the curve of her mouth.
Suddenly, his fingers were touching her collarbones and mov-
ing to her back, gliding across the surface of her skin as it began to flush and heat.
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“Let me do things the right way,” he pleaded, his hands cupping
her face.
“How could this be wrong?” she whispered back, eyes dark and
desperate.
He kissed her again, and this time she shamelessly wound her
right leg around his hip, trying to recreate their tango against a wall from the Royal Ontario Museum.
He pressed forward until her back was flush against the door to
her room, his hands roaming up and down her thighs, before pulling back suddenly. “I can’t.”
Julia removed his glasses in order to smooth the creases around
his eyes, and saw passion, conflict, and love staring back at her. She unwound her leg from his hip and pressed their lower bodies together.
“Gabriel.”
He blinked at the sound of her voice, as if she was awakening
him from a dream.
When he didn’t move, she placed a few inches between them
and handed him his glasses. “Goodnight, Gabriel.”
He looked stricken. “I don’t mean to hurt you.”
“I know.”
He remained perfectly still, staring down into eyes that were
filled with sadness and longing. “I’m trying to be strong for both of us,” he whispered. “But when you look at me like that…”
He kissed her lips softly and nodded his acquiescence as she
fumbled for her slide card, and the two of them disappeared behind her hotel room door.
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Early the next morning, Julia left the comfort of Gabriel’s warm
embrace to tip toe to the washroom. When she returned, she found
him wide-awake and gazing at her with concern.
“Are you all right?”
Blushing, she smiled. “Yes.”
“Then come here.” He opened his arms, and she snuggled close,
placing a leg over both of his.
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“I’m sorry if I embarrassed you in the hallway.”
“You didn’t embarrass me.” The urgency of his tone took Julia
aback. “How could I be embarrassed by the woman I love showing
me that she wants me?”
“I think we gave some of the other guests a bit of a show.”
“And some inspiration,” he spoke against her lips, kissing her.
When they broke apart, she rested her head on his shoulder. “I
guess you’re serious about waiting until the wedding.”
“You weren’t complaining last night.”
“You know me.” She winked at him. “I don’t like to complain.
“Thank you for compromising, Gabriel.” She tightened her arms
around his waist. “Last night was important for me.”
“For me too.” He smiled. “I could see that you trust me.”
“I’m glad, because I’ve never trusted you more.”
He kissed her again, before pushing a lock of hair away from
her face. “I have something to tell you,” he said, his fingers gently running up and down her neck. “Something strange.”
Her eyebrows knit together curiously.
“Go ahead.”
“When I was back in Selinsgrove, I saw something. Or rather,
something happened to me.”
Julia covered his hand with hers, stilling his fingers. “Were you
hurt?”
“No.” He paused uncomfortably. “Promise me you’ll keep an
open mind.”
“Of course.”
“I thought it was a dream. When I woke up, I wondered if it
was a vision.”
She blinked. “Like when you thought you saw me in Assisi?”
“No. Like what you said about the Gentileschi painting while
we were in Florence — about Maia and Grace.
“I saw her. Grace. We were in my old room at my parents’ house.
And Grace told me…” Gabriel’s voice broke. He struggled to compose himself. “She told me that she knew that I loved her.”
“Of course she did,” Julia murmured, hugging him more tightly.
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“There’s more. She had someone with her. A young woman.”
“Who was she?”
Gabriel swallowed roughly. “Maia.”
Julia gasped, her eyes wide.
“She told me she was happy.”
Julia wiped a stray tear from Gabriel’s face. “Was it a dream?”
“Perhaps. I don’t know.”
“Did you tell Richard? Or Paulina?”
“No. They’ve both made their peace.”
Julia placed her hand against his cheek.
“Maybe you needed this in order to forgive yourself — to see that
Grace and Maia forgave you and that they’re happy.”
He nodded wordlessly, burying his face in her hair.
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On their flight back to Boston, Julia surprised Gabriel by
telling him that she would welcome his proposal. His happi-
ness could barely be contained in the first class section of the airplane.
She expected that he would drop to one knee immediately.
He didn’t.
When they arrived in Boston, she expected him to take her shop-
ping for wedding rings.
He made no such plans.
In fact, as September flew by, she wondered if Gabriel was going
to propose to her at all. Perhaps it was the case that he merely assumed that they were engaged and planned to pick out wedding rings at
some later date.
Gabriel warned her that the doctoral program at Harvard was
challenging and that the professors were highly demanding. In fact, he remarked more than once that the average faculty member who
taught in her program was far more pretentious and ass-like than
he had ever been.
(Julia wondered if such astronomical ass-like levels were humanly
possible.)
Nevertheless, his warnings hadn’t quite prepared her for the
amount of work she was required to do on a daily basis. She spent
long hours in seminars and also in the library, keeping up with her homework and supplementing the reading from her classes. She met
with Professor Marinelli regularly and found that they enjoyed a professional but comfortable rapport. And she worked tirelessly on her Italian and other languages, in preparation for her competency exams.
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Gabriel encouraged her, of course, and he did his very best not
to pressure her about spending time with him. He was busy with his new position and had immediately taken over the supervision of three doctoral students, having relinquished Paul to Katherine’s capable direction. But full professors have more leisure time than graduate students, and so Gabriel spent many an evening and weekend alone.
He began volunteering as a tutor at the Italian Home for Children
in Jamaica Plain. Despite his somewhat limited success, under his
supervision a small group of teenagers developed a lively interest in Italian art and culture. The Professor promised to send them to Italy if they graduated high school with a respectable grade point average.
Though he kept himself busy, each day ended as it began, with
him alone in his now renovated house, missing Julianne.
He seriously contemplated buying a dog. Or a ferret.
Despite her overall busyness with graduate school, which was a
welcome distraction, Julia continued to be frustrated. Their separation was unnatural, uncomfortable, cold, and she ached to breach that separation and be one with him again. The fact that she couldn’t made her terribly sad. All the romantic activities short of intercourse couldn’t erase that kind of loneliness. And there were only so many times she could listen to comforting music while lying alone in her single bed.
Sexual desires can be satisfied in many ways, but she longed for
the attention that he paid to her when they were making love, the
way he lavished single-minded devotion on her as if there were no
one and nothing else on earth. She coveted the way she felt when he touched her naked form. For in those moments, she felt beautiful
and desirable, despite her innate shyness and unease about her body.
She desired the moments after sex, when they were both relaxed and sated, and Gabriel would whisper beautiful words in her ear, and
they would simply be in one another’s arms.
As the days passed, Julia wasn’t sure how long she could tolerate
their disconnection without lapsing into a depression.
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One day at the end of September, Julia opened the door of the
Range Rover and silently slid into the passenger seat. She buckled her seatbelt and gazed out the window.
“Sweetheart?” Gabriel reached his hand out to push her hair
away from her face.
She stiffened.
He withdrew his hand. “What’s wrong? What happened?”
“Sharon,” she mumbled.
Gabriel reached over to gently turn her chin in his direction.
Her face was puffy, and her skin was blotchy and uneven. She’d been crying for a while.
“Come here.” He unfastened her seatbelt and tugged her over
the center console and onto his lap, which was no easy feat. “Tell me what happened.”
“Dr. Walters brought up all this stuff about my mother. I didn’t
want to talk about it, but she said that she wasn’t doing her job if she let me suppress everything that happened in St. Louis. I took as much as I could take and then I left.”
Gabriel grimaced. Dr. Townsend had been making similar com-
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