

A chime sounds. “Have a seat while I find my phone.”

She tosses a strange assortment of things out of her purse, such as yarn, a tank top, two Snickers, and a bottle of hot sauce before finding her phone at the bottom.

“What is it, Kai?” She rolls her eyes. “No, Alex has her car … well, get a cab. I thought you were going home. How stupid are you to go to the bar by yourself?” She turns her back to me, lowering her voice. “No, I’m busy. No, I have company. Not a date, just company. Well, then take the subway and go get your car in the morning, dipshit.”

She tosses the phone back in her purse and buries it again with her unusual necessities.

“Sorry, my friend’s girlfriend is out of town and I’m pretty sure she took his brain with her.”

“Do you need to borrow my car to go get him?”

“Hell, no! Kai is a bloodsucking leach. He takes and takes and loves to be coddled. He won’t drive home drunk, he just doesn’t want to leave his car overnight, but that’s just too damn bad.”

“You’re a little fiery tonight. Must be all that hot sauce you keep in your purse for whatever reason.”

She grins and her whole body relaxes as she sits next to me on the couch with her feet tucked under her. “I accidentally picked it up at a Mexican restaurant. I’ve been meaning to return it.”

“You can’t be serious.” I chuckle.

“Totally, it’s the difference between borrowing and stealing. I do have morals, you know.”

I’m hearing her, as evidenced by the uncontrollable grin on my face, but I also find myself counting the light freckles that dot the bridge of her nose and high cheek bones. If I connect them in the correct order will they uncover the secret of her addictive personality?

“Are you listening to me? Why are you looking at me like that?” She tilts her head to the side.

“Yes, borrowing, stealing, morals. Got it.” My hand moves to her face on its own accord. There’s an audible catching of her breath as I brush the back of my hand along her cheek. “Not a date, huh?”

She shakes her head. “We don’t … date. Remember?” Each word comes out as a shaky whisper.

I nod. “That’s unfortunate because if it were a date, I’d kiss you … like this.” I’m being a selfish prick. At some point over the past few days I’ve convinced myself that I need to taste her mouth. Lust-filled eyes fall to my lips as I lean into her. It’s all the permission I need. I brush my lips over hers, moving my other hand up to cradle her face. She melts into me as I tease my tongue over the seam of her lips. She opens for me and all the blood from my brain drains into my dick. I feel the slow throb building at a record pace.

“Mmm …” She vibrates over my mouth as I consume every inch of hers.

I’m dying to move my hands away from her face, down her neck, and over her breasts … breasts that I imagine are heavy with firm nipples. Just the feel of her nipples budding out from my touch would cause me to lose it. It’s been too long since I’ve touched a woman and Vivian is not like any other woman.

It’s the slow rip off of a Band-Aid as I pull away from her. She’s wide-eyed and breathless. I need to get the hell out of here. The entrance to the danger zone has been breached and the warning sirens pierce my ears.

Her tongue peeks out to brush along her lips like she’s savoring the taste of me on her.

“It is unfortunate.” She grins and my dick continues to strain against my jeans with no relief in sight as I see naughty intentions dancing in her eyes. “Because if it were a date and you kissed me like that, I’d want to crawl up on you … like this.” She sits up on her knees and straddles me with a leg on either side.

Oh fuck!

My hands rest on her hips as she lowers herself onto my lap. Those sexy green eyes shut when the apex of her legs meets the bulge in my pants. Her mouth goes slack as her breaths come short and quick with each prominent rise and fall of her chest. “And then I’d run my hands through your hair … like this.”

Her fingers lace through my hair. “And … oh God…” she licks her lips and swallows as her eyes shut for a brief moment “…the feel of your hard body against mine would make me want more of this.” She clenches her fingers in my hair, and with a firm tug she pulls my mouth to hers again.

I’m a caged animal ready to break out and attack her. It takes everything I have to not rip off her clothes and bury myself in her.

Shit! Shit! Shit!

Her hungry tongue strokes mine as she rocks her pelvis with the same subtle motion against my dick. I dig my fingers into her hips as she grinds against me. What the fuck is she doing to me? The sensible voice in my head speaks up. It always does, but I don’t call it the voice of reason. I call it the voice of ruin because it’s ruined so many moments that promised such pleasure.

I pull back. “If it were a date, I’d stay longer but … since it’s not I should––”

“Touch me,” she whispers through her labored breathing. “Show me how you’d touch me if this were a date.” Her words aren’t teasing or seductive; they’re a desperate plea. I watch her and through the silence between us I hear her with absolute clarity. My hands move up her sides and slide to her breasts. The thin material of her top does little to hide the equally thin layer of her bra covering erect nipples.