“I can come back, or wait, or—”

“No.”

“Is that all you’re going to say to me? Just no?”

“No,” she said again without any hint of irony or humor. “It’s not all we’re going to say.”

Mac and Laurel stepped up behind her. As battle plans went, he had to admit it was superior. No choice but surrender.

“Whatever you’re going to say, I deserve. You want me to say I was wrong? I was wrong. That I was an idiot? I was. That—”

“I was thinking more along the lines of selfish prick,” Laurel commented.

“That, too. Maybe there were reasons, maybe there were circumstances, but they don’t matter. Certainly not to you.”

“They really don’t.” Mac eased forward a step. “Not when you hurt the best person we know.”

“I can’t fix it, I can’t make up for it if you don’t let me talk to her.”

“She doesn’t want to talk to you. She doesn’t want to see you,” Parker said. “Not now. I can’t say I’m sorry you’re hurting, too. I can see you are, but I can’t say I’m sorry for it. Not now. Now, this is about Emma, not about you. She needs time, and she needs you to leave her alone. So that’s what you’re going to do.”

“For how long?”

“As long as it takes.”

“Parker, if you’d just listen—”

“No.”

As he stared at her, Carter started down the hall from the kitchen. Carter shot him one brief, sympathetic look, then turned around and walked back again.

So much for male solidarity.

“You can’t just close the door.”

“I can, and I will. But I’ll give you something first, because I love you, Jack.”

“Oh God, Parker.” Why not just roast his balls? he thought. It couldn’t be more painful.

“I love you. You’re not just like a brother to me, you are a brother to me. To us. So, I’ll give you something. I’ll forgive you eventually.”

“I’m not on board with that,” Laurel told him. “I have reservations.”

“I’ll forgive you,” Parker continued, “and we’ll be friends again. But more importantly, Emma will forgive you. She’ll find a way. Until she does, until she’s ready, you’re going to leave her alone. You’re not going to call her, or contact her, or try to see her. We’re not going to tell her you came here this morning, unless she asks. We won’t lie to her.”

“You can’t come here, Jack.” The slightest hint of sympathy eked into Mac’s voice. “If there’s any problem or question with the work on the studio, we’ll handle it by phone. But you can’t come here until Emma’s okay with it.”

“How are you supposed to know when that is?” he demanded. “Is she just going to say, ‘Hey, I’m okay if Jack comes around’?”

“We’ll know,” Laurel said simply.

“If you care about her, you’ll give her all the time she needs. I need your word.”

He dragged a hand through his hair as Parker waited. “All right. You, all of you, know her better than anyone. You say this is what she needs, okay, it’s what she needs. You’ve got my word I’ll leave her alone until . . . until.”

“And, Jack,” Parker added, “you’ll take that time for yourself, too. Time to think about what you really want, really need. I want your word on one more thing.”

“Want me to sign in blood?”

“A promise will do. When she’s ready, I’ll call you. I’ll do that for you—and for her—but only if you promise to come here and talk to me before you go to her.”

“All right. I promise. Can you just get in touch once in a while, let me know how she is? What she’s—”

“No. Good-bye, Jack.” Parker closed the door, quietly, in his face.

On the other side of the door, Mac heaved out a breath. “It’s not being disloyal to say I have to feel a little bit sorry for him. I know what it’s like to be a complete jerk about this kind of thing. Having someone love you and being an ass.”

Laurel nodded. “Yeah, you do. Take a minute to feel a little bit sorry for him.” She waited, glanced at her watch. “Done?”

“Yeah, pretty much.”

“I guess I’ll take a minute, too, because the guy looked rough.” Laurel glanced toward the steps. “But she’s had it rougher. We should go check on her.”

“I will. I think we need to stick to routine as much as we can,” Parker added. “She’ll only feel worse if things get too backed up, if it affects the business. So for now, we work—and if we do get backed up or hit snags, let’s try to keep her out of it until she’s steadier.”

“If we need an extra hand with anything, we can ask Carter. My guy is the best.”

“Do you ever get tired of bragging about that?” Laurel asked Mac.

Mac considered. “Really don’t.” She slung an arm around Laurel’s shoulders. “I guess that’s why I feel a little bit for Jack, and a whole lot for Emma. Love can really screw you up before you figure out how to live with it. And once you do? You wonder how the hell you ever lived without it. I think I need to go give Carter a real kick-in-the-ass kiss. I’ll check back in this afternoon,” Mac added as she started toward the kitchen. “Call if she needs me sooner.”

“ ‘Love can really screw you up before you figure out how to live with it.’ ” Laurel pursed her lips. “You know, we could put that on the web page.”

“It has a ring.”

“She’s right about Carter. He’s the best. But that man is not coming in my kitchen when I’m working. I don’t want to have to hurt him, Parker. Let me know if Em needs another shoulder, or you need a soldier on the front line of the bride wars.”

With a nod, Parker started up the steps.


Upstairs, Emma ordered herself to get out of bed, to stop lying there feeling sorry for herself. Instead, she hugged a pillow close and stared at the ceiling.

Her friends had drawn the curtains over the windows so the room would stay dark and quiet. They’d tucked her in like an invalid, with extra pillows, a vase of freesia on the nightstand. They’d sat with her until she’d slept.

She should be ashamed, she told herself. Ashamed of being so needy, so weak. But she could only be grateful they’d been there, they’d understood what she’d needed.

But now it was another day. She needed to move on, needed to deal with reality. Broken hearts healed. Maybe the cracks were always there, like thin scars, but they healed. People lived and worked, laughed and ate, walked and talked with those cracks.

For many, even the scars healed and they loved again.

But how many of those people had the one who’d broken their heart so entrenched in their life that they had to see him over and over again? For how many was that person like a thread that was so woven into the tapestry of their every day that to pull it out meant everything else unraveled?

She didn’t have the option of shutting Jack outside the structure of her life. Of not seeing him again, or only seeing him at specified times.

That was why office romances were so fraught with pitfalls, she decided. When they went bad, you had to face the pain every day. Nine to five, five days a week. Or you quit, you transferred, moved to another city. You escaped so you could heal and go on.

Not an option for her because . . .

Jamaica. Adele’s offer.

Not just another office, another city, but another country. A completely fresh start. She could continue to do the work she loved, but be a new person. No complicated relationships, no interwoven ties. No Jack to face whenever he dropped by the house, or whenever they happened to be in the market at the same time. Invited to the same party.

No looks of sympathy from the scores of people who’d know she had those cracks on her heart.

She could do good work. All those tropical flowers. A perpetual spring and summer. A little house on the beach, maybe, where she could listen to the waves every night.

Alone.

She shifted when she heard the door ease open.

“I’m awake.”

“Coffee.” Parker crossed to the bed, offered the cup and saucer. “I brought it just in case.”

“Thanks. Thanks, Parker.”

“How about some breakfast?” Moving briskly now, Parker walked over to open the drapes, let in the light.

“Just not hungry.”

“Okay.” Parker sat on the side of the bed, brushed the hair back from Emma’s cheek. “Did you sleep?”

“I did, actually. I guess it was an escape route, and I took it. I feel sort of musty and dull now. And stupid. I’m not suffering from some fatal disease. I don’t have broken bones or internal bleeding. No one died, for God’s sake. And I can’t even talk myself into getting out of bed.”

“It’s been less than a day.”

“You’re going to tell me to give myself time. It’ll get better.”

“It will. Some people say divorce can be like death. I think that’s true. And I think something like this, when the love is so big, so deep, it’s the same.” Parker’s eyes, warm and blue, radiated sympathy. “There has to be grief.”

“Why can’t I just be mad? Why can’t I just be pissed off? The son of a bitch, the bastard, whatever. Can’t I skip off the grief part and just hate him? We can all go out, get drunk, and trash him?”

“Not you, Emma. If I thought you could do it, if I thought it would help, we’d blow off the day, get drunk, and start the trashing right now.”

“You would.” Finding a smile, finally, Emma sat back against the pillows and studied her friend’s face. “You know what I was lying here in my ocean of self-pity thinking right before you came in?”

“What?”

“That I should take Adele’s offer. I could go to Jamaica, relocate, help her launch her business. I’d be good at it. I know how to set it up, handle the reins. Or at least find the right people to handle the various reins. It would be a fresh start for me, and I could make it work. I could make it shine.”