“This!” She held a small book in her hand. “My grandma kept this with her all the time. She even slept with it at night. Before she died, she said she wanted me to tell their story. How her and my grandfather met, but… the thing is… although my grandfather gave it to me, he never gave me the key.”

“We don’t need a key.” I held out my hand.

Trace placed the small leather case onto my palm. It was secured with a pretty legit lock, but it was also really old. I pulled at the lock a few times.

Tex chuckled and said in a terrible impersonation of my voice, “We don’t need a key.”

I flipped him off and tried again.

“Idiots.” Mo sighed. “All of you.” She held out her hand. “Give me the book.”

“Pardon?”

“Give me the book.”

“What? You looking for a mirror? Mo, just let the guys take care of this one, okay?”

Trace slapped the back of my head so hard I could have sworn my teeth went numb. “Asshole, hand her the book.”

Cursing, I dropped it into Mo’s hands.

Tex chuckled. “Trace totally just proved her true heritage right there. I swear if I had a dollar for every time my ma smacked the back of my head—”

Mo did the honors that time, making Tex almost spill his wine as he caught himself against the table.

Tracey followed Mo to the breakfast bar, where Mo dug through her purse. She pulled out something small, and then fit it into the lock. Three seconds later she was dangling the leather book in front of my face. “You were saying?”

“Girls rule, boys drool?” I offered sarcastically as I snatched the book from Mo and turned to the first page.

“ ‘Secrets are hidden in our past—they define our future. This, my love, is our story. In these pages you will find all you need to know. All there is to know. Always my love—Grams.’ ”

“Well.” I turned the page. “That wasn’t cryptic.”

Everyone was silent as I turned to the next page and read aloud. “ ‘I saw him across the room—’ ”

Tex groaned.

Laughing, I continued. “ ‘I shouldn’t have looked, but I couldn’t help myself. He wasn’t mine to stare at, yet I was still staring. And I knew… I would have him and damn your grandfather to hell. Damn him for keeping it from me, and damn him for buying my silence. I would be with this man, I would get back at the Alferos in the name of my family’s honor—They destroyed what I had, and because of them, I refuse to keep my silence any longer.’ ”

I swallowed and closed the book. “Shit.”

“Maybe this isn’t the best thing to be reading…” Trace tried to grab the book but I snatched it away.

“We’ll read every damn page. Together, okay? But we need to know what she knew, Trace. I know we’re grasping at straws, but unless Phoenix talks or someone confesses, it’s all we have.”

Her gaze flickered to Tex’s, Mo’s, and finally Chase’s. He nodded at me and then placed his hand on Trace’s. “Nixon’s right.”

“Okay.” She squeezed his hand and then turned to me. “But we read it together, agreed?”

“Agreed.”

The book may as well have been a guest of honor. It sat on the table the rest of dinner earning curious stares from everyone, Trace included.

Finally, once we were done eating, I grabbed the book and nodded toward the wine. “Might as well make it a party.”

“Thank God,” Mo whispered. “I’m not sure I can make it through dirty laundry without wine and I know Trace is gonna need it. It’s her grandmother, after all.”

Trace smiled but didn’t laugh. We walked into the living room and sat down, each of us with a glass of wine.

“Who wants to read it?”

“I vote Chase.” This from Mo. “He always got straight A’s in reading class and I’ve always wondered why the teachers found his voice so alluring…”

“I was seven.” Chase glared.

“He started so young.” Tex put a hand over his heart. “Now read, bitch. I have a seven a.m. lab to look forward to.”

“Right away.” Chase saluted and picked up where I’d left off. “ ‘I followed him with every intention of propositioning him. I wanted to feel desire. Perhaps, the De Lange right hand man could give it to me?’ ” Chase choked and closed his eyes. “Yeah, feeling like a perv right about now.”

“Read!” everyone yelled in unison.

Chase cleared his throat and kept reading, “ ‘He went outside. He lit his cigar in the shadows, and then I saw another person walk up. They exchanged pleasantries about the weather, and then he was handed an envelope. I remember thinking it was so strange, to be handed an envelope and not examine what was inside first? It meant they trusted one another. I had no way of knowing that the next day he would be dead. Nor that it meant my own husband would be blamed. My shame was exposed for all to see, for I had to tell everyone what I’d seen and why I saw it. I did not think he would ever forgive me. But he did and that’s why I’m writing this story. To explain forgiveness to you, Trace. So you understand, that when you read the final chapter of this story, it does not mean the end for your family or for his. It is okay for you to love him.’ ”

Shaking, Chase set down the book and laughed awkwardly. “Um, any chance your grandma was psychic or something?”

Trace’s mouth was still hanging open. “Um, no, no chance. What the hell?”

“Alzheimer’s?” Chase pleaded, ignoring Trace’s question.

“No.”

“High? Was she high a lot?”

“Chase!” I smacked him. “Seriously?”

“How else would she know?” Chase pointed at the book. “How else would she know about you—”

“That’s just the thing,” Mo piped in. “How do we know it’s Nixon she’s talking about? And not Tex? Chase? Any guy?”

“Good point.” I licked my lips and watched as Chase’s eyes lit up. Oh, hell no. “But”—I cleared my throat—“chances are, she’s just saying ‘him’ as an example, right? I mean, who knows.” Chase handed the book back to Trace.

“Right,” Trace whispered and held the journal close to her body. “I think we should all… go to bed. Maybe reading that first entry will help me remember?”

Tex yawned. “Fine, but if I dream of your grandma having sex, I’m coming into your room and firing a gun into the ceiling.”

“You do realize that the bathroom is directly above her bedroom?”

Tex shrugged. “So pray I don’t hit the toilet tank.”

“Gross.” Trace rolled her eyes while Mo hit him again and waved good night to everyone.

Leaving me, Trace, and Chase awkwardly looking at each other. Whoever said threesomes were a good idea was clearly deranged.

“I, um… I’ll just be in the room.” Chase brushed by me and jogged down the hall.

Tracey’s eyebrows furrowed as she watched him run away like a scared deer. “Is he okay?”

I put my arm around her shoulder. “Of course. Why do you ask?”

“He’s not himself.” Her eyes met mine. “I mean, he’s acting like he hates me one minute, then the next it’s like he’s going to break down and cry. Chase never cries.”

“Chase never cries.” I tilted her chin toward my face. “He’s fine, I think the pressure’s just getting to him. After all, he’s trying to still pass his senior-year classes, protect you, and not have a nervous breakdown all before he turns twenty-two.”

“But why aren’t you acting that way?” Her face appeared so dejected. I couldn’t tell her the truth—that Chase was acting that way because he was a man in a tough spot. And she was only making it tougher. I wasn’t sure if I should just tell her in order to get her to lay off for a while, or just let things play out.

Her lips curved into a smile. “Something’s on your mind.”

“You.” I kissed her nose. “You’re always on my mind.”

“Good.” She hugged me and inhaled against my t-shirt. “Can we be together tonight?”

With a heavy sigh I shook my head. “Trace, I wish we could. I know our security is the shit, the house is on lockdown, we have men everywhere, but it’s a huge risk. If something happened and you were in my room and someone happened to see it was me and not Chase? Yeah, I’m not willing to take that chance.”

“Then why don’t I just stay in my own room?”

I tucked her hair behind her ear. “Because, I don’t trust any of my men as much as I trust Chase. He would take a bullet for you without blinking.” Which both aggravated me and made me relieved. He’d do anything for her—I was counting on that loyalty to keep her safe from death—but from him? Jury was still out. At this point I didn’t trust anyone. I just knew that if Chase was taking care of the love of my life, at least I could sleep at night knowing she wasn’t in danger.

“But—”

I pressed my finger to her lips. “I love you. And I promise, this weekend, I’ll find a way for us to be together. Would you like that?”

“Yes!” She pointed her finger in my face. “But it better be a date. A real date, with real food, and fun and—”

“Stop trying to tell me how to be a man. Pretty sure I rock at the date stuff.”

She rolled her eyes. “Right, because last time we didn’t get chased by men with guns.”

I shrugged. “First date bad luck. Nothing more.”

Her laughter was like balm to my damaged heart. “Fine, I trust you.”

“Do you?” I grasped her hand within mine. “Trust me?”

“With everything.”

“Your safety?”

“Yes,” she breathed.

“Your life?”

“Of course.”

“Your heart?” I whispered across her lips.

“You tell me, Nixon.” She dipped her fingers into my hair and pulled my head down to hers. Her mouth met mine in a frenzy. “You’re the one holding it.”

I sighed in relief and kissed her hard on the mouth, pushing her farther into the hall where we were hidden from any windows and blanketed in shadows.