New York is already on full alert for the holiday season. Christmas is in two days and New Year’s Eve – and one point five million people in Time’s Square – is coming fast. With the nutso arrested in Seattle in the last couple days, security has increased, given the fact he had a plane ticket here.

Maybe there’s a convention of paranoid, psychotics being held in New York?

Well, other than the usual.

We’re heading over to the network to do background work for our story. Finding this guy shouldn’t be too big a problem for the FBI – he sticks out like a sore thumb even in Texas. We’ll need a full background on him for when we run our segment. And I want to find out if he has ties to any other Eco-terrorist organization. I doubt it. He seems like a lone gunslinger, but I don’t want to miss a connection.

And it’s always good to see what’s happening at the network level. Especially when my Little Roo has ambitions for bigger and better assignments. And, well, so do I. It’ll be good to stir the pot a bit while we’re here.


* * *

I smile as I wrap my arms around her pillow and crush it to my chest. It holds her scent, like the entire room holds the scent of our loving-making from earlier, before she went out to dinner with one of the high mucky-mucks from CBS.

Funny how after a short time I can miss her like this. Odd really. This is a unique sensation, to actually miss someone. I don’t think I’ve ever done that before. Of course not, Harper, you have to know their names to miss them.

Since we checked in with the station, our cell phones and hotel room have been inundated with calls from the networks, ours and the others. And as we work on our story, we’re taking time to be courted. We’ve done some damn good work together these last few months – the library shooter, Omaha, and now this one. If we play our cards right, we’re poised for something big.

I have two or three lunches set up and I know Kels has at least one lunch and another dinner at some point. Of course, nothing says we have to make this move together.

I wonder if she plans on leaving me. Or if she even is considering doing this together. Just because we’re partnered up at KNBC doesn’t mean we would have to be anywhere else. She may just get a fabulous offer and take it and not even think twice about me. It’s not like we’ve made any promises to each other. Of any kind.

I’m surprised when the phone rings, shaking me out of my morose thoughts. I hope it’s Kels, slipping away long enough to call me. God, Harper, get a grip. Repeat after me: I am not in high school. "Hello?"

"Harper?" The male voice throws me a bit before I recognize it. It’s Erik. Great just what I didn’t need tonight. I can’t feel much worse right now, buddy, so lay off.

"Yeah. Sorry, Erik, Kels is out to dinner. I can have her give you a call when she comes in."

"That’d be great." He pauses, then clears his throat slightly. "Look, about the other day…"

"Ah, don’t sweat it." I want to be bitchy with him, but I know that would be so very, very bad. And it’s not like he doesn’t have a point. My track record sucks.

"No. I was a jackass and I’m sorry. I’m really protective of Kels and I …well, never mind. I only wanted to say I’m sorry for the way I acted. To be honest, I haven’t seen her this happy in years."

"Really?" I perk up. Now the conversation is getting interesting.

"Yeah, really." I can hear him settle back into a leather chair. Apparently, we’re going to chat. "Did she ever tell you our story?"

"No." Can’t say I’ve ever cared enough to ask.

"You interested?"

Ah, hell, I have nothing much better to do right now than miss Kelsey and get depressed about the future. Getting to know Kels’ best friend isn’t a bad thing. Still, "Are you sure you should?"

"Hey, it’s my story too." He lets out a little laugh.


I can tell by his nervous laugh that this is something very important to him. Thus, it’s important to Kels. "Sure, I’ve got the time, if you do."

"For you, I’ll make the time. I think you need to know."

Interesting. I settle into the bed and grip Kels’ pillow closer to my body as I listen to the voice on the other end of the line.

"I ran away from home when I was fifteen. My father drank too much and beat me, and my mother sold her body for drugs. I wanted to get away from it. I ended up in L.A. Big dreams for a stupid kid. You know the story."

"Un-huh." I have seen it one too many times, played out at some crime scene or the other.

"Well, true to form, I fell right into the Sunset Strip pit. Hooked and hooking. I didn’t give a damn who I sold my body to as long as I got enough for a fix."

"Jesus. I’m sorry, Erik." It never ceases to amaze me how adults are willing to fuck over kids for their own pleasure.

"One night this beautiful, young, blonde woman stops at a red light. I don’t know why, but I went over and gave her my pitch. Normally, I didn’t approach the real attractive ladies. They don’t need to pay for sex, you know. But, she just looked so … inviting. That’s not the right word. But, something drew me to her. I gave my speech and she told me to get in. That was another thing. I never would get into a buyer’s car. Kids who did very often died. But, something about her made me get in. She took me home and never let me go back to the Strip. She cleaned me up, and put me in rehab to clean me out. She held on to me for dear life. She saved my life."

"And she made you the centerpiece of her story on child porn and prostitution," I venture.

"Yeah, but under a different name since I was minor. The station paid for my rehab and a couple other incidentals. Look, I was happy to help with her story. And she did everything for me without expecting it."

"So, how old was Kels when you first met her?"

"Twenty-two. She was brand-spanking new in Los Angeles, a little cub reporter for KNBC. She wanted something juicy to start off with and she found me."

That makes Erik my age. I never would have thought. He seems so much older. So serious.

"She was living with a cop at the time. Although the station, of course, thought they were just roommates. CJ was a few years older than Kels and had been around the block a few times. She managed to get guardianship from my parents, her brother was a lawyer and he helped out. My parents were only too happy to be rid of me. CJ, and Kels, put me in school and kept me on the straight and narrow. Three years later, I graduated at the top of my class and entered UCLA on a scholarship."

So, I think Beth was first, then came the cop, then Susan, now me. How many more have there been? Not that I have a right to be asking, but I am curious. I also want to know what happened to the cop, but I don’t ask. If Erik wanted to tell me, he would.

"They didn’t make it past my freshman year together," he offers as if he has read my mind. "Don’t get me wrong, Kels loved her and CJ was wild about Kels. It nearly killed them both to give each other up. But Kels couldn’t stand watching CJ put on a bullet proof vest every night to go to work."

"If they loved each other so much, why didn’t the cop give it up?" Not, why didn’t Kels get over it? But, why didn’t this CJ make her happy?

"She would have, if she’d been asked, I think. Kels didn’t go that route. She loved CJ and didn’t want her to give up what made her happy. I don’t think Kels realized that she was what made CJ the happiest."

So she loved this woman, huh?

"They managed to make a good split. They don’t see much of each other nowadays. But when you see them together, you can tell they loved each other and maybe, to some extent, still do."

You don’t pull any punches do you, Erik, boy?

"The point is, there are a few of us out here who really love Kels, and we don’t want to see her hurt anymore. She’s been badly hurt in the past and she doesn’t deserve it. I’m really, truly sincere when I say if things were different for us, I’d marry her in a heartbeat. I love her more than I’ve ever loved anyone in my life."

So CJ saved your soul but Kels won your heart, eh? "Yeah, well, we have that in common at least, Erik." I’ll let him decide for himself whether I’m referring to not wanting to see Kelsey get hurt, loving her more than anyone else in my life, or wishing I could marry her.

In fact, maybe I should decide on that for myself.


* * *

"Go!" I grumble at her very quietly, giving her another little shove. "I can handle this." We’re arguing in the middle of the FBI field offices. We’ve been working from here all morning, and now she doesn’t want to leave for her lunch appointment.

"That is not my point, Kels. I know you can handle this. Just like you handled SA Donovan."

Oh, she’s so cute when she’s jealous. I think I’ll keep her.

"Look, I handled him well enough to get us a desk and a phone. Now, I want you to go to lunch with CBS and order the most expensive thing on the menu," I tease, giving her another nudge.

"I don’t like leaving you alone."

"Christ, Harper, I’m surrounded by forty heavily armed FBI agents, who somehow found out about my little problem back in LA." I cross my arms and give her a slightly accusing look. "How do you suppose that happened, hmmm?"

"I wouldn’t know." She kicks the floor with her shoe. It’s adorable.

"Please, go to lunch and enjoy it. I’ll be fine and I’ll be right here when you get back."

"All right, but if you need me, I’m a call away."

"Yeah, well, so am I." I wink, taking a seat at the desk in the corner. "Go!" I smile, shooing her away. I hear her grouse as she turns on her heels to leave for lunch.