“Well…” Now I feel stupid. “Yes.”

“Britain.” He directs me toward the bed. “I would spend all day between your legs to get you off and enjoy every fucking second of it.” He pushes me down and climbs on top of me. “So don’t you dare apologize.”

“O-okay.”

He lowers his head and whispers against my throat, “And you taste amazing.”

I buck my hips against him, and he grins.

“I need you,” I plead. “I need you to fuck me, Jaime.”

“Did you have a fantasy about that, too?” he asks in a deep, seductive voice, crawling up to kiss me.

“Many,” I breathe. “So many.”

His eyes flash. “Tell me about them.”

I groan. “Can’t we just do it? I’m dying.”

“I think you’ll live,” he says flatly. I growl at his patience and I know I’m not getting out of this one. He leans forward and whispers into my ear. “Tell me, Britain, how did I fuck you in your fantasies?”

I shiver and try to swallow, my mouth suddenly dry. “I always… I always imagined you’d be rough.”

His gaze shifts to playful, but there is still something delectably dark in it. “How would I take you?”

“Give me some credit, Jaime. It wouldn’t be the same way every time.”

He thinks for a moment. “So, you drew me up in your head as being surprising.”

I try reaching for the zipper on his pants when I realize that he’s only shirtless, but he captures my wrist and holds me down.

“Did you only have these fantasies while I was being a douche to you, Brit? Because you should probably see a shrink about that.”

“Oh, shut the fuck up. You’re always being a douche to me.”

Suddenly, he lifts me and flips me over. I gasp in surprise, listening to the release of his zipper, the shuffling of his jeans sliding down, and the crinkling of the condom package.

“Was this one of them?” he asks. “Me sneaking into your room in the middle of the night…” his hands run up my thighs and grip my ass. “Touching you for the first time, being mesmerized by how fucking gorgeous you are.”

I grin against the duvet, squeezing my eyes shut when he parts my legs and slips between them.

He grabs my hips and pulls me to him. The head of his cock rubs slowly against my opening, and I cry out, “The Jaime of my fantasies would finally decide to stop being such a damn tease!”

He pushes into me with one thrust.

I can’t believe this is happening. I claw at the duvet as he slides out of me and slams back in repeatedly, hoping he’ll never stop until… well, until he does.

“I can’t do this,” he says, holding my hips still.

“What?” I cry, out of breath. “What do you mean?”

He releases me, falling onto the bed next to me. “I thought the whole rough thing would go over well if I took you from behind.” He props himself up on his elbows and leans in, his lips grazing mine before he says, “But then I won’t be able to watch you when you come.”

I shiver at the impact of his words. He falls back again and grabs my wrist, urging me to climb on top of him. I press my palms flat against his chest and lower myself down as slow as I can force myself to, feeling him fill and stretch me, inch by precious inch. He groans at my pace, bucking his hips until he’s completely inside me.

I squeeze my knees together to keep him from moving too much and flip my hair to the side, grinning down at him mischievously. “But you can’t be rough with me this way.”

He squirms beneath me as if to try and prove a point, but I keep my legs pinned against either side of him, trying not to melt when his hard length shifts inside of me.

“Oh, so this is a game to you?” he asks darkly. He grips my hips again, pushing me up until he slides out and yanking me back down. I scream in pleasure. He does it again and again, and I throw my head back, the pressure at my center building.

“I’m so close,” I breathe.

When his thumb finds my clit, I’m pushed over the edge. It takes every fiber of my being not to shriek my release. I bite down hard on my lip as my orgasm escapes me in small whimpers and gasps. He allows me to ride out the wave of intense pleasure, guiding my hips to keep me bucking on top of him. Finally, his eyes flutter shut, and he comes.

I wait until he’s done gasping for breath before I lean forward, kissing his lips gently. This was the one thing that I never got to play out in my fantasies—the aftermath. But now he’s staring at me, our sweaty bodies still joined, our breathing still ragged.

Finally, he says, “We should have done that a long time ago.”

I hum in agreement, sliding off of him and resting my head against his pillow.

“If I knew you were getting yourself off to me, I would have snuck into your room in a heartbeat.”

“Yeah, but the thing is, at fifteen, it was only a fantasy. If you came into my room and offered to fuck me senseless when I was fifteen, I would have probably screamed in embarrassment and terror.”

He chuckles and rolls onto his side, facing me. “Just like you did when I tried to kiss you?”

“That’s what terribly self-conscious fifteen-year-olds-do. Plus, I can imagine you probably sucked at sex back then.”

He furrows his eyebrows like he’s insulted. “And what about now? Placing me in the midst of your vast experience—″

I elbow him.

“How do I compare?”

I kiss him again, tugging lightly at his bottom lip with my teeth. “You make me feel… naughty.”

“That’s it?”

“And you keep me from worrying about my job.”

“So essentially I’m a distraction with a penis. Is that what you’re saying?”

I stare at him in attempt to see if he’s being serious. His eyes lack the playful glint they had in them earlier.

“It makes me wonder…” I pause, choosing my words carefully, “what it would be like to be with you.”

He cups my jaw, running his thumb along my bottom lip. “Why do you think I auditioned for your stupid magazine?”

My eyes widen with realization. I wait with my breath held for a long time, but his gaze doesn’t falter. “I thought you said it was because of your agent.”

“Well, it was a good paying gig. That did a lot to persuade me. But it was also the fact that ever since I left for Stan State, I couldn’t stop thinking about you.”

“I loathed you.”

He grins. “Maybe I had a younger sister fetish. Or maybe I’ve always secretly had a crush on you.”

“Always?”

“Okay, since I was twelve.”

I giggle, but I’m not detracted from the real situation at hand. “Are you serious?”

He presses his forehead to mine, fingers tracing down my neck. “Is it so hard to believe that I auditioned to see who you were all grown up?”

“Maybe,” I mutter against his mouth. “It’s a little…” I kiss him, “unbelievable. Mind-blowingly unbelievable.”

His tongue darts out and grazes my lip. “What if we tried this?”

I can’t believe he’s suggesting it. Jaime never had girlfriends, as far as I could tell. He had fuck buddies. “I thought you didn’t want my parents to find out.”

He thinks for a moment, like he’s weighing the situation. “On the one hand, yeah, dealing with your parents would probably be miserable. On the other hand, I think I could definitely get used to waking up to you in the morning.”

This is way too much to process.

And I won’t right now. I refuse to, because my mouth is consumed by his, his hand pushing its way higher and higher up the inside of my thigh.

Chapter Nine

Evan


I’m on a date with Dallas.

Not a homework date. Not some I’ll-cook-you-dinner-and-we’ll-watch-some-television-in-our-sweatpants make-out-fest.

A real date.

We don’t drive anywhere. Neither of us have cars, and even if we did, driving in Boston is a bit useless. We get in a cab and Dallas tells the driver to take us to a bistro in Somerville.

The east coast is so different from California. In California, everything is much bigger. Here, the restaurant he wants to take me to is tucked around the corner and down a stairwell, at the bottom of this old, brick building. Even the door is much narrower than I’m used to.

The restaurant itself is bright and clean and very west coast—not at all what I’m expecting. The waiter takes us to our seats and hands us our menus. I look down at the entrees.

Everything’s vegan.

I glance back up at Dallas, who is busy studying the menu as though it’s a critical exam. “How long did it take you to find this place?”

“Not long,” he says without looking up. “The internet is a marvelous place. What the fuck is a sorrel?”

I bite back my grin. “It’s a vegetable, obviously.”

“Obviously. Everything here has to be a vegetable.” He glances at me above his menu.

“Thank you,” I tell him.

He says nothing and returns to studying the menu items.

I want to say something to him about today’s shoot, but everything coming to my head sounds so insensitive. So… Britain couldn’t catch half of what you were doing to me in the mud today. Are you sure you were just working? Or, I’m really horny from what you started but didn’t finish earlier today… you wanna meet me in the bathroom for a quickie?

I’m actually thinking about saying the last one as a joke. I almost do, except then I realize it’s not very funny considering how true it is.

Before I can say anything, the waiter comes back. Dallas orders a stupid-expensive pinot noir. He knows it’s my favorite wine. I order the curry and he orders fettuccine, and with our menus gone, we have to stop ignoring each other. So it’s either talk about today’s shoot or talk about the fact that he wants to prove he’s still in love with me.