Vivian Arend - High Risk

“Of course. You think there’s something in there that would explain why I can’t remember details?”

He stared at her lips before slowly rolling his gaze down her body. “No. Just making sure your record is as clean as mine.”

Shit. A direct hit of desire to her core burst upward as if he’d aimed a bomb between her thighs. She squeezed her legs together to fight the urge to slip her hand into her lap. “Are you trying to distract me from talking about nightmares?”

“It’s your fault. I’m being distracted by your perfume. Suddenly I don’t want anything more for dessert but you. Any way I can have you.”

Her mouth went dry. “Marcus—”

“You on birth control? Because while I’d prefer to go without, we can use condoms. They’re a little tougher to deal with one-handed. You’ll have to help me put them on.”

“What are you doing?” Becki whispered, glancing around the room to make sure they weren’t being overheard. Their nearest dinner partners seemed oblivious, but Becki wasn’t sure if she should slap him or jump him.

Damn stupid body for mixing reactions.

Then he leaned back and relaxed, his body language shifting from sexual predator to casual friendship. “See, if you were prone to doing something irrational and wild? You would have at least thrown something at me for being a jerk just now, even though we’re in a public place. Only you’re not like that, Becki. You’re a good person. Whatever is hidden in your brain and pushing your buttons, it’s not that you were a crazed lunatic, okay?”

Her pulse was still going a million miles an hour. She was torn between laughing and punching him in the gut, but however twisted his method had been, it had worked. He had a valid point. While she might be impulsive, she had never done anything cruel or malicious, nothing to indicate the whack-job dreams were real.

His method of making his argument, however, had been over the top and outrageous. She smiled. Kind of in character for him as well. Good thing she was bent, but not broken.

One good—deed—deserved another.

“Yes.” She took a deep breath, filling her lungs and forcing her breasts against the fabric of her top. His gaze dropped from her face, involuntarily tracing the edge of her scoop-necked blouse as she arched slightly to make the swells ease upward even farther.

His breathing skipped a notch. “Yes, what? You agree you’re not a crazy woman?”

“Definitely not crazy. Good point.” She dragged a finger through the leftover chocolate on the plate before them, lifted it to her mouth, and slipped the gooey sauce between her lips. Sucking lightly and humming as she stared at him from under her lashes. “Also, yes. I’m on birth control. I far prefer being skin on skin during sex, but I’m picky about who I allow the privilege of partnering with me bare. Although the idea of putting a condom on you does sound . . . intriguing. I think I remember how.”

“Fuck.” Marcus breathed the word on a moan. His gaze lifted to meet hers, heat and desire widening his pupils. His nostrils flared. He adjusted position in his seat uneasily.

They stared at each other, Becki fighting to maintain her sultry smile without letting it turn into the real take me now expression that wanted to escape. Then he broke, amusement brightening his dark visage as he realized what she’d done. “Troublemaker.”

“You deserved that,” she insisted, hiding her real desires.

“Maybe. Probably.”

“Try definitely.” Becki smiled. “But as inappropriate and outrageous as we both were, you’re right. I don’t think I did anything wrong in September. I wish I could know for sure.”

“Hopefully someday. In the meantime, are we back on for training tomorrow? I have an idea to try. I think it should work.”

She shivered but straightened. “I’ll be there.”

It wasn’t the notion of hitting the wall the next day that followed her for the rest of the evening. Wasn’t the dread of going to sleep and once again experiencing a horrifying reenactment of Dane falling from the mountainside.

Something else made her blood hum the entire trip home as Marcus helped her in and out of the truck, walked her to the door of the dorms. Tipped an imaginary hat before strolling off whistling.

Sexual desire pulsed through her veins and heated her skin.

She’d never been one to leave herself hanging, and if she didn’t want to be on the phone and begging him to come crawl into her bed, something needed to be done now. Becki slipped her clothes off and shook her head at the waste of her pretty underwear not getting to be admired.

Then again, the expression on Marcus’s face when she’d mentioned going skin on skin? Fixing that image in her mind was more than enough to make her limbs tremble.

She grabbed her vibrator from the dresser, and slid into bed. The cool of the sheets brushing her torso as she squirmed into a more comfortable position didn’t do much to lower her temperature. She leaned back on the pillows and dropped the toy aside for a moment as she raised her hands to her breasts and cupped them, picturing Marcus across from her, his gaze never leaving her body.

Breasts gone heavy and needy, her sex already wet, she wasn’t interested in a long, drawn-out event. Not tonight, not when foreplay started after dinner. And while Marcus had taught her the value of patience, rule two was move decisively.

She lifted the vibrator and pressed it to her clit, keeping the motor on low, knowing that anything more would make her break far too soon for satisfaction.

It was the thought of his touch—tongue, fingers, cock—that she wanted to send her over. That wasn’t her pinching her sensitive nipples; it was Marcus using his teeth, his bite taking her to the edge where pleasure and pain blurred. His hand trailing between her legs to make her clit vibrate with need. His cock sliding deep into her, stretching as he thrust again and again. Faster, harder. Becki pulled her knees wide to the sides and felt him move over her, trapping her in position as he released the wildness she’d seen in his eyes. The need.

For her.

Her orgasm took hold and shook her hard, making her gasp as her core pulsed around a cock that wasn’t there. She breathed out and let the sensation roll through her, wishing for more.

Aching for more.

She dropped the vibrator to the side and curled up, trying to imagine him at her back. Surrounding her to keep the nightmares at bay.

She moved smoothly across the floor, body-hugging workout gear covering her, thin-soled climbing shoes on her feet. Marcus wondered if she was thinking about the previous climb, worried how her mind might respond to the challenge today, but her restraint was incredible. He could have asked her to join him for a cup of tea, she was so controlled as she paced to the equipment cubicles and pulled out her harness, then buckled and tightened without a word before turning to face him.

“Yes, sir. Where do you want me?”

Naked, in my bed shouldn’t have been the first thought in his brain. “Pitch three. Nice and easy. You’re going to use only the red route. We’ll see if having a focus will distract you enough to finish the climb with no troubles.”

Becki snorted. “You don’t think much of my skills if you think sticking to the red holds is enough to sidetrack me.”

He remained quiet as they both roped up. She lifted her chin to examine the route, and he saw it. A shiver as she reached to grasp the wall.

Shivered, but still went forward. Marcus admired her a whole hell of a lot in that moment.

“Wait. Put this on.”

He held out the fabric he’d brought with him, and a crease appeared between her brows. “What’s that? A flag to wave when I’ve had enough?”

“It’s a blindfold. Put it on. Now.”

She swallowed. “But—”

“I’ll be your eyes. You have to trust me. And you’ll have to concentrate, because once I tell you where a hold is? I’m not telling you again. You have to keep the location and shape in mind for when you’ll need it for your feet.”

“You expect me to climb blind?” She wiggled the cloth. “You’re insane.”

“You’re just mad you didn’t think of it first.”

A snort of amusement escaped her. She glanced at him, and for the first time real fear showed in her eyes. “Marcus, what if . . .”

He shook his head. “No. Don’t question. Yourself, or me. Do it. Put on the blindfold, Becki, and put yourself into my hands.”

Her tongue snuck out for a second, and he fought the urge to go catch her against him and slip his own tongue along her lips. To taste her. To take. The headache that had haunted him over the past days was gone, replaced with lust like he’d not experienced in a long time.

He’d never had a cure like her around before.

Becki lifted her hands and pressed the dark material over her face, knotting the fabric behind her head. “I’m not going to ask where you found the blindfold.”

He ignored the temptation to list the other toys he planned to use on her someday. “Turn, right shoulder back.”

She straightened and took a deep breath, her chest moving too rapidly. “Marcus . . . I—”

“My voice. Listen to it. Nothing else. I’m your anchor, and I won’t let anything happen to you. Do you trust me?”

Her chin dipped briefly.

“Right shoulder back,” he repeated.

She obeyed, moving slowly, hands rising to shoulder height. “If I make it through this unscathed, you should win some kind of award.”

He planned to be rewarded, all right. Just hadn’t decided exactly how much he was going to take. “Stop. Right hand out. Finger hook hold at two o’clock.”